Re: Re: Life Has Been A Mess

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many hugs cyndi! will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. shawna

 

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Cyndi just read this on my digest copy. Sending you love and one big hug.

Louise

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Sun Feb 20, 2011 4:19 am (PST)

Group sorry that I have not been on much over the past couple of months. I

was dealing with 's pneumonia,open wound on face, and trying to place

him someone where to let the wound heal. No sooner than I got him placed in

an autism unit that they were supposed to keep him safe I found out my

husband had been cheating on me. According to our phone records this started

in Nov. right before Thanksgiving. I had been feeling neglected an unloved

for some time. Of course I turned to him and asked how we could fix our

marital issues. I told him I felt like a roommate and that I needed more. He

said " I just don't have it in me. " What a blow that made me feel really

uncomfortable and I was not sure what to do or say with that kind of a

statement. I just kind of let it go but mentally I was hurt. I noticed he

had been acting to sure of himself in the way he talked to me. Then right

after was secured in the hospital I asked him what days he was off work

the next week in front of our daughter. He said WED. & Thurs. Monday of that

week we had a fight. Tues. Morning I got up at 4:30 when he got up and left

before him. I hid in the neighborhood and when I saw his truck go by I

started to follow him. He was not heading to work but the expressway. At

4:30 in the morning there is no place to hide and no cars on the road. My

husband spotted me and turned his truck around. He then pulled into a gas

station. When I asked him where he was going he said " oh I knew you left

early from the house and were going to be watching me so I turned that way

on purpose. That was bullshit. I then followed him to work and then hid my

car after 10 minutes. My stupid husband gets in his truck to leave heading

for the freeway again.I found out he was not scheduled to work that day. He

lied to my daughter and myself about his off days which were actually Tues.

and Wed. I checked our cell phone records and he was talking to some women

from another city in Ky for many hours,many days. He went to that City and I

tracked him by his cell phone. I new exactly the address where he was. The

lady was an old friend I know and I new who she was. She lost her husband to

a heart attack. My husband, her husband and herself had all been friends 22

yrs ago before we got married. Ulis and I were high school sweat-hearts that

broke up and were apart for 8 yrs before we got married. I always thought

our relationship was meant to be but actually it has been nothing but lies,

hurt,money issues and fighting constantly about .I am pissed that he did

this because I could have had an affair but turning away from a relationship

is not the answers. We live in such a throw away society people just give up

and don't even try to work things out. I am so upset. I started the process

of filing for a divorce and he told me he was sorry and that he ended the

relationship. He truly seems sorry but I am hurt beyond repair.Cyndi