Today is my Birthday ! Ick ick

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Today is my birthday and I noticed more wrinkles. My hands are starting to look

old and wrinkled and I am thinking if I win the lottery I am doing botox etc. I

hate how fat I have let myself get and yet food is an addiction for me. Why or

Why can't I be one of those people when I am stressed that I do not want to

eat?? I was a thin teenager and even into my twenties but not now. I wish I

could recognize myself but I do not. While is in school today I am getting

together with my sister and I have all this time and do not even know what I

want to do. My sister likes the gamling boat but not me. I went one time and

hated it. I do not have money to through away hoping to win some. I want to look

like the people in Hollywood that are my age like Demi , for real. Can that

really be her body in the magazines? Cynd B