Re: Bowen Therapy Week 2

[Guest guest]

Hi Shay –

This is great news. I actually recently contacted a Bowen

practitioner in my area and plan on making an appointment shortly.

She also specializes in homeopathy and Chinese medicine. She uses

these treatments in conjunction with Bowen. She said she is familiar

with our condition, and said that these therapies can alleviate the

symptoms. We'll see.

I hope things continue to improve…thanks for keeping us posted.

Luther

>

> Today was Bowen Therapy 2 of 5, it's been one week since the first

session.

>

> I've made the biggest progress in the last week than in the last 2

> years. I'm really excited about this, and hopefully this gives

everyone

> some hope.

>

> First, I have been experiencing sexual dreaming and erections

daily

> since session 1. Basically, I see a fairly attractive woman and I

get an

> erection and start daydreaming, or I am sitting at my desk and I

start

> to daydream. I haven't felt like this in more than a year. I was

> standing in line in the grocery store and saw a woman that I

wouldn't

> even have noticed in the past, and right then and there my mind

goes off

> and I have to hold the bags to hide my crotch. I've manually tried

a

> couple of times to verify this, and sure enough, every time I

spend a

> minute thinking about sex, my downstairs acts accordingly. I did

so in

> bed last night.... it's probably been years since that's happened.

>

> Second, I felt that emotional feeling that I used to get when

turned on

> for the first time in over 2 years (since starting the effexor).

It's

> that hot flash that would give me sweaty hands, a surge of

adrenaline,

> and the feeling in my stomach that told me I was turned on, and

that I

> needed to do something about it. It's hard to describe, but I'd

say it's

> the desire part. I felt it for a brief second on Monday, then

tonight I

> felt it again, really intense. I guess it's that general feeling

of

> being horny.

>

> My penile sensitivity is actually up a bit as well, but still a

ways to

> go. It's still starts off very flaccid and numb, but the return of

the

> sexual thoughts wakes it up quickly. In fact, thinking makes

everything

> work much faster than by touching. This is how I remember things,

until

> I started the effexor and began to notice that I was losing the

desire

> part and ended up having to touch to start things off. The orgasm

also

> feels a bit more normal.

>

> Mentally, I went through some crying and anger, but for the last

three

> days I have felt much better than in the last five months. I

didn't feel

> depressed or anxious, and I felt good enough to be sociable with

other

> people. I still don't feel much joy or pleasure in things I used

to do,

> but this is a start.

>

>

> Once again I want to point out the fact that I can concurrently

doing a

> couple of things in addition to the Bowen's, so I don't know for

sure it

> the following are due in part to it, although I hope so. I'll list

these

> first:

>

> -I stayed off the wellbutrin for 4 days (Saturday to Tuesday)

because I

> hate the zombie effect, mental confusion, and insomnia. Took 75mg

on

> Tuesday night, because I think the sudden stop caused a tingle in

my

> left thigh throughout the day, which I have never felt in my life.

I

> have been on 75mg wellbutrin for one month. My zombie feeling and

mental

> confusion cleared up as soon as I stopped taking them. I took one

last

> night, but still felt great mentally and sexually today as well,

so I'm

> not really sure how much of an effect the wellbutrin is having.

>

> -Took Sleepinal, a sleeping pill, for 3 of those 4 days due to the

> extreme insomnia. They worked alright, as I felt better during the

day.

> I doubt these had anything to do with anything else.

>

> -Still writing a journal, recording my progress and how I feel.

Also,

> doing the TMS workbook (trying to find hidden anger and stress

that is

> causing physical and emotional symptoms, such as back pain and

> depression). I felt really emotional lately, with crying and all,

and

> managed to write for like a couple of hours, just letting go of

all the

> past situations in my life that may be to blame for my anger.

Always

> seems to make me feel better.

>

>

> So right now I am feeling pretty damn optimistic. I hope that the

> Bowen's is to blame, and hope that it continues to improve

everything. I

> will continue to take 75mg wellbutrin at intervals, to see if it

gets

> rid of this stupid leg tingle. And hopefully the wellbutrin isn't

what

> lifted my depression, since my goal is to get off pills.

>

> Shay

>