all I have left is the power of prayer....LONG!!!

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Hello Everyone, This is , mom to twins Nicala & (ds/adhd/autism) who are going to be 11 in Dec (its hard to believe now that they were only a little over 2lbs each at birth), who is going to be 9 this month, and who is going to be 2 on the same day. I have kept fairly silent over more recent years due to the fact of not knowing if my now ex-husband was/is on this list serve (Judy, Sara...this is something that I intended on asking you but also realize that you probably wouldn't know the answer anyhow, as he would be using an alias). I believe that I am one of the 1st five members of this group.....and this is the only group that I have belonged to for years now (although.... I did leave it for some time fairly early on due to marital problems, etc). Ok, I am getting side tracked.... Anyhow, what I am writing now is limited as I do not

know if my ex may possibly be reading it so I am trying to keep to known facts alone.... I can't even begin to explain....but I will try. Oct 28, 2001 (the day of 's 3rd b-day party...which was ultimately cancelled) my now ex husband assaulted me and went to jail for it (he pleaded guilty to the charges). This event was not the first one.....the only difference is that the police were involved. Although my now ex husband in general was abusive...his number one target was . He use to refer to him as "double R" and "triple R" which meant "Retard " and " the Retarded Runt." He has admitted in court documentation to bruising 's penis and locking him in his room.....etc, etc. There is much more detail but I hesitate on how much I should divulge.... Fast forward six year..... I have since Jan 2003 had 100% custody of all three children. My ex has had limited access with the children mostly of his own choice. In the past 2-3 years he has excluded from his visits with the children....which is fine with me aside from his open displays of isolation towards . In early 2005 he was charged with sexually molesting a minor.....this had nothing to do with me or our children. Once it got to trial...he was not charged. He was not found innocent but rather it was thrown out because the (at the time) 9 yr old child could not recall all details from a year prior. June 4, 2007 I had my ex served with papers, bringing him back to court due to the fact that what was being garnished from his wages did not fall anywhere close to what he should be paying in child support, according to the federal child support guidelines. The

very day he was served he, in person; went to CAS (Children's Aid Society) and reported to them that I was going to kill all four children (mind you the youngest isn't even his). This led to an investigation. AGAIN the children were subject to questioning (as they were back in 2005), as was I. In the end, my ex husband ended up with the order of only being allowed "supervised access" by CAS. He refused to abide by this so CAS applied for a "Child Protection Order" via the family courts for Nicala, & . This was initially heard on July 12, 2007 at which point the judge ordered it adjourned until Aug 31, 2007 (which later got adjourned again) and until that time allowed unsupervised access. After one visit that the children had with my ex after that order, I (for the 1st time) decided to personally deny him unsupervised access as the girls (of

course he didn't take ....he doesn't want anything to do with him....aside from having him institutionalized) came back reporting to me that he told them that they were going to be leaving the country with him and would never see me again. He ignored my wishes and began showing up at my home every other weekend to try and exercise access (he has never been more consistent with wanting to visit with the children). We have had to go into hiding several times due to not knowing to what extreme he will take wanting to exercise access. Police have been involved, etc.... Ok....there is way too much to explain....it would take forever. He is trying to starve us out of house and home. He is now paying $0.00 per month in child support. Has now denied me access to his benefit plan for the children's medical and dental needs. Is racking up my lawyers bill to unbelievable amounts.....he is representing

himself and files new motions approx every two weeks. He is trying to obtain 100% custody of all three children.....but then in his "plan of care" he immediately lists institutionalizing . His mother has also made a motion to the courts for custody of only . Ok....tomorrow is a very big day. Tomorrow will determine if my ex is allowed supervised OR unsupervised access. Custody issues will also be heard but I have no worries in that regard (call me cocky or I just know I am a good mom). Obviously I want supervised access as we now have reason to believe that he has sexually molested other minors (including Nicala and possibly ). I am asking that you please pray that Nicala, & remain protected and not be allowed to be placed into the care (unsupervised), for even an hour; of a paedophile. Ok...that is the

short, unedited version....and it is now officially the day of the hearing....I hesitate on sending this due to fear of him being on this list serve and in some twisted way using it again me.....call me paranoide..... but every time I have been called that, it has been proven that I am not.....