Re: Accepting Death---

April 29, 2007

Hang in there . You're in much the same position I was in, and I've

recovered. The

SSRIs left me with little sexual interest, almost no sensitivity, I could barely

get it up, I

couldn't keep it up and I was hardly attracted to anybody. Also, it seemed like

every girl I

met wanted to mess around. Now I:

-Often have sex 3, 4 or 5x per day (I have a girlfriend)

-Feel like I NEED sex again

-Erections are back 100%.

-last almost as long as I want, but can cum when I need to

-am easily aroused visually

-can have sex again after only about 5 minutes (although I don't get 100% hard,

only

maybe 80%)

-think about sex all the time

It's not quite perfect yet. When having sex, I'm still a little insensitive to

begin with, but it

always gets really good after a few minutes. I believe there are others here who

have also

recovered to a large extent. I expect to recover fully, as I just keep getting

better and every

month.

Did you read my thread about my theory for why I recovered? I don't know if the

biological

theory for my recovery have much merit, but my technique worked for me. In

short, you

need to try and make yourself the 'Alpha Male' of your group. It sounds like you

have a lot

of talent. If you can stop thinking about how horrible your life is and focus on

your

rapping and friends, then I'm sure you can beat this thing too. Good luck.

>

> I've had no sexual functioning for like 3 years now and I know that I

> can not live like this for the rest of my life. It's simply

> impossible for me. Girls seem to really be attracted to me, which

> most guys would die for, but this just makes things worse. I have to

> literally duck and hide from girls so I don't get to know them too

> well. If I get to know them too well, it will lead to sexual

> interaction, which used to be everything that I lived for.

>

> Along with that, I can't live with this emotional bluntness anymore.

> My passion, creativity, and my love for others used to be my strongest

> attributes, but were taken away. I still have a little left, but

> nothing like how I used to be.

>

> HAS ANYONE RECOVERED FROM THIS FULLY????????????????????????

>

> Anyway, this may sound real negative, but I'm accepting that I have to

> die soon. I realize that no one really gets better from this and I'd

> rather be dead than to live like this. I really don't want to live

> anymore, with all of this loneliness, lack of emotions, and whatnot.

> The only time I'm at peace is when I accept that my death will be

> soon. I'm somewhat concerned about the afterlife. Will I go to hell

> if I kill myself? I hope not, but I feel like I'm living in hell already.

>

> Atleast I got to taste the good life before I came down with PSSD.

> Riding in the car with four of my boys and smoking weed, playing jokes

> on each other. Chasing girls and having sex with a new one every week

> or two. Recording rap songs and freestyling with my friends. Playing

> basketball and knowing that I was going to get some pussy afterwards.

> Atleast I will be remembered for being that , the one God made.

> If I keep living like this, people will remember me as someone that I

> definitely am not naturally. I can't believe those damn little pills

> did this to me.

>

> Normal people don't seem to understand how hard it is to function like

> this. I think they'll know about my pain when they lay me to rest.

> Peace.

>

April 29, 2007

Hey man, I'm not gonna patronize you by telling you that your problem is mental and not physical, because come on, someone has likely told all of us that and we all know that its a bullsh*t excuse used by doctors and drug companies to cover their own asses. But seriously, you sound so depressed that even if you did start to get better, you're not going to notice it. Depression can be just as destructive to your sex drive as these pills. If you are sure that there is no way things will ever improve, then they certainly never will. Once again, I'm not trying to say the source of your problem is your depression, but I AM saying I don't see any possible way you can get better if youre this sure that life is worthless. We all know the pain you feel everyday, we're all going through it. But there IS hope. Some people say they get better with time. Others say they don't completely recover, but are capible (sometimes

albiet with the help of medication) of having sex and living in happy, healthy relationships. I know that sometimes it seems like this is the worst possible way to live, but come on man, thats not true at all. I don't know about you, but I've never had to awaken to bombs blowing my family into bits, nor have I had to watch plauge, famine, or pestilance eat away whole cities of people. I think the reason this whole thing is so hard on us is that it is so unnatural, people where never meant to live like this. But we do have to keep living like this. Because, believe me, I understand how three years of this can wear you down, but against the span of your whole life, that three years isn't everything. Five, ten, fifteen years from now, you may be married with kids and the exact same sex drive as before the SSRIs. Who knows what leaps medicine might take? And even if things do not get fully better, I guarentee, they will not stay

as bad as they seem now. You gotta keep on living man, L I V I N G. Nothing, not even these terrible pills, can destroy the fact that life is actually pretty wonderful, sex or not. In my opinion, if victims of spinal cord injuries can lose bother their sexual functioning and their ability to walk, and yet still have the courage to wake up everyday and find joy in life, then I can do it. Those people KNOW they will never get better, as opposed to us, who have don't know what the future holds in regard to recovery. It may take years, but even if I never get better I fully recover, I believe that I can still achieve my dream of finding a partner who loves me AND having a family. Everyone has some burden to carry in life, and life's not fair. Some people get a worst hand then others, but believe me, no matter what you may feel like, you are NOT living the worst life possible. You really sound like you need help for

your depression, there are a lot of ways to help, and I'm not talking about drugs. In fact in my opinion, drugs can't help you get better at all (they can just relieve some of the symptoms for a bit while you take them). In short, you life is not out of hope man. We're all in this together, and we all need and are there for each other in this.brianbeezly wrote: I've had no sexual functioning for like 3 years now and I know that Ican not live like this for the rest of my life. It's

simplyimpossible for me. Girls seem to really be attracted to me, whichmost guys would die for, but this just makes things worse. I have toliterally duck and hide from girls so I don't get to know them toowell. If I get to know them too well, it will lead to sexualinteraction, which used to be everything that I lived for.Along with that, I can't live with this emotional bluntness anymore. My passion, creativity, and my love for others used to be my strongestattributes, but were taken away. I still have a little left, butnothing like how I used to be.HAS ANYONE RECOVERED FROM THIS FULLY????????????????????????Anyway, this may sound real negative, but I'm accepting that I have todie soon. I realize that no one really gets better from this and I'drather be dead than to live like this. I really don't want to liveanymore, with all of this loneliness, lack of emotions, and whatnot. The only time

I'm at peace is when I accept that my death will besoon. I'm somewhat concerned about the afterlife. Will I go to hellif I kill myself? I hope not, but I feel like I'm living in hell already.Atleast I got to taste the good life before I came down with PSSD. Riding in the car with four of my boys and smoking weed, playing jokeson each other. Chasing girls and having sex with a new one every weekor two. Recording rap songs and freestyling with my friends. Playingbasketball and knowing that I was going to get some pussy afterwards.Atleast I will be remembered for being that , the one God made.If I keep living like this, people will remember me as someone that Idefinitely am not naturally. I can't believe those damn little pillsdid this to me.Normal people don't seem to understand how hard it is to function likethis. I think they'll know about my pain when they lay me to rest.

Peace.

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April 30, 2007

You've had it for 3 years but decided to give up a few weeks after

finding this group? This group is proof that there is hope and that we

are all combining our efforts to find a cure. We have to look for

answers in places we don't expect to find them, look everywhere. There

is always one more thing to try, one more method to experiment with. I

can't be the only human guinea pig here, hell there are enough pills to

try alone to last me 10 years.

, there are tons of pills out there to try, even Survector, a

banned pill that you can still obtain. Tons and tons of stuff to try,

whether it be dozens of pills or other methods. That is why I am trying

Bowen's, to look for that little something that the mass population is

too stupid to consider. I am willing to spend the money to experiment,

because what is money without happiness? It's a risk, but it's also just

money, and it could turn out to be my best decision ever if it works.

Won't know until I try.

It really kills me that people don't think a little bit harder when

solving a problem like depression (no one here specifically). I gather

as much information as possible and take a wide look at what's worked

and what hasn't, especially on me. Eating right? Sorry, but this doesn't

even make sense. Sure, eating right will give you vitamins and minerals

and stuff your bodies needs to function properly, but I seriously doubt

that there is one food out there that is strong enough to cause

depression. It's like when they all shout not to drink liquor... sorry,

but it's out of the system in a matter of days, if not hours. My

depression is around for months. Let's put it this way: if diet had

anything to do with it, then fat people would all be depressed.

Same thing with exercise. I agree that exercise does help alleviate

symptoms for a while, so does stuff like yoga, but again it is like

throwing a band-aid on after getting shot. Weightlifting will give you

larger muscles, how is that even possibly related to your brain? I could

say that it might raise your self-confidence and help a bit, but I know

that when I am depressed that I really don't care about what I look

like. I've heard that cell phones, microwaves, and Wi-Fi contribute to

depression. Everything in the book is blamed, despite the fact that

depression originates in the brain and is obviously a state of mind,

something emotional. And I know that most of us agree after taking pills

for our emotions that the idea is stupid. Take a pill to correct a

chemical imbalance? What about the emotional imbalance that is causing

the chemical imbalance? Treat the cause, not the symptom. I look at

depression as just another symptom, not the thing causing everything.

Find out what is causing the depression and treat the cause, not the

symptom.

Shay

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