Re: discovery of a lifetime

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My heart goes out to you! I feel so saddenned by your story- no one

deserves to suffer the way that you have. Its bad enough to have

these personal struggles to deal with (ocd, tourettes), and then to

have to deal with the issues that the medications bring up. Not to

mention people not understanding you and wanting to dope you up so

that you're not a nuissance anymore. These must have been difficult

years for you. It seems that you have a deep reservior of strength

somewhere inside, or you would not have made it this far, nor been

brave enough to believe that someone would love you enough to be your

girlfriend and live with you.

I don't know what else to say, except that I hope you do not give up

on yourself. You're not beyond repair. It might not be easy, but

you're not a lost cause.

Just ask your girlfriend.

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> IM sorry but im new to this webgroup and i have to just vent. I'll

> try to keep it real short. I am 23 and have been on ssri's since ten

> years old. If anyone knows what its been like, ive been though it

> all. they had me on antipsychotics for tourette syndrome since

> around 9, and then every drug out there, you name it, i have been on

> it. Prozac, seroquel, risperadal,geodin,lexapro, zoloft,

> paxil,trazadone,wellbutrin,, and all others years at a time. Im not

> exaggerating. I have had millions of suicidial thoughts and desires,

> have broken glasses slicing my arms up with it, stabbed my

> stepfather in the face with a fork, spent 16 hour days sleeping in a

> room all alone writing sicj depressed poetry with not social life.

> I even almost died from starvation at one point. The funny thing is

> that im not sizophrenic, or even mentally retarted. I just have ocd,

> and tourette's. Not my penis is dead, and my fiance is struggling in

> a part of my hell that the drug industry, and my own mother created.

> why them and the doctors? Because they have had me on these drugs

> for so long they have destroyed me. Well now im off them as of this

> year, im happy to say im living with my girlfriend now in my own

> place doing better than ever. I can now feel my emotions, i can now

> cry, but i am still so damaaged beyond repair im afraid. My penis

> has no feeling and i can barely keep it hard, and im 23! I wish i

> was never put on any medications, i may not even be able to have

> kids. I have seen the light, and i pray am on the road to recovery.

> Ive just got to pick up the horrible, discarded pieces.

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