Love, Approval and Appreciation

[Guest guest]

Hello everybody,

With a view to healing and not hiding I want to share with you some

of my reactions to being a part of this group.

I like it very much when somebody, anybody responds to any post of

mine.

I especially like it if they agree with something I've said or say

they found it helpful. I get a little rush of specialness which could

tide me over for a while.

I don't like it if everybody goes gaga over someone else's post even

if I liked it or was touched by it myself. 'He/she' is getting too

much attention which my mind construes as " I am nothing " . I didn't

like how many people loved Deb's and Martha's posts recently.

As I write this it doesn't feel heavy but I must say I have felt

crunches in my tummy over this and have had to go write out the Work

several times on my reactions. I realize how good this is for me,

this group that shows me so clearly my desire for acknowledgement and

I am so grateful to be here and to have this daily opportunity to

meet these thoughts and to learn to be with them as little children

looking for some understanding and love (thank you Suzanne and ).

Much gratitude and love to you all in this moment.

Here's to freedom!

Margaret

[Guest guest]

I realize you didn't write this for the comment I'm about to make, but I

love your honesty.

Laurie O.

-- Love, Approval and Appreciation

Hello everybody,

With a view to healing and not hiding I want to share with you some

of my reactions to being a part of this group.

I like it very much when somebody, anybody responds to any post of

mine.

I especially like it if they agree with something I've said or say

they found it helpful. I get a little rush of specialness which could

tide me over for a while.

I don't like it if everybody goes gaga over someone else's post even

if I liked it or was touched by it myself. 'He/she' is getting too

much attention which my mind construes as " I am nothing " . I didn't

like how many people loved Deb's and Martha's posts recently.

As I write this it doesn't feel heavy but I must say I have felt

crunches in my tummy over this and have had to go write out the Work

several times on my reactions. I realize how good this is for me,

this group that shows me so clearly my desire for acknowledgement and

I am so grateful to be here and to have this daily opportunity to

meet these thoughts and to learn to be with them as little children

looking for some understanding and love (thank you Suzanne and ).

Much gratitude and love to you all in this moment.

Here's to freedom!

Margaret

[Guest guest]

Thank you Margaret.

Re: Love, Approval and Appreciation

I realize you didn't write this for the comment I'm about to make, but Ilove your honesty.Laurie O.-------Original Message-------From: Loving-what-is Date: Wednesday, June 05, 2002 04:38:00 PMTo: Loving-what-is Subject: Love, Approval and AppreciationHello everybody,With a view to healing and not hiding I want to share with you some of my reactions to being a part of this group.I like it very much when somebody, anybody responds to any post of mine.I especially like it if they agree with something I've said or say they found it helpful. I get a little rush of specialness which could tide me over for a while.I don't like it if everybody goes gaga over someone else's post even if I liked it or was touched by it myself. 'He/she' is getting too much attention which my mind construes as "I am nothing". I didn't like how many people loved Deb's and Martha's posts recently.As I write this it doesn't feel heavy but I must say I have felt crunches in my tummy over this and have had to go write out the Work several times on my reactions. I realize how good this is for me, this group that shows me so clearly my desire for acknowledgement and I am so grateful to be here and to have this daily opportunity to meet these thoughts and to learn to be with them as little children looking for some understanding and love (thank you Suzanne and ).Much gratitude and love to you all in this moment.Here's to freedom!Margaret

[Guest guest]

I am constantly amazed by the honesty here, thank you all.

Love, Approval and Appreciation

Hello everybody,With a view to healing and not hiding I want to share with you some of my reactions to being a part of this group.I like it very much when somebody, anybody responds to any post of mine.I especially like it if they agree with something I've said or say they found it helpful. I get a little rush of specialness which could tide me over for a while.I don't like it if everybody goes gaga over someone else's post even if I liked it or was touched by it myself. 'He/she' is getting too much attention which my mind construes as "I am nothing". I didn't like how many people loved Deb's and Martha's posts recently.As I write this it doesn't feel heavy but I must say I have felt crunches in my tummy over this and have had to go write out the Work several times on my reactions. I realize how good this is for me, this group that shows me so clearly my desire for acknowledgement and I am so grateful to be here and to have this daily opportunity to meet these thoughts and to learn to be with them as little children looking for some understanding and love (thank you Suzanne and ).Much gratitude and love to you all in this moment.Here's to freedom!Margaret

[Guest guest]

Thank you so much for posting this, Margaret. You are not alone in

these thoughts! This one relates totally.

Family, I'll be offline for awhile, as I'm doing the " Staff School "

here in NYC. (Gasp...no internet...MUST POST MESSAGES... Nah,

I'll survive. But I do love you guys so much.)

See you after June 16...and maybe see some of you at 's NYC

event

on June 15? Please find me and say hi if you come!

Love, Carol

> Hello everybody,

>

> With a view to healing and not hiding I want to share with you some

> of my reactions to being a part of this group.

> I like it very much when somebody, anybody responds to any post of

> mine.

> I especially like it if they agree with something I've said or say

> they found it helpful. I get a little rush of specialness which

could

> tide me over for a while.

> I don't like it if everybody goes gaga over someone else's post

even

> if I liked it or was touched by it myself. 'He/she' is getting too

> much attention which my mind construes as " I am nothing " . I didn't

> like how many people loved Deb's and Martha's posts recently.

> As I write this it doesn't feel heavy but I must say I have felt

> crunches in my tummy over this and have had to go write out the

Work

> several times on my reactions. I realize how good this is for me,

> this group that shows me so clearly my desire for acknowledgement

and

> I am so grateful to be here and to have this daily opportunity to

> meet these thoughts and to learn to be with them as little

children

> looking for some understanding and love (thank you Suzanne and

).

>

> Much gratitude and love to you all in this moment.

>

> Here's to freedom!

>

> M

[Guest guest]

Margaret,

At the risk of adding to your feeling of being special (which God forbid you

should feel), I love you honest post as well...

ps..While it may be a flag to do the work when we feel special..(since

feeling special is just a form of feeling separate)..I don't see it as " bad "

or immoral in any way ....Margaret, I'm curious do you have the core belief

that it's bad or " unspiritual " to feel special, smart etc rather than just

occasionally uncomfortable?

[Guest guest]

Dear all

I'm signing off now as I go and give myself a week of the work and Loving What Is _ I am so looking forward to it. Its been lovely focusing more on the posting this week as a preparation for it, thank you all. (And, apropos to 'reprogramming' I still run the story that I need to 'get rid of' some of my angry and resentful thoughts and I hope that this week will help)

lots of love

Suzanne

[Guest guest]

Dear ,

your very special!

I understand you mended something ells in your post.

Okey that's also a possibility, to feel less or better.

All nature is special and uncomparable.

And not separate, all my walls are white

painted and i like every tiny bit, and see

it as special. It ís special because i am.

We're one in specialness. :-))

Margaret, have you fond that being better

is something totally different than

" being the best " ?

That's the intuition we're love and holy.

Love, Michiel

> Margaret,

> At the risk of adding to your feeling of being special (which God

forbid you

> should feel), I love you honest post as well...

>

> ps..While it may be a flag to do the work when we feel special..

(since

> feeling special is just a form of feeling separate)..I don't see

it as " bad "

> or immoral in any way ....Margaret, I'm curious do you have the

core belief

> that it's bad or " unspiritual " to feel special, smart etc rather

than just

> occasionally uncomfortable?