Re: Self-defeating behavior

[Guest guest]

<< I'll give Gabe an

undosed snack thinking that Maybe he has enough insulin to cover it, but

almost always he is super high the next day and then I spend the day trying

to correct the error from the night before.

This is what helps me, when I tell myself: " n, guess what? " Gabe is

still going to have diabetes tonight and tomorrow and whether you like it or

not, you are going to get another chance to fix it, so stop moping and try

to

figure out what you did incorrectly. " >>

Can I ever relate to this! When I've had a day where everything has been

going well, I can so easily fall into this notion that maybe IT (diabetes)

has gotten better or gone away, and I eat without insulin, and the numbers go

soaring. It's amazing how hard it is to hold onto the reality - the minute

things are going smoothly, without much effort, I start to minimize the

diabetes. And I've done this many times over the past 10 years, so I'm not

even learning from past mistakes. And I usually do learn from the past. I

think it's probably related to how " silent " the diabetes is - from day to

day, usually the only thing that tells you something is wrong is the meter,

rather than symptoms. I guess it's harder to take in the reality from

numbers than it is from having something hurt.

Nan

[Guest guest]

Nan, I'm so glad you posted this. For the longest I thought I was the only

one doing this to myself. I absolutely hate the fact that I have diabetes

(somehow I see this as a betrayal by my body). I see my endocrinologist

every three months. For two and a half months my BGs will be good. And I

can feel that I've lost some weight. The about 2 weeks before my

appointment I start craving junk food, french fries, candy, etc. And,

naturally, my blood sugars start creeping up.

Earlier this month my BGs were great - I was experimenting with the Zone

eating plan. But this week they've been higher (not terrible but higher).

And I feel more bloated (like I've gained back some weight).

Maybe the lesson I need to learn from diabetes is that it's okay to mess up

once in a while as long as it doesn't become an ongoing pattern and I

shouldn't be so hard on myself. But it ain't easy.

Live long & prosper,

Deb

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