Please understand

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I'll try to be brief, but I am so tired of this. This being fibro

and RA. I try to stay out of the way, but I read all your posts and

my prayers are with everyone. Cortnee, I understand so completely

your frustration. I am 34, and a mother of 3 (5, 6 & 7 year olds).

I've been off work for a week because my 5 year old had surgery.

I'm scheduled to go back in 3 days. I honestly felt that being home

would give me some rest...of course that didn't happen. My " baby "

had her tonsils and adenoids out and has had a rough recovery.

I guess that the RA has moved to my right leg. It is very swollen

and I can hardly bend it. Of course most of it radiates down from

my back and buttocks. But I just don't know. I'm crying all the

time! I'm so frustrated and nothing seems to help the pain go

away. The pain medication takes the edge off, but I am so tired of

hurting all the time! I would just like 1 day of no pain...of being

ME again. I am crying again and my " baby " doesn't understand.

I don't think I can do this guys. I'm begging you all...please pray

for a little relief for me. I know I'm being selfish, but I have

dishes and laundry to do. My fiance and I have moved in together,

but as he says it " I don't understand, but I'll be supportive " ...but

he just called and as I sat here crying his response is " did you

take a pain pill?...Good then, you'll be fine " But I won't be

fine. I don't even know what that is anymore.

I see the rheumatologist finally on Aug. 30th (IF my work will still

let me off since I missed this last week)...PLEASE pray that he can

help...I honestly can't take much more.

THANK YOU ALL AND GOD BLESS...please don't take me as too

whiny...I'm actually a very strong person.

Prisicilla