Marie

[Guest guest]

((((((((((((Marie)))))))))))) my prayers are with you as you go through such

a trying time. I hope for better days ahead with less pain and more sleep.

take care.

kerri sue

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Marie,

I am sorry that your going through pain and depression right now. Its

so hard, we all go through it. If that med isn't helping you for

depression, I would ask for something else. I will keep you in my

prayers, Tawny

>

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Marie)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) ..

.. know I understand...and you are in my heart and in my prayers.

>

> Love,

>

> Tess in Oregon

>

>

>

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Dear Marie,

My heart goes out to you. And my prayers are with you.

Because I'm new here, I don't know all the details of your situation;

but I can certainly recognize the grief and serious depression in your

words. How I wish you didn't have to endure this pain. I've also

experienced profound grief and depression, and I understand.

If it's only been 4 months since your daughter separated from you, the

wounds are very very fresh. It's natural that this would be a time of

deep grief for you. Knowing that it's natural, unfortunately, doesn't

ease the pain. And I think those of us with RA are more susceptible to

depression.

Is there any way you can see a counselor or a therapist who might help

you work with this? Although therapists and counselors can't take away

the pain--wouldn't it be great if they could!--they can be a tremendous

help in learning to find ways to cope.

Loving wishes,

Prakasha

On Oct 16, 2005, at 8:21 AM, snowespi wrote:

> Good Sunday to All! And a hearty welcome to all the Newbies! I just

> want to add on to 's post that this is a safe haven for those of

> us in pain that others can never understand and I do feel cared about

> and I know that I am definitely not alone. I live alone but all I have

> do do is log on and read and I am grateful for each and everyone of

> you. I still have alot of pain, physical but let me tell you that the

> emotional pain of my daughter removing herself from my life has left

> me

> feeling like a big part of me died inside. I still find myself

> pleading

> with God to please let this not be. I hope each day that she will call

> me. It's been over 4 months since I have seen her. Dealing with the

> pain from losing her, as we were so close, always,is so hard.

> Unbearable at times. I feel my heart literally hurting so much I feel

> like I could die from the grief. I will never understand how she could

> do this to me. She just recieved her PHD in immunology and she knows

> what I have to live with. She knows all to well. How could she still

> turn her back on her mother who she claimed she loved so much. Why? I

> can deal with the physical pain anyday now. The pain from my daughter

> has changed me. I don't like myself. I am existing but I am not

> living.I am breathing but I do not feel alive. I have this emptyness

> that leaves me feeling numb. I keep to myself all the time now. I am

> beyond depressed. I am like the walking dead. I have no joy. I read

> the

> funnies and I don't laugh. I sigh alot. I have no appetite. I was

> feeling so sick that my son on the west coast made me promise I'd go

> to

> the emergency room. Lucky me...staph infection! 10 days of

> antibiotics.

> I have not taken them every 8 hours as i was supposed too. I sleep

> between 16-20 hours a day. I tried. I need a miracle. I need

> something.

> I'm sorry for all of you who are going through your own nightmares. I

> sleep and i have peace. I wake up and the nightmare continues. The

> physical pain is nothing compared to the emotional pain. I know I am

> not alone. I know many of you have family who have broken your heart

> beyond belief. God help us all. I'll keep praying as that is all I can

> do. I fall on my knees and cry out to God and pour out what is left of

> my heart. I still cry myself to sleep. It's either that or I'm numb. I

> wonder when it will end. When and if I will ever feel alive again. I

> thank you all for being a part of this group as it is truly a life-

> saving support group for me and I'm sure many of you feel the same way

> about this group. This group that is now a very important part of my

> life. God bless you all. I wish for you all love, joy & peace.

> SIncerly & with blessings, Marie

[Guest guest]

Good -day to you ALL! I want to say " THANK YOU " to ALL of you for

your kindness,caring and support. I say " ALL " because I know that

all of you care even if you don't write as I care about each one of

you. I feel for each and everyone who posts in this group and I wish

I knew what to write to help. I'll just say that I do pray in my own

way. While in bed,this morning, upon awaking, I cried and I prayed

alot....again. I prayed for everyone who lives with horrible

diseases and all who live with pain. I prayed for ALL in our group

and I prayed for our world which is in such a mess. I prayed for my

daughter who was due on Oct. 7th. I hope she is ok. I don't even

know if she has had the baby. I know it is her husband who is a

control freak. I blame him. I know my daughter is also to blame as

she did not have to listen to him. I don't know why this is

happening. I just wish it would end. I finally moved here, as my

daughter begged me to, so she could help me. Things were good until

after she married. Then within two weeks all went to " pot " and like

I said no phone calls ,no nothing. I am feeling some hope today. I

cried and now I'm thinking I need to move away from here. The sooner

the better. MY daughter has two large checks of mine. Both gone, I

guess as I have e-mailed her and asked her to please give me my

money so I could move. She does not reply. I will never understand

how one could be so cruel. It truly is a nightmare. I am in such a

horrible bind in more ways than one. I can't see a way out. I'm

trying. I am going to try somehow. I guess I have to start by

selling my belongings and then I think I will move to New York. I

have to leave here asap. I know I can't continue as I have been.

Months in bed! This is so bad. Thank you ALL for your replies and

support and thank you to all in the group also for caring. God help

us all. with love, In Jesus's precious's love,Marie

>

> My dear girl, I am just catching up on my mail and just feel I

have to write you to say how sorry I am for what you are going

through with your daughter. I could feel the pain in your words.

You are a kind and loving person and you don't deserve this kind of

treatment but the biggest loser here will be your daughter and I

truly believe she will see the light very soon and be in touch. In

the meantime, be brave and keep reminding yourself that you are a

special person and don't allow one person to destroy what you are. I

will pray that your daughter wakes up and realizes what she is

missing.

>

> Hugs

> June

>

>

[Guest guest]

Marie,

I know that I don't write often. But you and everyone

else are in my prayers every day. I hope things work

out for you. Your daughter will regret her actions one

of these days. I have faith that she will come back

around. Take care. If there is anything I can do let

me know.

Beth(AR)

--- snowespi <snowespi@...> wrote:

> Good -day to you ALL! I want to say " THANK YOU " to

> ALL of you for

> your kindness,caring and support. I say " ALL "

> because I know that

> all of you care even if you don't write as I care

> about each one of

> you. I feel for each and everyone who posts in this

> group and I wish

> I knew what to write to help. I'll just say that I

> do pray in my own

> way. While in bed,this morning, upon awaking, I

> cried and I prayed

> alot....again. I prayed for everyone who lives with

> horrible

> diseases and all who live with pain. I prayed for

> ALL in our group

> and I prayed for our world which is in such a mess.

> I prayed for my

> daughter who was due on Oct. 7th. I hope she is ok.

> I don't even

> know if she has had the baby. I know it is her

> husband who is a

> control freak. I blame him. I know my daughter is

> also to blame as

> she did not have to listen to him. I don't know why

> this is

> happening. I just wish it would end. I finally moved

> here, as my

> daughter begged me to, so she could help me. Things

> were good until

> after she married. Then within two weeks all went to

> " pot " and like

> I said no phone calls ,no nothing. I am feeling some

> hope today. I

> cried and now I'm thinking I need to move away from

> here. The sooner

> the better. MY daughter has two large checks of

> mine. Both gone, I

> guess as I have e-mailed her and asked her to please

> give me my

> money so I could move. She does not reply. I will

> never understand

> how one could be so cruel. It truly is a nightmare.

> I am in such a

> horrible bind in more ways than one. I can't see a

> way out. I'm

> trying. I am going to try somehow. I guess I have to

> start by

> selling my belongings and then I think I will move

> to New York. I

> have to leave here asap. I know I can't continue as

> I have been.

> Months in bed! This is so bad. Thank you ALL for

> your replies and

> support and thank you to all in the group also for

> caring. God help

> us all. with love, In Jesus's precious's

> love,Marie

>

>

> >

> > My dear girl, I am just catching up on my mail and

> just feel I

> have to write you to say how sorry I am for what you

> are going

> through with your daughter. I could feel the pain

> in your words.

> You are a kind and loving person and you don't

> deserve this kind of

> treatment but the biggest loser here will be your

> daughter and I

> truly believe she will see the light very soon and

> be in touch. In

> the meantime, be brave and keep reminding yourself

> that you are a

> special person and don't allow one person to destroy

> what you are. I

> will pray that your daughter wakes up and realizes

> what she is

> missing.

> >

> > Hugs

> > June

> >

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