Re: Illness sometimes yields new strength

August 8, 2005

My WBC count increased without visualization. Now maybe I'll try some

visualization to bring it up some more. While I was having radiation

treatments, I did try something like visualizing the radiation entering

my body and killing the cancer cells. So I'll let you know if

visualization increases my WBC count. Sue

On Monday, August 8, 2005, at 08:56 AM, a wrote:

> I assured him that I would spend the next three weeks

> before my departure increasing my white blood cell count by using

> visualization.

>

> Each night for three weeks I spent five minutes visualizing a concrete

> truck riding through my body depositing white blood cells throughout my

> bloodstream. When I returned to the doctor's office, he was amazed at

> the results of the visualization. My white blood cells had been

> increased. I had raised it significantly enough to make him feel more

> comfortable about my leaving the country and choosing my recreational

> activities.

August 8, 2005

My WBC count increased without visualization. Now maybe I'll try some

visualization to bring it up some more. While I was having radiation

treatments, I did try something like visualizing the radiation entering

my body and killing the cancer cells. So I'll let you know if

visualization increases my WBC count. Sue

On Monday, August 8, 2005, at 08:56 AM, a wrote:

> I assured him that I would spend the next three weeks

> before my departure increasing my white blood cell count by using

> visualization.

>

> Each night for three weeks I spent five minutes visualizing a concrete

> truck riding through my body depositing white blood cells throughout my

> bloodstream. When I returned to the doctor's office, he was amazed at

> the results of the visualization. My white blood cells had been

> increased. I had raised it significantly enough to make him feel more

> comfortable about my leaving the country and choosing my recreational

> activities.

August 14, 2005

Hi a,

I wanted to tell you, I thought this was so inspiring. Thanks for sharing it

with us. Also I got a letter from ss that earning are showing up on my ss

account. I haven't worked since 1995. Apparently my former

employers is reporting all of this. I have to call ss tomorrow and tell them

that I haven't work in any capacity in ten years. I am wondering if it could be

my other disability that I collect on. It was a policy I

paid on when I was working. It is my main source of income. Social security

knew all about it, so I don't understand what is going on. I am so worried.

Tomorrow starts Laurie's first day of law school. I was so worried about her

since she has to drive an hour to Delaware. But I need to let go and let her

fly. Last night I was ordering AAA for her and that makes me

feel better.

Hope you are okay. Again thanks for this note. I sure hope all will be well

with the ss. My son told me that since s is showing this amount of money

they have to prove I worked. I just didn't need this mess

right now. It is so funny because my neck and shoulder have been so painful

lately. This was the whole reason I lost my job.

Lynn

a wrote:

> Illness sometimes yields new strength

>

> In my columns, you learn that dealing with adversity can make you

> stronger.

>

> My favorite psychotherapist had polio as a small child and was

> bedridden for several years. As a result, he studied the dictionary,

> learned almost every word in it, and became a keen observer of life

> from his bed.

>

> Another favorite inspiration is Helen Keller. She, through her

> blindness, learned a new way of perceiving that would make her an

> inspiration to men and women around the world.

>

> I have had my share of challenges. Although I typically do not write

> about myself, I feel compelled to share with you my own story of

> adversity.

>

> About 10 years ago, I was diagnosed with lupus. The symptoms were so

> intense that I sought medical attention immediately.

>

> Three years later, I was diagnosed with another autoimmune disease

> called Sjögren's disorder. I am convinced that the illness probably lay

> dormant in my body and was activated by a devastating emotional loss I

> had experienced 11 months before the onset of the disorder.

>

> Lupus is a strange illness; it can range from being dormant in your

> body to becoming a mild aggravation to causing chronic problems, and at

> worse being life-threatening.

>

> I tell people that I am the poster child for this chronic condition

> because I had beaten the odds despite the problems that can occur.

> Lupus typically leaves you with little energy. I work out one to two

> hours a day every day, and I exist on no more than six hours of sleep.

>

> A common secondary condition that I experienced is leucopenia, which

> means that my white blood-cell count is chronically low. The doctors

> tell me that I have very few white blood cells to fight infection. This

> leaves my immune system compromised, very similar to an AIDS patient.

> Despite the fact that I work with 40 to 50 people a day, I rarely come

> down with any type of infection.

>

> I saw a hematologist before I took a trip out of the country. I told

> him I was looking forward to parasailing in Mexico. He advised me

> against it, stating that if I landed incorrectly I might not be able to

> get adequate medical attention considering the status of my low

> white-cell count. I assured him that I would spend the next three weeks

> before my departure increasing my white blood cell count by using

> visualization.

>

> Each night for three weeks I spent five minutes visualizing a concrete

> truck riding through my body depositing white blood cells throughout my

> bloodstream. When I returned to the doctor's office, he was amazed at

> the results of the visualization. My white blood cells had been

> increased. I had raised it significantly enough to make him feel more

> comfortable about my leaving the country and choosing my recreational

> activities.

>

> He remarked, " I do not necessarily believe in visualization, but keep

> doing what you are doing, because it is working. "

>

> Our attitudes affect our bodies, creating a strong mind-body

> connection. If you stay positive and enjoy life, it affects the

> resiliency that combats illness. I am not invincible, but I do

> contribute positively to my healthy functioning.

>

> My doctor says I am a medical miracle. I believe it is my love of life

> that is the medicine that feeds my spirit and my body.

>

> If you have a chronic illness, focus on the blessings and gratitude

> that occur all around you. Remember that adversity contributes toward a

> different type of strength, and being different can mean being

> stronger. Sometimes it is a blessing to experience life from an

> alternative point of view.

>

> http://www.indystar.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20050807/LIVING/

> 508070324/1007/LIVING

>

August 14, 2005

Hi a,

I wanted to tell you, I thought this was so inspiring. Thanks for sharing it

with us. Also I got a letter from ss that earning are showing up on my ss

account. I haven't worked since 1995. Apparently my former

employers is reporting all of this. I have to call ss tomorrow and tell them

that I haven't work in any capacity in ten years. I am wondering if it could be

my other disability that I collect on. It was a policy I

paid on when I was working. It is my main source of income. Social security

knew all about it, so I don't understand what is going on. I am so worried.

Tomorrow starts Laurie's first day of law school. I was so worried about her

since she has to drive an hour to Delaware. But I need to let go and let her

fly. Last night I was ordering AAA for her and that makes me

feel better.

Hope you are okay. Again thanks for this note. I sure hope all will be well

with the ss. My son told me that since s is showing this amount of money

they have to prove I worked. I just didn't need this mess

right now. It is so funny because my neck and shoulder have been so painful

lately. This was the whole reason I lost my job.

Lynn

a wrote:

> Illness sometimes yields new strength

>

> In my columns, you learn that dealing with adversity can make you

> stronger.

>

> My favorite psychotherapist had polio as a small child and was

> bedridden for several years. As a result, he studied the dictionary,

> learned almost every word in it, and became a keen observer of life

> from his bed.

>

> Another favorite inspiration is Helen Keller. She, through her

> blindness, learned a new way of perceiving that would make her an

> inspiration to men and women around the world.

>

> I have had my share of challenges. Although I typically do not write

> about myself, I feel compelled to share with you my own story of

> adversity.

>

> About 10 years ago, I was diagnosed with lupus. The symptoms were so

> intense that I sought medical attention immediately.

>

> Three years later, I was diagnosed with another autoimmune disease

> called Sjögren's disorder. I am convinced that the illness probably lay

> dormant in my body and was activated by a devastating emotional loss I

> had experienced 11 months before the onset of the disorder.

>

> Lupus is a strange illness; it can range from being dormant in your

> body to becoming a mild aggravation to causing chronic problems, and at

> worse being life-threatening.

>

> I tell people that I am the poster child for this chronic condition

> because I had beaten the odds despite the problems that can occur.

> Lupus typically leaves you with little energy. I work out one to two

> hours a day every day, and I exist on no more than six hours of sleep.

>

> A common secondary condition that I experienced is leucopenia, which

> means that my white blood-cell count is chronically low. The doctors

> tell me that I have very few white blood cells to fight infection. This

> leaves my immune system compromised, very similar to an AIDS patient.

> Despite the fact that I work with 40 to 50 people a day, I rarely come

> down with any type of infection.

>

> I saw a hematologist before I took a trip out of the country. I told

> him I was looking forward to parasailing in Mexico. He advised me

> against it, stating that if I landed incorrectly I might not be able to

> get adequate medical attention considering the status of my low

> white-cell count. I assured him that I would spend the next three weeks

> before my departure increasing my white blood cell count by using

> visualization.

>

> Each night for three weeks I spent five minutes visualizing a concrete

> truck riding through my body depositing white blood cells throughout my

> bloodstream. When I returned to the doctor's office, he was amazed at

> the results of the visualization. My white blood cells had been

> increased. I had raised it significantly enough to make him feel more

> comfortable about my leaving the country and choosing my recreational

> activities.

>

> He remarked, " I do not necessarily believe in visualization, but keep

> doing what you are doing, because it is working. "

>

> Our attitudes affect our bodies, creating a strong mind-body

> connection. If you stay positive and enjoy life, it affects the

> resiliency that combats illness. I am not invincible, but I do

> contribute positively to my healthy functioning.

>

> My doctor says I am a medical miracle. I believe it is my love of life

> that is the medicine that feeds my spirit and my body.

>

> If you have a chronic illness, focus on the blessings and gratitude

> that occur all around you. Remember that adversity contributes toward a

> different type of strength, and being different can mean being

> stronger. Sometimes it is a blessing to experience life from an

> alternative point of view.

>

> http://www.indystar.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20050807/LIVING/

> 508070324/1007/LIVING

>

August 14, 2005

It is inspiring and so very true. I think all of us have found new

strength in our own ways.

I'm very curious about those earning showing up. Is there a possibility

that someone is using your SS number either on purpose or by mistake?

I don't think disability income would show up as earnings. I'd call

Monday morning and make sure someone at 's isn't working on your

SS number.

I don't know how SS and private disability plans work together. I can't

see why you shouldn't be able to collect from both, but I guess it

depends on the policy. Your attorney should know.

When my daughter got her drivers license, I got her a AAA policy. It is

a real peace of mind. You should be very proud of Laurie. I know it's

hard seeing them get their wings, but they just have to do it. Is she

staying in Delaware or commuting?

I hope you feel better.

a

On Aug 14, 2005, at 8:56 AM, Ruf-Caimi wrote:

> Hi a,

> I wanted to tell you, I thought this was so inspiring. Thanks for

> sharing it with us. Also I got a letter from ss that earning are

> showing up on my ss account. I haven't worked since 1995. Apparently

> my former

> employers is reporting all of this. I have to call ss tomorrow and

> tell them that I haven't work in any capacity in ten years. I am

> wondering if it could be my other disability that I collect on. It

> was a policy I

> paid on when I was working. It is my main source of income. Social

> security knew all about it, so I don't understand what is going on. I

> am so worried.

> Tomorrow starts Laurie's first day of law school. I was so worried

> about her since she has to drive an hour to Delaware. But I need to

> let go and let her fly. Last night I was ordering AAA for her and

> that makes me

> feel better.

> Hope you are okay. Again thanks for this note. I sure hope all

> will be well with the ss. My son told me that since s is showing

> this amount of money they have to prove I worked. I just didn't need

> this mess

> right now. It is so funny because my neck and shoulder have been so

> painful lately. This was the whole reason I lost my job.

> Lynn

>

August 14, 2005

It is inspiring and so very true. I think all of us have found new

strength in our own ways.

I'm very curious about those earning showing up. Is there a possibility

that someone is using your SS number either on purpose or by mistake?

I don't think disability income would show up as earnings. I'd call

Monday morning and make sure someone at 's isn't working on your

SS number.

I don't know how SS and private disability plans work together. I can't

see why you shouldn't be able to collect from both, but I guess it

depends on the policy. Your attorney should know.

When my daughter got her drivers license, I got her a AAA policy. It is

a real peace of mind. You should be very proud of Laurie. I know it's

hard seeing them get their wings, but they just have to do it. Is she

staying in Delaware or commuting?

I hope you feel better.

a

On Aug 14, 2005, at 8:56 AM, Ruf-Caimi wrote:

> Hi a,

> I wanted to tell you, I thought this was so inspiring. Thanks for

> sharing it with us. Also I got a letter from ss that earning are

> showing up on my ss account. I haven't worked since 1995. Apparently

> my former

> employers is reporting all of this. I have to call ss tomorrow and

> tell them that I haven't work in any capacity in ten years. I am

> wondering if it could be my other disability that I collect on. It

> was a policy I

> paid on when I was working. It is my main source of income. Social

> security knew all about it, so I don't understand what is going on. I

> am so worried.

> Tomorrow starts Laurie's first day of law school. I was so worried

> about her since she has to drive an hour to Delaware. But I need to

> let go and let her fly. Last night I was ordering AAA for her and

> that makes me

> feel better.

> Hope you are okay. Again thanks for this note. I sure hope all

> will be well with the ss. My son told me that since s is showing

> this amount of money they have to prove I worked. I just didn't need

> this mess

> right now. It is so funny because my neck and shoulder have been so

> painful lately. This was the whole reason I lost my job.

> Lynn

>

August 14, 2005

I agree we do learn different ways of doing things. Maybe they take longer but

we get there.

Anyone at s could have gotten my ss number. They were all in a draw with

the applications. But I added it up and I think s is writing off my other

disability insurance policy, (one I paid for) as employment. So I put a

call into my attorney, if he calls back. I will also call social security and

tell them I have not worked in ten years. My DIL told me to let them figure out

the problem. s would have to prove when and where I worked. Even

show the checks I signed.

She also said the other policy I had shouldn't have anything to do with ss. I

paid for that as added protection. I know my lawyer would have said something,

he knew all about. Now Metlife definitely knows about. Because they

deducted what ss gave me from what they gave me. It is just stressful and I

don't need. But we never do need any of this stress. I hope I can work it out

because I don't know what I would do if they stopped the ss disability.

Laurie and I have been very close. It is a closeness that I feel has stopped

her from making friends. So I know in my heart that going to Widener is exactly

what she needs. Plus it will put some space between us both. I hate to see

that happen but I want her to have a life and a family. The only way that is

going to happen is if I take a back seat and that is fine. She will be

communiting three days a week. It is a hour and five minutes drive, although I

think

coming home will take less time. I feel better since I found out about AAA.

Now my wish for her is to make friends, do well, and maybe if God willing she

meet a nice guy.

Thank you so much for your note, my friend. It meant a lot to me, I just worry

about everything.

Hope you are okay. It is terribly hot here and I know in Florida it is awful

too. This has been my worst summer with the ra. I look forward to fall.

Lynn

a wrote:

> It is inspiring and so very true. I think all of us have found new

> strength in our own ways.

>

> I'm very curious about those earning showing up. Is there a possibility

> that someone is using your SS number either on purpose or by mistake?

> I don't think disability income would show up as earnings. I'd call

> Monday morning and make sure someone at 's isn't working on your

> SS number.

> I don't know how SS and private disability plans work together. I can't

> see why you shouldn't be able to collect from both, but I guess it

> depends on the policy. Your attorney should know.

>

> When my daughter got her drivers license, I got her a AAA policy. It is

> a real peace of mind. You should be very proud of Laurie. I know it's

> hard seeing them get their wings, but they just have to do it. Is she

> staying in Delaware or commuting?

>

> I hope you feel better.

>

> a

>

> On Aug 14, 2005, at 8:56 AM, Ruf-Caimi wrote:

>

> > Hi a,

> > I wanted to tell you, I thought this was so inspiring. Thanks for

> > sharing it with us. Also I got a letter from ss that earning are

> > showing up on my ss account. I haven't worked since 1995. Apparently

> > my former

> > employers is reporting all of this. I have to call ss tomorrow and

> > tell them that I haven't work in any capacity in ten years. I am

> > wondering if it could be my other disability that I collect on. It

> > was a policy I

> > paid on when I was working. It is my main source of income. Social

> > security knew all about it, so I don't understand what is going on. I

> > am so worried.

> > Tomorrow starts Laurie's first day of law school. I was so worried

> > about her since she has to drive an hour to Delaware. But I need to

> > let go and let her fly. Last night I was ordering AAA for her and

> > that makes me

> > feel better.

> > Hope you are okay. Again thanks for this note. I sure hope all

> > will be well with the ss. My son told me that since s is showing

> > this amount of money they have to prove I worked. I just didn't need

> > this mess

> > right now. It is so funny because my neck and shoulder have been so

> > painful lately. This was the whole reason I lost my job.

> > Lynn

> >

>

August 14, 2005