Re: OT/ I miss my family!!!! {{KIM}}

August 9, 2005

iknow it's hard to do right now, but please take care of your self

and try to get some rest. I know how hard it is to watch someone you

love slip away and there's nothing you can do about it. I am so sorry

that you are going through such a difficult, sad time. Please try to

overlook the jerk, and focus on what brought you there- love for your

mom,and a desire to be with her when she goes home. I will be praying

for you, for God to ease your heartache and your physical pain.

Good thoughts and love from Texas.

God bless you.

Jane

> Good morning all. It is about 2 a.m. here and once again, I can't

> sleep. I'm running on about 10-12 hours of sleep since Thursday

> morning. I just checked a bit of the posts and noticed that

Shirley

> had let you know my situation. It really - really sucks to be me

> about now!!! I don't think that I have ever been this sad in all my

> life. I had no idea how low a person could actually go. And it

isn't

> over yet. My family is okay, I guess - it is my step alien that is

> the problem. Long - long story. My life has reached the

crossroads

> and it is time for change. I did miss my appointment with my non

> board certified Neurologist. However, I go here in Cheyenne to a

> NeuroSpecialist at 2pm. tomorrow! I'm tired of Kansas and my lack

of

> care and I'm taking matters into my own hands. Sitting here

watching

> my 63 year old mother dying has shed a bit of light on the

> situation. They have no explanation of how her irreversible

> situation got to this point and what is the cause and w/o an

autopsy

> we will never know. I did some asking about her possibly be

> rheumatoid positive and was told by several of the care providers

> that Lupus would explain it. No-one followed up on it for her

though.

> My hands are tied and I'm just thankful that I found out by someone

> else how ill she was as I was being told that she was fine all

along

> by the step alien. Jerk off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so

> exhausted and some of my symptoms are manifesting themselves. My

> hair is falling out and my face looks like I have the butterfly

rash

> (molar rash?) It usually is just on my nose. I'm stiffening up

> fast. My excema us crazy. I was fine a couple days ago. I'm sure

> it is from all the stress? Anyhow, I just wanted to say hey and

tell

> you all that I miss you and love each and everyone with all my

> heart! Special hello's to June, Tawny, Shirley and Ken! I hope

that

> today is a good no great day for all! Please tell anyone that you

> love how much you care as often as you can as life is too short!

God

> Bless! XXX's Kim

August 9, 2005