thank you

[Guest guest]

thank you for all your supportive words and encouragement. It's been

a rough year for me. this surgery coming up will be my third surgery

this year, I've been told recovery time (to normal activity) is 3-6

weeks, knowing me, it'll be 12, lol. I'm only 28, I limp when I walk,

I pass out for no reason, and at night before I go to bed I take 9

medications. I'm actually surprised I still have a fiance. He's my

rock right now. I try to tell myself I need to hang in there for my

children, but that doesn't work, because deep down I feel like they'd

be better of with a different mother, one that could play at the

park, or can go to the school to volunteer cuz she's not at the

hospital. I'm just so tired, and its taken almost 3 years for anyone

to listen and take me seriously, now they say I have RA, and other

things yet to be diagnosed and I'm thinkin, why couldn't you have

figured this out years ago when I started complaining?? I know I need

to stop whining and be grateful for what I've got and out here in my

real world I do, I don't complain to anyone, I don't ask for

anything, and most people don't even know I've got any problems, cuz

I'd rather lock myself at home, than limp around at the grocery

store. I think someone needs to smack ME upside the head with a

frying pan. its nice to hear back from people who literally feel my

pain. speaking of which... does anyone have real bad spine pain

between the shoulder blades? I get " big boob back-aches " but this is

nothing like that, lasted so far about 10 days, it hurts so much,

don't know if its associated with RA or not? bless all of you and

your strength. thank you again.

kerri sue