Let me apologize, first

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I'm sorry that I don't get on here as much as I'd like. You are all

so wonderful and so caring. Kinda reminds me another group that I

belong to. You're all just so amazing. So, thank you for

answering my questions and putting up with my hit and miss posts.

I can't seem to remember right off hand, but there were two responses

to my doc appt the other day. Thank you both for responding. Just

to address a few things.

When I went in, I told her that the Aleve was no longer working like

it had been, and that the past few months had been getting really

bad. Then I started the Lodine. Constant digestive tract problems

(sorry, TMI) and it wasn't helping with the pain. When I called her,

she said that I could go back to the Aleve if it was working better.

I was in so much pain that I was ready to crawl out of my skin.

That's when she told me to supplement with Tylenol. I quit taking

everything at this point. I can't live in the bathroom when I have 4

kids to take care of, and Aleve and Tylenol are doing zilch for me.

Does anyone have any experience with the Lodine? Does it eventually

make the pain stop? I can't stand it anymore.

I can't wait to get there but it's still 2 wks away. That's a long

time when you're not sleeping. If she doesn't listen to me the next

time I go in, I'm finding a new doc. And it's such a shame bc I like

her. But again, female doc. My gut is never wrong.

Right now, it's 2am, and I'm up bc of the pain. It's getting worse

day by day. It's to the point where my hand becomes paralyzed like

when I try to stir something. Right now, from typing, my shoulder

feels like it could fall off. My hands, my feet, this is all new in

the last few wks. The shoulder is new just in the last day or so. I

was folding laundry the other day, and all the sudden, my arm got

really weak and my shoulder felt like it was stiffening up.

I can't live like this. And if she won't help me then I'll find

someone who will. I'm a stubborn ol' biotch when it comes to docs

and I will not take this lying down. But I've still got 2 wks to go.

Anyone have any suggestions? At what point do they start MTX? Will

they start before like Enbrel? Will she want me to " wait and see "

with the Lodine for a bit? I don't even know what I don't know Re:

these meds and the cycles they start on, kwim?

Thank you so much for putting up with me. You have no idea how good

this feels to have someone to talk to about this. My DH is treating

this like it's no big deal - even after I told him everything.

We went to a grad party yesterday. His family was talking about me

behind my back. DH was sitting right there. He says he wasn't

paying attn and never heard them. Then he told me, " How about

everyone asking what is wrong with you? " I said, " Why couldn't have

you told them I'm going through a rough time right now? Or that I

have been finding out some bad news about my health? Instead you let

them believe I am just a biotch. Why not tell them to ask me? Well,

from now on, you can just go to those functions yourself. I will

become like your ex wife and they can call me a biotch all they

want. I'm done with them. "

Sorry, that went off topic but it's just an idea of what I'm going

through. I feel like I'm going crazy. My shoulder hurts. I have to

quit typing.

Again, thanks for everything.

Jen