Re: Let me apologize, first

[Guest guest]

I'm so sorry for all you are going through. I will be praying for you to find

some relief. No great words of wisdom...just lots of prayers from me.

Prisicilla

saralaughs02 <saralaughs02@...> wrote:

I'm sorry that I don't get on here as much as I'd like. You are all

so wonderful and so caring. Kinda reminds me another group that I

belong to. You're all just so amazing. So, thank you for

answering my questions and putting up with my hit and miss posts.

I can't seem to remember right off hand, but there were two responses

to my doc appt the other day. Thank you both for responding. Just

to address a few things.

When I went in, I told her that the Aleve was no longer working like

it had been, and that the past few months had been getting really

bad. Then I started the Lodine. Constant digestive tract problems

(sorry, TMI) and it wasn't helping with the pain. When I called her,

she said that I could go back to the Aleve if it was working better.

I was in so much pain that I was ready to crawl out of my skin.

That's when she told me to supplement with Tylenol. I quit taking

everything at this point. I can't live in the bathroom when I have 4

kids to take care of, and Aleve and Tylenol are doing zilch for me.

Does anyone have any experience with the Lodine? Does it eventually

make the pain stop? I can't stand it anymore.

I can't wait to get there but it's still 2 wks away. That's a long

time when you're not sleeping. If she doesn't listen to me the next

time I go in, I'm finding a new doc. And it's such a shame bc I like

her. But again, female doc. My gut is never wrong.

Right now, it's 2am, and I'm up bc of the pain. It's getting worse

day by day. It's to the point where my hand becomes paralyzed like

when I try to stir something. Right now, from typing, my shoulder

feels like it could fall off. My hands, my feet, this is all new in

the last few wks. The shoulder is new just in the last day or so. I

was folding laundry the other day, and all the sudden, my arm got

really weak and my shoulder felt like it was stiffening up.

I can't live like this. And if she won't help me then I'll find

someone who will. I'm a stubborn ol' biotch when it comes to docs

and I will not take this lying down. But I've still got 2 wks to go.

Anyone have any suggestions? At what point do they start MTX? Will

they start before like Enbrel? Will she want me to " wait and see "

with the Lodine for a bit? I don't even know what I don't know Re:

these meds and the cycles they start on, kwim?

Thank you so much for putting up with me. You have no idea how good

this feels to have someone to talk to about this. My DH is treating

this like it's no big deal - even after I told him everything.

We went to a grad party yesterday. His family was talking about me

behind my back. DH was sitting right there. He says he wasn't

paying attn and never heard them. Then he told me, " How about

everyone asking what is wrong with you? " I said, " Why couldn't have

you told them I'm going through a rough time right now? Or that I

have been finding out some bad news about my health? Instead you let

them believe I am just a biotch. Why not tell them to ask me? Well,

from now on, you can just go to those functions yourself. I will

become like your ex wife and they can call me a biotch all they

want. I'm done with them. "

Sorry, that went off topic but it's just an idea of what I'm going

through. I feel like I'm going crazy. My shoulder hurts. I have to

quit typing.

Again, thanks for everything.

Jen

[Guest guest]

I'm so sorry for all you are going through. I will be praying for you to find

some relief. No great words of wisdom...just lots of prayers from me.

Prisicilla

saralaughs02 <saralaughs02@...> wrote:

I'm sorry that I don't get on here as much as I'd like. You are all

so wonderful and so caring. Kinda reminds me another group that I

belong to. You're all just so amazing. So, thank you for

answering my questions and putting up with my hit and miss posts.

I can't seem to remember right off hand, but there were two responses

to my doc appt the other day. Thank you both for responding. Just

to address a few things.

When I went in, I told her that the Aleve was no longer working like

it had been, and that the past few months had been getting really

bad. Then I started the Lodine. Constant digestive tract problems

(sorry, TMI) and it wasn't helping with the pain. When I called her,

she said that I could go back to the Aleve if it was working better.

I was in so much pain that I was ready to crawl out of my skin.

That's when she told me to supplement with Tylenol. I quit taking

everything at this point. I can't live in the bathroom when I have 4

kids to take care of, and Aleve and Tylenol are doing zilch for me.

Does anyone have any experience with the Lodine? Does it eventually

make the pain stop? I can't stand it anymore.

I can't wait to get there but it's still 2 wks away. That's a long

time when you're not sleeping. If she doesn't listen to me the next

time I go in, I'm finding a new doc. And it's such a shame bc I like

her. But again, female doc. My gut is never wrong.

Right now, it's 2am, and I'm up bc of the pain. It's getting worse

day by day. It's to the point where my hand becomes paralyzed like

when I try to stir something. Right now, from typing, my shoulder

feels like it could fall off. My hands, my feet, this is all new in

the last few wks. The shoulder is new just in the last day or so. I

was folding laundry the other day, and all the sudden, my arm got

really weak and my shoulder felt like it was stiffening up.

I can't live like this. And if she won't help me then I'll find

someone who will. I'm a stubborn ol' biotch when it comes to docs

and I will not take this lying down. But I've still got 2 wks to go.

Anyone have any suggestions? At what point do they start MTX? Will

they start before like Enbrel? Will she want me to " wait and see "

with the Lodine for a bit? I don't even know what I don't know Re:

these meds and the cycles they start on, kwim?

Thank you so much for putting up with me. You have no idea how good

this feels to have someone to talk to about this. My DH is treating

this like it's no big deal - even after I told him everything.

We went to a grad party yesterday. His family was talking about me

behind my back. DH was sitting right there. He says he wasn't

paying attn and never heard them. Then he told me, " How about

everyone asking what is wrong with you? " I said, " Why couldn't have

you told them I'm going through a rough time right now? Or that I

have been finding out some bad news about my health? Instead you let

them believe I am just a biotch. Why not tell them to ask me? Well,

from now on, you can just go to those functions yourself. I will

become like your ex wife and they can call me a biotch all they

want. I'm done with them. "

Sorry, that went off topic but it's just an idea of what I'm going

through. I feel like I'm going crazy. My shoulder hurts. I have to

quit typing.

Again, thanks for everything.

Jen

[Guest guest]

Jen,

So sorry that you are having such a rough time. I know

how you feel before you get anything for the pain. It

was terrible before I started taking the MTX. With the

right meds it does get better. I am also very sorry

for the way your hubby and his family treat you. I

wish there was something I could do to help. You are

in my prayers.

Beth (AR)

--- saralaughs02 <saralaughs02@...> wrote:

> I'm sorry that I don't get on here as much as I'd

> like. You are all

> so wonderful and so caring. Kinda reminds me

> another group that I

> belong to. You're all just so amazing. So,

> thank you for

> answering my questions and putting up with my hit

> and miss posts.

>

> I can't seem to remember right off hand, but there

> were two responses

> to my doc appt the other day. Thank you both for

> responding. Just

> to address a few things.

>

> When I went in, I told her that the Aleve was no

> longer working like

> it had been, and that the past few months had been

> getting really

> bad. Then I started the Lodine. Constant digestive

> tract problems

> (sorry, TMI) and it wasn't helping with the pain.

> When I called her,

> she said that I could go back to the Aleve if it was

> working better.

> I was in so much pain that I was ready to crawl out

> of my skin.

> That's when she told me to supplement with Tylenol.

> I quit taking

> everything at this point. I can't live in the

> bathroom when I have 4

> kids to take care of, and Aleve and Tylenol are

> doing zilch for me.

>

> Does anyone have any experience with the Lodine?

> Does it eventually

> make the pain stop? I can't stand it anymore.

>

> I can't wait to get there but it's still 2 wks away.

> That's a long

> time when you're not sleeping. If she doesn't

> listen to me the next

> time I go in, I'm finding a new doc. And it's such

> a shame bc I like

> her. But again, female doc. My gut is never wrong.

>

>

> Right now, it's 2am, and I'm up bc of the pain.

> It's getting worse

> day by day. It's to the point where my hand becomes

> paralyzed like

> when I try to stir something. Right now, from

> typing, my shoulder

> feels like it could fall off. My hands, my feet,

> this is all new in

> the last few wks. The shoulder is new just in the

> last day or so. I

> was folding laundry the other day, and all the

> sudden, my arm got

> really weak and my shoulder felt like it was

> stiffening up.

>

> I can't live like this. And if she won't help me

> then I'll find

> someone who will. I'm a stubborn ol' biotch when it

> comes to docs

> and I will not take this lying down. But I've still

> got 2 wks to go.

>

> Anyone have any suggestions? At what point do they

> start MTX? Will

> they start before like Enbrel? Will she want me to

> " wait and see "

> with the Lodine for a bit? I don't even know what I

> don't know Re:

> these meds and the cycles they start on, kwim?

>

> Thank you so much for putting up with me. You have

> no idea how good

> this feels to have someone to talk to about this.

> My DH is treating

> this like it's no big deal - even after I told him

> everything.

>

> We went to a grad party yesterday. His family was

> talking about me

> behind my back. DH was sitting right there. He

> says he wasn't

> paying attn and never heard them. Then he told me,

> " How about

> everyone asking what is wrong with you? " I said,

> " Why couldn't have

> you told them I'm going through a rough time right

> now? Or that I

> have been finding out some bad news about my health?

> Instead you let

> them believe I am just a biotch. Why not tell them

> to ask me? Well,

> from now on, you can just go to those functions

> yourself. I will

> become like your ex wife and they can call me a

> biotch all they

> want. I'm done with them. "

>

> Sorry, that went off topic but it's just an idea of

> what I'm going

> through. I feel like I'm going crazy. My shoulder

> hurts. I have to

> quit typing.

>

> Again, thanks for everything.

>

> Jen

>

>

>

>

>

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Jen,

So sorry that you are having such a rough time. I know

how you feel before you get anything for the pain. It

was terrible before I started taking the MTX. With the

right meds it does get better. I am also very sorry

for the way your hubby and his family treat you. I

wish there was something I could do to help. You are

in my prayers.

Beth (AR)

--- saralaughs02 <saralaughs02@...> wrote:

> I'm sorry that I don't get on here as much as I'd

> like. You are all

> so wonderful and so caring. Kinda reminds me

> another group that I

> belong to. You're all just so amazing. So,

> thank you for

> answering my questions and putting up with my hit

> and miss posts.

>

> I can't seem to remember right off hand, but there

> were two responses

> to my doc appt the other day. Thank you both for

> responding. Just

> to address a few things.

>

> When I went in, I told her that the Aleve was no

> longer working like

> it had been, and that the past few months had been

> getting really

> bad. Then I started the Lodine. Constant digestive

> tract problems

> (sorry, TMI) and it wasn't helping with the pain.

> When I called her,

> she said that I could go back to the Aleve if it was

> working better.

> I was in so much pain that I was ready to crawl out

> of my skin.

> That's when she told me to supplement with Tylenol.

> I quit taking

> everything at this point. I can't live in the

> bathroom when I have 4

> kids to take care of, and Aleve and Tylenol are

> doing zilch for me.

>

> Does anyone have any experience with the Lodine?

> Does it eventually

> make the pain stop? I can't stand it anymore.

>

> I can't wait to get there but it's still 2 wks away.

> That's a long

> time when you're not sleeping. If she doesn't

> listen to me the next

> time I go in, I'm finding a new doc. And it's such

> a shame bc I like

> her. But again, female doc. My gut is never wrong.

>

>

> Right now, it's 2am, and I'm up bc of the pain.

> It's getting worse

> day by day. It's to the point where my hand becomes

> paralyzed like

> when I try to stir something. Right now, from

> typing, my shoulder

> feels like it could fall off. My hands, my feet,

> this is all new in

> the last few wks. The shoulder is new just in the

> last day or so. I

> was folding laundry the other day, and all the

> sudden, my arm got

> really weak and my shoulder felt like it was

> stiffening up.

>

> I can't live like this. And if she won't help me

> then I'll find

> someone who will. I'm a stubborn ol' biotch when it

> comes to docs

> and I will not take this lying down. But I've still

> got 2 wks to go.

>

> Anyone have any suggestions? At what point do they

> start MTX? Will

> they start before like Enbrel? Will she want me to

> " wait and see "

> with the Lodine for a bit? I don't even know what I

> don't know Re:

> these meds and the cycles they start on, kwim?

>

> Thank you so much for putting up with me. You have

> no idea how good

> this feels to have someone to talk to about this.

> My DH is treating

> this like it's no big deal - even after I told him

> everything.

>

> We went to a grad party yesterday. His family was

> talking about me

> behind my back. DH was sitting right there. He

> says he wasn't

> paying attn and never heard them. Then he told me,

> " How about

> everyone asking what is wrong with you? " I said,

> " Why couldn't have

> you told them I'm going through a rough time right

> now? Or that I

> have been finding out some bad news about my health?

> Instead you let

> them believe I am just a biotch. Why not tell them

> to ask me? Well,

> from now on, you can just go to those functions

> yourself. I will

> become like your ex wife and they can call me a

> biotch all they

> want. I'm done with them. "

>

> Sorry, that went off topic but it's just an idea of

> what I'm going

> through. I feel like I'm going crazy. My shoulder

> hurts. I have to

> quit typing.

>

> Again, thanks for everything.

>

> Jen

>

>

>

>

>

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Jen,

You don't have to apologize here. We all know what one goes through.

When one isn't posting, we usually know their not doing well. I

think you need to find a new doctor. There are many different meds

then Lodine, or Aleve. Sometimes a doctor will put you on Prednisone,

until you can get in to see a rheumy, you also need something for

pain. I just don't think she is helping you.

I'm sorry that your going through such pain, and your not getting

much support. Just know we are here for you always.

Take care,

Tawny

--- In , " saralaughs02 " <saralaughs02@y...>

wrote:

> I'm sorry that I don't get on here as much as I'd like. You are

all

> so wonderful and so caring. Kinda reminds me another group that I

> belong to. You're all just so amazing. So, thank you for

> answering my questions and putting up with my hit and miss posts.

>

> I can't seem to remember right off hand, but there were two

responses

> to my doc appt the other day. Thank you both for responding. Just

> to address a few things.

>

> When I went in, I told her that the Aleve was no longer working

like

> it had been, and that the past few months had been getting really

> bad. Then I started the Lodine. Constant digestive tract problems

> (sorry, TMI) and it wasn't helping with the pain. When I called

her,

> she said that I could go back to the Aleve if it was working

better.

> I was in so much pain that I was ready to crawl out of my skin.

> That's when she told me to supplement with Tylenol. I quit taking

> everything at this point. I can't live in the bathroom when I have

4

> kids to take care of, and Aleve and Tylenol are doing zilch for

me.

>

> Does anyone have any experience with the Lodine? Does it

eventually

> make the pain stop? I can't stand it anymore.

>

> I can't wait to get there but it's still 2 wks away. That's a long

> time when you're not sleeping. If she doesn't listen to me the

next

> time I go in, I'm finding a new doc. And it's such a shame bc I

like

> her. But again, female doc. My gut is never wrong.

>

> Right now, it's 2am, and I'm up bc of the pain. It's getting worse

> day by day. It's to the point where my hand becomes paralyzed like

> when I try to stir something. Right now, from typing, my shoulder

> feels like it could fall off. My hands, my feet, this is all new

in

> the last few wks. The shoulder is new just in the last day or so.

I

> was folding laundry the other day, and all the sudden, my arm got

> really weak and my shoulder felt like it was stiffening up.

>

> I can't live like this. And if she won't help me then I'll find

> someone who will. I'm a stubborn ol' biotch when it comes to docs

> and I will not take this lying down. But I've still got 2 wks to

go.

>

> Anyone have any suggestions? At what point do they start MTX?

Will

> they start before like Enbrel? Will she want me to " wait and see "

> with the Lodine for a bit? I don't even know what I don't know Re:

> these meds and the cycles they start on, kwim?

>

> Thank you so much for putting up with me. You have no idea how

good

> this feels to have someone to talk to about this. My DH is

treating

> this like it's no big deal - even after I told him everything.

>

> We went to a grad party yesterday. His family was talking about me

> behind my back. DH was sitting right there. He says he wasn't

> paying attn and never heard them. Then he told me, " How about

> everyone asking what is wrong with you? " I said, " Why couldn't

have

> you told them I'm going through a rough time right now? Or that I

> have been finding out some bad news about my health? Instead you

let

> them believe I am just a biotch. Why not tell them to ask me?

Well,

> from now on, you can just go to those functions yourself. I will

> become like your ex wife and they can call me a biotch all they

> want. I'm done with them. "

>

> Sorry, that went off topic but it's just an idea of what I'm going

> through. I feel like I'm going crazy. My shoulder hurts. I have

to

> quit typing.

>

> Again, thanks for everything.

>

> Jen

[Guest guest]

Jen,

You don't have to apologize here. We all know what one goes through.

When one isn't posting, we usually know their not doing well. I

think you need to find a new doctor. There are many different meds

then Lodine, or Aleve. Sometimes a doctor will put you on Prednisone,

until you can get in to see a rheumy, you also need something for

pain. I just don't think she is helping you.

I'm sorry that your going through such pain, and your not getting

much support. Just know we are here for you always.

Take care,

Tawny

> I'm sorry that I don't get on here as much as I'd like. You are

all

> so wonderful and so caring. Kinda reminds me another group that I

> belong to. You're all just so amazing. So, thank you for

> answering my questions and putting up with my hit and miss posts.

>

> I can't seem to remember right off hand, but there were two

responses

> to my doc appt the other day. Thank you both for responding. Just

> to address a few things.

>

> When I went in, I told her that the Aleve was no longer working

like

> it had been, and that the past few months had been getting really

> bad. Then I started the Lodine. Constant digestive tract problems

> (sorry, TMI) and it wasn't helping with the pain. When I called

her,

> she said that I could go back to the Aleve if it was working

better.

> I was in so much pain that I was ready to crawl out of my skin.

> That's when she told me to supplement with Tylenol. I quit taking

> everything at this point. I can't live in the bathroom when I have

4

> kids to take care of, and Aleve and Tylenol are doing zilch for

me.

>

> Does anyone have any experience with the Lodine? Does it

eventually

> make the pain stop? I can't stand it anymore.

>

> I can't wait to get there but it's still 2 wks away. That's a long

> time when you're not sleeping. If she doesn't listen to me the

next

> time I go in, I'm finding a new doc. And it's such a shame bc I

like

> her. But again, female doc. My gut is never wrong.

>

> Right now, it's 2am, and I'm up bc of the pain. It's getting worse

> day by day. It's to the point where my hand becomes paralyzed like

> when I try to stir something. Right now, from typing, my shoulder

> feels like it could fall off. My hands, my feet, this is all new

in

> the last few wks. The shoulder is new just in the last day or so.

I

> was folding laundry the other day, and all the sudden, my arm got

> really weak and my shoulder felt like it was stiffening up.

>

> I can't live like this. And if she won't help me then I'll find

> someone who will. I'm a stubborn ol' biotch when it comes to docs

> and I will not take this lying down. But I've still got 2 wks to

go.

>

> Anyone have any suggestions? At what point do they start MTX?

Will

> they start before like Enbrel? Will she want me to " wait and see "

> with the Lodine for a bit? I don't even know what I don't know Re:

> these meds and the cycles they start on, kwim?

>

> Thank you so much for putting up with me. You have no idea how

good

> this feels to have someone to talk to about this. My DH is

treating

> this like it's no big deal - even after I told him everything.

>

> We went to a grad party yesterday. His family was talking about me

> behind my back. DH was sitting right there. He says he wasn't

> paying attn and never heard them. Then he told me, " How about

> everyone asking what is wrong with you? " I said, " Why couldn't

have

> you told them I'm going through a rough time right now? Or that I

> have been finding out some bad news about my health? Instead you

let

> them believe I am just a biotch. Why not tell them to ask me?

Well,

> from now on, you can just go to those functions yourself. I will

> become like your ex wife and they can call me a biotch all they

> want. I'm done with them. "

>

> Sorry, that went off topic but it's just an idea of what I'm going

> through. I feel like I'm going crazy. My shoulder hurts. I have

to

> quit typing.

>

> Again, thanks for everything.

>

> Jen

[Guest guest]

Hi Jen.

I really hope that you get to your pain under control soon. I'm

sure there isn't anyone here that doesn't get what you're dealing

with as far as the flare goes. Just gotta be persistant with your

doc about pain control and getting the right combo of meds. It does

take time.

I understand about family talking about you behind your back. I

really hate that. If people want to know what's up, they should

come out and ask. I've lost some friends/family since getting

diagnosed, but they way I see it is that they weren't worth keeping

around if they don't understand, right? It also sounds like your

hubby is still struggling to come to terms with everything. Sounds

like if he doesn't acknowledge it, then it's not really happening.

Keep posting and reading here as often as you can. You need the

support now more than ever. I know that it feels very good to be

able to vent here and have people actually get what I'm going

through.

Take care,

> I'm sorry that I don't get on here as much as I'd like. You are

all

> so wonderful and so caring. Kinda reminds me another group that I

> belong to. You're all just so amazing. So, thank you for

> answering my questions and putting up with my hit and miss posts.

>

> I can't seem to remember right off hand, but there were two

responses

> to my doc appt the other day. Thank you both for responding.

Just

> to address a few things.

>

> When I went in, I told her that the Aleve was no longer working

like

> it had been, and that the past few months had been getting really

> bad. Then I started the Lodine. Constant digestive tract

problems

> (sorry, TMI) and it wasn't helping with the pain. When I called

her,

> she said that I could go back to the Aleve if it was working

better.

> I was in so much pain that I was ready to crawl out of my skin.

> That's when she told me to supplement with Tylenol. I quit taking

> everything at this point. I can't live in the bathroom when I

have 4

> kids to take care of, and Aleve and Tylenol are doing zilch for

me.

>

> Does anyone have any experience with the Lodine? Does it

eventually

> make the pain stop? I can't stand it anymore.

>

> I can't wait to get there but it's still 2 wks away. That's a

long

> time when you're not sleeping. If she doesn't listen to me the

next

> time I go in, I'm finding a new doc. And it's such a shame bc I

like

> her. But again, female doc. My gut is never wrong.

>

> Right now, it's 2am, and I'm up bc of the pain. It's getting

worse

> day by day. It's to the point where my hand becomes paralyzed

like

> when I try to stir something. Right now, from typing, my shoulder

> feels like it could fall off. My hands, my feet, this is all new

in

> the last few wks. The shoulder is new just in the last day or

so. I

> was folding laundry the other day, and all the sudden, my arm got

> really weak and my shoulder felt like it was stiffening up.

>

> I can't live like this. And if she won't help me then I'll find

> someone who will. I'm a stubborn ol' biotch when it comes to docs

> and I will not take this lying down. But I've still got 2 wks to

go.

>

> Anyone have any suggestions? At what point do they start MTX?

Will

> they start before like Enbrel? Will she want me to " wait and see "

> with the Lodine for a bit? I don't even know what I don't know

Re:

> these meds and the cycles they start on, kwim?

>

> Thank you so much for putting up with me. You have no idea how

good

> this feels to have someone to talk to about this. My DH is

treating

> this like it's no big deal - even after I told him everything.

>

> We went to a grad party yesterday. His family was talking about

me

> behind my back. DH was sitting right there. He says he wasn't

> paying attn and never heard them. Then he told me, " How about

> everyone asking what is wrong with you? " I said, " Why couldn't

have

> you told them I'm going through a rough time right now? Or that I

> have been finding out some bad news about my health? Instead you

let

> them believe I am just a biotch. Why not tell them to ask me?

Well,

> from now on, you can just go to those functions yourself. I will

> become like your ex wife and they can call me a biotch all they

> want. I'm done with them. "

>

> Sorry, that went off topic but it's just an idea of what I'm going

> through. I feel like I'm going crazy. My shoulder hurts. I have

to

> quit typing.

>

> Again, thanks for everything.

>

> Jen

[Guest guest]

Hi Jen.

I really hope that you get to your pain under control soon. I'm

sure there isn't anyone here that doesn't get what you're dealing

with as far as the flare goes. Just gotta be persistant with your

doc about pain control and getting the right combo of meds. It does

take time.

I understand about family talking about you behind your back. I

really hate that. If people want to know what's up, they should

come out and ask. I've lost some friends/family since getting

diagnosed, but they way I see it is that they weren't worth keeping

around if they don't understand, right? It also sounds like your

hubby is still struggling to come to terms with everything. Sounds

like if he doesn't acknowledge it, then it's not really happening.

Keep posting and reading here as often as you can. You need the

support now more than ever. I know that it feels very good to be

able to vent here and have people actually get what I'm going

through.

Take care,

> I'm sorry that I don't get on here as much as I'd like. You are

all

> so wonderful and so caring. Kinda reminds me another group that I

> belong to. You're all just so amazing. So, thank you for

> answering my questions and putting up with my hit and miss posts.

>

> I can't seem to remember right off hand, but there were two

responses

> to my doc appt the other day. Thank you both for responding.

Just

> to address a few things.

>

> When I went in, I told her that the Aleve was no longer working

like

> it had been, and that the past few months had been getting really

> bad. Then I started the Lodine. Constant digestive tract

problems

> (sorry, TMI) and it wasn't helping with the pain. When I called

her,

> she said that I could go back to the Aleve if it was working

better.

> I was in so much pain that I was ready to crawl out of my skin.

> That's when she told me to supplement with Tylenol. I quit taking

> everything at this point. I can't live in the bathroom when I

have 4

> kids to take care of, and Aleve and Tylenol are doing zilch for

me.

>

> Does anyone have any experience with the Lodine? Does it

eventually

> make the pain stop? I can't stand it anymore.

>

> I can't wait to get there but it's still 2 wks away. That's a

long

> time when you're not sleeping. If she doesn't listen to me the

next

> time I go in, I'm finding a new doc. And it's such a shame bc I

like

> her. But again, female doc. My gut is never wrong.

>

> Right now, it's 2am, and I'm up bc of the pain. It's getting

worse

> day by day. It's to the point where my hand becomes paralyzed

like

> when I try to stir something. Right now, from typing, my shoulder

> feels like it could fall off. My hands, my feet, this is all new

in

> the last few wks. The shoulder is new just in the last day or

so. I

> was folding laundry the other day, and all the sudden, my arm got

> really weak and my shoulder felt like it was stiffening up.

>

> I can't live like this. And if she won't help me then I'll find

> someone who will. I'm a stubborn ol' biotch when it comes to docs

> and I will not take this lying down. But I've still got 2 wks to

go.

>

> Anyone have any suggestions? At what point do they start MTX?

Will

> they start before like Enbrel? Will she want me to " wait and see "

> with the Lodine for a bit? I don't even know what I don't know

Re:

> these meds and the cycles they start on, kwim?

>

> Thank you so much for putting up with me. You have no idea how

good

> this feels to have someone to talk to about this. My DH is

treating

> this like it's no big deal - even after I told him everything.

>

> We went to a grad party yesterday. His family was talking about

me

> behind my back. DH was sitting right there. He says he wasn't

> paying attn and never heard them. Then he told me, " How about

> everyone asking what is wrong with you? " I said, " Why couldn't

have

> you told them I'm going through a rough time right now? Or that I

> have been finding out some bad news about my health? Instead you

let

> them believe I am just a biotch. Why not tell them to ask me?

Well,

> from now on, you can just go to those functions yourself. I will

> become like your ex wife and they can call me a biotch all they

> want. I'm done with them. "

>

> Sorry, that went off topic but it's just an idea of what I'm going

> through. I feel like I'm going crazy. My shoulder hurts. I have

to

> quit typing.

>

> Again, thanks for everything.

>

> Jen