Thank you all

[Guest guest]

Thank you all for your kind words. They really help.

I try so hard at times not to get depressed about my situation, I know there

are far more people worse off than me and I am thankful for all that I do

have.

It has been especailly hard I think because my hubby has taken over so much

of the load. My job is supposed to be the home and kids and he has been coming

home form long days at work and doing a lot of my jobs. He also has quite a

bit of stress going on at work and for him to have this added pressure makes me

feel bad.

Someone wrote last week that their husband said they were together for better

or for worse. Well just the other night my dear hubby said the same thing. I

know I am lucky to have him.

I think part of my problem comes from my childhood when my own mother was

sick a lot(first debilitating migraines then lupus) and me being the oldest I

was

relied upon quite a bit. I do not want my kids to feel that they are losing

their childhoods or doing some of Mom's jobs. Does that make any sense?

As far as my sister I too analyzed that and found that I do not want my

family to group me in with her and all her fake problems. I say fake because

when I

lived close to her I witnessed first hand her lies and manipulation to get

people to pay attention to her. I feel sorry for her but for her to say she has

RA when she didnt even get her bloodwork back yet really rubs me the wrong

way. This is such a serious disease and so so painful that I would not wish it

on

anyone. If she felt what one of us felt for one day she would never say she

had it.

Well, thank you all again for understanding what I am going through and

letting me vent.

hugs to all,

Sandie