Guest guest Posted July 8, 2005 Report Share Posted July 8, 2005 Sandie, I'm so sorry that your feeling down. With a chronic disease, it's so hard to deal with at times. I go through the same thing, and I'm sure most do. Sometimes, anti-depressants help out very much. I take them for awhile, and then go off them after awhile. It's just so hard to deal with the RA. I have a 10 yr old, and it bothers me that I can't do the things, I would like to do. She is very understanding, and sometimes I go when I can't hardly make it. But, we just do the best we can. The MTX took about 6weeks for me. It has helped me a lot, so don't give up. If your not on any pain meds, maybe you should ask the doc to put you on something, until the MTX kicks in. I know how hard it is, to hurt so bad. I'm sorry about your sis. Not sure what to say, sometimes we just have to overlook our loved ones. Your a great wife and Mom, so don't ever think your not. It's just this RA that makes us hurt, and feel like this. I will keep you in my prayers, and just know I'm here, Tawny > Hi all, > I am feeling so down right now. I started my methotrexate last week so now > have 2 doses in me and still feel terrible. I am in so much pain right now that > when I shower the water hitting me hurts. I also feel like I am getting a > cold or something like that- Terrible headace and stuffy nose and such but took > my dose this week anyway. I so want this medicine to help me. Of those of you > who take this med- how long before you feel better? > I am also having so much guilt over the fact that I cannot do too much with > my kids. I am in so much pain it is all I can do to get through the day of > everyday care for them(they are 9,3,1) I dont even take them out to play anyomre. > Ok it has been hot here(florida) but we usually go out after supper but lately > I cant even do that. Hubby works long hours and is a huge help when he is > home but for that I feel bad too. 2 nights ago I had to crawl into bed at 8 pm > and leave him with everything to care for the kids. I couldnt even cook that > night. I feel like I am a failure of a Mom and wife. I wish for the days when I > was my Old self. I want to wake up one day and feel good. I am so tired of > feeling this way. > then to make matters worse, my sister who is a huge hypochondriac now > supposedly has RA (in the past she has " supposedly, had a misscarriage, cancer, now > also has back problems, stomach problems, sleep problems, bowel problems etc > etc) she has gastric bypass surgery and then was able to have her son but also > not without huge drama. Now I am going up to visit my family in 2 weeks and she > has all this crap going on. she also says she has lupus and plurisy ( which I > had 3 times in the past 2 years) and says she has RA in her back. Can you even > get that in your back? I thought RA affected your joints. anyway... I dont > even know why I am mad at her for her lies . I guess it is because this damn > disease is so terrible I dont know why on earth anyone would want to pretend to > have it. ugh > well enough crying over myself I am jsut so tired of feeling sick and tired. > I hope you are all well and pain free. > hugs to all > sandie > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 8, 2005 Report Share Posted July 8, 2005 Sandie, I'm so sorry that your feeling down. With a chronic disease, it's so hard to deal with at times. I go through the same thing, and I'm sure most do. Sometimes, anti-depressants help out very much. I take them for awhile, and then go off them after awhile. It's just so hard to deal with the RA. I have a 10 yr old, and it bothers me that I can't do the things, I would like to do. She is very understanding, and sometimes I go when I can't hardly make it. But, we just do the best we can. The MTX took about 6weeks for me. It has helped me a lot, so don't give up. If your not on any pain meds, maybe you should ask the doc to put you on something, until the MTX kicks in. I know how hard it is, to hurt so bad. I'm sorry about your sis. Not sure what to say, sometimes we just have to overlook our loved ones. Your a great wife and Mom, so don't ever think your not. It's just this RA that makes us hurt, and feel like this. I will keep you in my prayers, and just know I'm here, Tawny > Hi all, > I am feeling so down right now. I started my methotrexate last week so now > have 2 doses in me and still feel terrible. I am in so much pain right now that > when I shower the water hitting me hurts. I also feel like I am getting a > cold or something like that- Terrible headace and stuffy nose and such but took > my dose this week anyway. I so want this medicine to help me. Of those of you > who take this med- how long before you feel better? > I am also having so much guilt over the fact that I cannot do too much with > my kids. I am in so much pain it is all I can do to get through the day of > everyday care for them(they are 9,3,1) I dont even take them out to play anyomre. > Ok it has been hot here(florida) but we usually go out after supper but lately > I cant even do that. Hubby works long hours and is a huge help when he is > home but for that I feel bad too. 2 nights ago I had to crawl into bed at 8 pm > and leave him with everything to care for the kids. I couldnt even cook that > night. I feel like I am a failure of a Mom and wife. I wish for the days when I > was my Old self. I want to wake up one day and feel good. I am so tired of > feeling this way. > then to make matters worse, my sister who is a huge hypochondriac now > supposedly has RA (in the past she has " supposedly, had a misscarriage, cancer, now > also has back problems, stomach problems, sleep problems, bowel problems etc > etc) she has gastric bypass surgery and then was able to have her son but also > not without huge drama. Now I am going up to visit my family in 2 weeks and she > has all this crap going on. she also says she has lupus and plurisy ( which I > had 3 times in the past 2 years) and says she has RA in her back. Can you even > get that in your back? I thought RA affected your joints. anyway... I dont > even know why I am mad at her for her lies . I guess it is because this damn > disease is so terrible I dont know why on earth anyone would want to pretend to > have it. ugh > well enough crying over myself I am jsut so tired of feeling sick and tired. > I hope you are all well and pain free. > hugs to all > sandie > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 8, 2005 Report Share Posted July 8, 2005 Sandie, I'm glad you posted this. I've been having those same symptoms for a long time, but didn't know what to call it. Now I know, I have Hypochondria! I hope it's not contageous. A friend of ours was convinced she had RA since I had it really bad at that time. She even filed for SS Disability for it. Then, when her medical records were checked, she didn't have anything close. I had asked her about blood tests and she had them all, and it was definitely RA. She finally got her SSD, but not for RA. People can be strange... Dennnis [ ] feeling down. > then to make matters worse, my sister who is a huge hypochondriac now > supposedly has RA (in the past she has " supposedly, had a misscarriage, > cancer, now > also has back problems, stomach problems, sleep problems, bowel problems > etc > etc) she has gastric bypass surgery and then was able to have her son but > also > not without huge drama. Now I am going up to visit my family in 2 weeks > and she > has all this crap going on. she also says she has lupus and plurisy( which > I > had 3 times in the past 2 years) and says she has RA in her back. Can you > even > get that in your back? I thought RA affected your joints. anyway... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 8, 2005 Report Share Posted July 8, 2005 Sandie, I'm glad you posted this. I've been having those same symptoms for a long time, but didn't know what to call it. Now I know, I have Hypochondria! I hope it's not contageous. A friend of ours was convinced she had RA since I had it really bad at that time. She even filed for SS Disability for it. Then, when her medical records were checked, she didn't have anything close. I had asked her about blood tests and she had them all, and it was definitely RA. She finally got her SSD, but not for RA. People can be strange... Dennnis [ ] feeling down. > then to make matters worse, my sister who is a huge hypochondriac now > supposedly has RA (in the past she has " supposedly, had a misscarriage, > cancer, now > also has back problems, stomach problems, sleep problems, bowel problems > etc > etc) she has gastric bypass surgery and then was able to have her son but > also > not without huge drama. Now I am going up to visit my family in 2 weeks > and she > has all this crap going on. she also says she has lupus and plurisy( which > I > had 3 times in the past 2 years) and says she has RA in her back. Can you > even > get that in your back? I thought RA affected your joints. anyway... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 8, 2005 Report Share Posted July 8, 2005 Sandie I know how you feel I have been in constancy pain for 7 months no relief that's why I decided to go to the center IM 64 years old so all my children are grown but they have been no help to me they think RA is a very controllable disease but my husband has been great through all this. but do not feel like you are letting your family down because you can not do what you use to do. they will understand my doctor told me it could take up to 3 months to see any diffrence.but so far there has been no difference the only time I get any relief is when I can not take anymore and I call in and tell the nurse they have to do something for me that i can not take anymore I tell them how everything that has a joint in inflamed swollen cant walk without assistance and then and only then the dr. will pres. a six day graduated dose of methylprednisolone after the first day i felt like my old self but its short lived about 2-3 days after the pres. runs out it starts coming back in fact the pain does not fully leave but its very livable and you will get a few days of relief. you might call your dr. office and ask if they can give you some. I can not begin to put myself in your place with 3 babies my heart goes out to you. as far as your sister goes I have one just like yours she has had so many illness and dying from something different for years the sad thing is one day there will be something wrong and no one will believe her its a no win situation but if you know she's a hypochondriac so does the rest of the family and the reason you may feel anger is because of the pain that you are in but try not to let things stress you out I do believe this stuff feeds off stress I take 2 Tylenol PM every night they let me rest other wise I just toss and turn that is if IM able to turn. keep your chin up Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 8, 2005 Report Share Posted July 8, 2005 Sandie I know how you feel I have been in constancy pain for 7 months no relief that's why I decided to go to the center IM 64 years old so all my children are grown but they have been no help to me they think RA is a very controllable disease but my husband has been great through all this. but do not feel like you are letting your family down because you can not do what you use to do. they will understand my doctor told me it could take up to 3 months to see any diffrence.but so far there has been no difference the only time I get any relief is when I can not take anymore and I call in and tell the nurse they have to do something for me that i can not take anymore I tell them how everything that has a joint in inflamed swollen cant walk without assistance and then and only then the dr. will pres. a six day graduated dose of methylprednisolone after the first day i felt like my old self but its short lived about 2-3 days after the pres. runs out it starts coming back in fact the pain does not fully leave but its very livable and you will get a few days of relief. you might call your dr. office and ask if they can give you some. I can not begin to put myself in your place with 3 babies my heart goes out to you. as far as your sister goes I have one just like yours she has had so many illness and dying from something different for years the sad thing is one day there will be something wrong and no one will believe her its a no win situation but if you know she's a hypochondriac so does the rest of the family and the reason you may feel anger is because of the pain that you are in but try not to let things stress you out I do believe this stuff feeds off stress I take 2 Tylenol PM every night they let me rest other wise I just toss and turn that is if IM able to turn. keep your chin up Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 8, 2005 Report Share Posted July 8, 2005 Sandie, Sorry you're having such a bad day. MTX can take up to 3 months to be effective. Everyone is different. Some people respond sooner, and others will take longer. I understand how guilty you feel. I raised 2 children while having RA, and I used to feel the same way. It's not your fault. You didn't ask for this. Try not to be so hard on yourself. The MTX could kick in and things could change. On my good days, it is helpful for me to cook extra food for the freezer. On bad days, I'm so thankful that I've got something to pull out of the freezer. I hope the MTX kicks in soon so you can get some relief. a On Jul 8, 2005, at 3:39 PM, slmcc93@... wrote: > Hi all, > I am feeling so down right now. I started my methotrexate last week > so now > have 2 doses in me and still feel terrible. I am in so much pain > right now that > when I shower the water hitting me hurts. I also feel like I am > getting a > cold or something like that- Terrible headace and stuffy nose and > such but took > my dose this week anyway. I so want this medicine to help me. Of > those of you > who take this med- how long before you feel better? > I am also having so much guilt over the fact that I cannot do too > much with > my kids. I am in so much pain it is all I can do to get through the > day of > everyday care for them(they are 9,3,1) I dont even take them out to > play anyomre. > Ok it has been hot here(florida) but we usually go out after supper > but lately > I cant even do that. Hubby works long hours and is a huge help when > he is > home but for that I feel bad too. 2 nights ago I had to crawl into > bed at 8 pm > and leave him with everything to care for the kids. I couldnt even > cook that > night. I feel like I am a failure of a Mom and wife. I wish for the > days when I > was my Old self. I want to wake up one day and feel good. I am so > tired of > feeling this way. > then to make matters worse, my sister who is a huge hypochondriac now > supposedly has RA (in the past she has " supposedly, had a > misscarriage, cancer, now > also has back problems, stomach problems, sleep problems, bowel > problems etc > etc) she has gastric bypass surgery and then was able to have her son > but also > not without huge drama. Now I am going up to visit my family in 2 > weeks and she > has all this crap going on. she also says she has lupus and plurisy( > which I > had 3 times in the past 2 years) and says she has RA in her back. Can > you even > get that in your back? I thought RA affected your joints. anyway... I > dont > even know why I am mad at her for her lies . I guess it is because > this damn > disease is so terrible I dont know why on earth anyone would want to > pretend to > have it. ugh > well enough crying over myself I am jsut so tired of feeling sick > and tired. > I hope you are all well and pain free. > hugs to all > sandie > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 8, 2005 Report Share Posted July 8, 2005 Sandie, Sorry you're having such a bad day. MTX can take up to 3 months to be effective. Everyone is different. Some people respond sooner, and others will take longer. I understand how guilty you feel. I raised 2 children while having RA, and I used to feel the same way. It's not your fault. You didn't ask for this. Try not to be so hard on yourself. The MTX could kick in and things could change. On my good days, it is helpful for me to cook extra food for the freezer. On bad days, I'm so thankful that I've got something to pull out of the freezer. I hope the MTX kicks in soon so you can get some relief. a On Jul 8, 2005, at 3:39 PM, slmcc93@... wrote: > Hi all, > I am feeling so down right now. I started my methotrexate last week > so now > have 2 doses in me and still feel terrible. I am in so much pain > right now that > when I shower the water hitting me hurts. I also feel like I am > getting a > cold or something like that- Terrible headace and stuffy nose and > such but took > my dose this week anyway. I so want this medicine to help me. Of > those of you > who take this med- how long before you feel better? > I am also having so much guilt over the fact that I cannot do too > much with > my kids. I am in so much pain it is all I can do to get through the > day of > everyday care for them(they are 9,3,1) I dont even take them out to > play anyomre. > Ok it has been hot here(florida) but we usually go out after supper > but lately > I cant even do that. Hubby works long hours and is a huge help when > he is > home but for that I feel bad too. 2 nights ago I had to crawl into > bed at 8 pm > and leave him with everything to care for the kids. I couldnt even > cook that > night. I feel like I am a failure of a Mom and wife. I wish for the > days when I > was my Old self. I want to wake up one day and feel good. I am so > tired of > feeling this way. > then to make matters worse, my sister who is a huge hypochondriac now > supposedly has RA (in the past she has " supposedly, had a > misscarriage, cancer, now > also has back problems, stomach problems, sleep problems, bowel > problems etc > etc) she has gastric bypass surgery and then was able to have her son > but also > not without huge drama. Now I am going up to visit my family in 2 > weeks and she > has all this crap going on. she also says she has lupus and plurisy( > which I > had 3 times in the past 2 years) and says she has RA in her back. Can > you even > get that in your back? I thought RA affected your joints. anyway... I > dont > even know why I am mad at her for her lies . I guess it is because > this damn > disease is so terrible I dont know why on earth anyone would want to > pretend to > have it. ugh > well enough crying over myself I am jsut so tired of feeling sick > and tired. > I hope you are all well and pain free. > hugs to all > sandie > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 9, 2005 Report Share Posted July 9, 2005 Hi Sandi! Being diagnosed with RA is tough. I have been diagnosed for about three years. Finding the right treatment takes time. When I started methotrexate it took maybe 6 weeks before I felt any different. But everybody is different. Are you taking good pain meds. I take oxycocet and it do help wonderfully for the pain. I hope this works for you. From reading your email I can tell your totally stressed and from my own experience I can tell you that stress is terrible on RA. If I get stressed, I get a flare up. It is hard not to get stressed when your in so much pain and your life is changing so much! This disease do effect the whole family because your activity level changes. Don't feel bad about not being able to do things, it is not your fault. However I still go through guilty feelings, when I have to change plans at the last minute because I am to tired or paining to much to do something. As for your sister, well you need to let her worry about her own problems,you have enough of your own. I know it is easier said than done but your health has to be first to you. I have a aunt like her...LOL She is always sick with the same thing everybody in my family has....LOL. RA can effect the back, The joints are the major factor but if your joints are inflammed the areas around will be effected. Have you read up on it much? I have to run right now and get breakfast but if you ever need to chat we can on msn or you can email me at corinne@... ..There are brighter days ahead....My heart goes out to you and it must be so much tougher on you having three small children. Oh one more question, What other meds are you on, and are you on needle or pills of methotrexate? Corinne slmcc93@... wrote: > Hi all, > I am feeling so down right now. I started my methotrexate last week > so now > have 2 doses in me and still feel terrible. I am in so much pain right > now that > when I shower the water hitting me hurts. I also feel like I am > getting a > cold or something like that- Terrible headace and stuffy nose and such > but took > my dose this week anyway. I so want this medicine to help me. Of those > of you > who take this med- how long before you feel better? > I am also having so much guilt over the fact that I cannot do too much > with > my kids. I am in so much pain it is all I can do to get through the > day of > everyday care for them(they are 9,3,1) I dont even take them out to > play anyomre. > Ok it has been hot here(florida) but we usually go out after supper > but lately > I cant even do that. Hubby works long hours and is a huge help when he is > home but for that I feel bad too. 2 nights ago I had to crawl into bed > at 8 pm > and leave him with everything to care for the kids. I couldnt even > cook that > night. I feel like I am a failure of a Mom and wife. I wish for the > days when I > was my Old self. I want to wake up one day and feel good. I am so > tired of > feeling this way. > then to make matters worse, my sister who is a huge hypochondriac now > supposedly has RA (in the past she has " supposedly, had a > misscarriage, cancer, now > also has back problems, stomach problems, sleep problems, bowel > problems etc > etc) she has gastric bypass surgery and then was able to have her son > but also > not without huge drama. Now I am going up to visit my family in 2 > weeks and she > has all this crap going on. she also says she has lupus and plurisy( > which I > had 3 times in the past 2 years) and says she has RA in her back. Can > you even > get that in your back? I thought RA affected your joints. anyway... I > dont > even know why I am mad at her for her lies . I guess it is because > this damn > disease is so terrible I dont know why on earth anyone would want to > pretend to > have it. ugh > well enough crying over myself I am jsut so tired of feeling sick and > tired. > I hope you are all well and pain free. > hugs to all > sandie > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 9, 2005 Report Share Posted July 9, 2005 Hi Sandi! Being diagnosed with RA is tough. I have been diagnosed for about three years. Finding the right treatment takes time. When I started methotrexate it took maybe 6 weeks before I felt any different. But everybody is different. Are you taking good pain meds. I take oxycocet and it do help wonderfully for the pain. I hope this works for you. From reading your email I can tell your totally stressed and from my own experience I can tell you that stress is terrible on RA. If I get stressed, I get a flare up. It is hard not to get stressed when your in so much pain and your life is changing so much! This disease do effect the whole family because your activity level changes. Don't feel bad about not being able to do things, it is not your fault. However I still go through guilty feelings, when I have to change plans at the last minute because I am to tired or paining to much to do something. As for your sister, well you need to let her worry about her own problems,you have enough of your own. I know it is easier said than done but your health has to be first to you. I have a aunt like her...LOL She is always sick with the same thing everybody in my family has....LOL. RA can effect the back, The joints are the major factor but if your joints are inflammed the areas around will be effected. Have you read up on it much? I have to run right now and get breakfast but if you ever need to chat we can on msn or you can email me at corinne@... ..There are brighter days ahead....My heart goes out to you and it must be so much tougher on you having three small children. Oh one more question, What other meds are you on, and are you on needle or pills of methotrexate? Corinne slmcc93@... wrote: > Hi all, > I am feeling so down right now. I started my methotrexate last week > so now > have 2 doses in me and still feel terrible. I am in so much pain right > now that > when I shower the water hitting me hurts. I also feel like I am > getting a > cold or something like that- Terrible headace and stuffy nose and such > but took > my dose this week anyway. I so want this medicine to help me. Of those > of you > who take this med- how long before you feel better? > I am also having so much guilt over the fact that I cannot do too much > with > my kids. I am in so much pain it is all I can do to get through the > day of > everyday care for them(they are 9,3,1) I dont even take them out to > play anyomre. > Ok it has been hot here(florida) but we usually go out after supper > but lately > I cant even do that. Hubby works long hours and is a huge help when he is > home but for that I feel bad too. 2 nights ago I had to crawl into bed > at 8 pm > and leave him with everything to care for the kids. I couldnt even > cook that > night. I feel like I am a failure of a Mom and wife. I wish for the > days when I > was my Old self. I want to wake up one day and feel good. I am so > tired of > feeling this way. > then to make matters worse, my sister who is a huge hypochondriac now > supposedly has RA (in the past she has " supposedly, had a > misscarriage, cancer, now > also has back problems, stomach problems, sleep problems, bowel > problems etc > etc) she has gastric bypass surgery and then was able to have her son > but also > not without huge drama. Now I am going up to visit my family in 2 > weeks and she > has all this crap going on. she also says she has lupus and plurisy( > which I > had 3 times in the past 2 years) and says she has RA in her back. Can > you even > get that in your back? I thought RA affected your joints. anyway... I > dont > even know why I am mad at her for her lies . I guess it is because > this damn > disease is so terrible I dont know why on earth anyone would want to > pretend to > have it. ugh > well enough crying over myself I am jsut so tired of feeling sick and > tired. > I hope you are all well and pain free. > hugs to all > sandie > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 9, 2005 Report Share Posted July 9, 2005 Sandie, I just read your post this morning, sorry I am late in replying! I don't have RA, but do have MS, FM, and Dercum's, so understand the pain and feeling of helplessness. Whatever you feel, you are NOT, repeat NOT a failure!! Your husband and kids will understand, and you won't always feel as bad as you do right now. You will always be a loved and vital part of their life, so don't be too hard on yourself. Frustration is one of the biggest pains. God bless, Judi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 9, 2005 Report Share Posted July 9, 2005 Sandie, I just read your post this morning, sorry I am late in replying! I don't have RA, but do have MS, FM, and Dercum's, so understand the pain and feeling of helplessness. Whatever you feel, you are NOT, repeat NOT a failure!! Your husband and kids will understand, and you won't always feel as bad as you do right now. You will always be a loved and vital part of their life, so don't be too hard on yourself. Frustration is one of the biggest pains. God bless, Judi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 9, 2005 Report Share Posted July 9, 2005 Sandie, I am so sorry for all that you are going through. It does sometimes take a couple of months for the MTX to take effect. Even after it started to help I still hurt but not like I did before I started taking the MTX. Morning was the worst for me. I am still taking MTX plus the Enbrel. Just keep telling yourself that it will get better. And we are all here for you. It sounds like your sister just wants attention. You are in my prayers. Beth(AR) --- slmcc93@... wrote: > Hi all, > I am feeling so down right now. I started my > methotrexate last week so now > have 2 doses in me and still feel terrible. I am in > so much pain right now that > when I shower the water hitting me hurts. I also > feel like I am getting a > cold or something like that- Terrible headace and > stuffy nose and such but took > my dose this week anyway. I so want this medicine to > help me. Of those of you > who take this med- how long before you feel better? > > I am also having so much guilt over the fact that I > cannot do too much with > my kids. I am in so much pain it is all I can do to > get through the day of > everyday care for them(they are 9,3,1) I dont even > take them out to play anyomre. > Ok it has been hot here(florida) but we usually go > out after supper but lately > I cant even do that. Hubby works long hours and is a > huge help when he is > home but for that I feel bad too. 2 nights ago I had > to crawl into bed at 8 pm > and leave him with everything to care for the kids. > I couldnt even cook that > night. I feel like I am a failure of a Mom and wife. > I wish for the days when I > was my Old self. I want to wake up one day and feel > good. I am so tired of > feeling this way. > then to make matters worse, my sister who is a huge > hypochondriac now > supposedly has RA (in the past she has " supposedly, > had a misscarriage, cancer, now > also has back problems, stomach problems, sleep > problems, bowel problems etc > etc) she has gastric bypass surgery and then was > able to have her son but also > not without huge drama. Now I am going up to visit > my family in 2 weeks and she > has all this crap going on. she also says she has > lupus and plurisy( which I > had 3 times in the past 2 years) and says she has RA > in her back. Can you even > get that in your back? I thought RA affected your > joints. anyway... I dont > even know why I am mad at her for her lies . I guess > it is because this damn > disease is so terrible I dont know why on earth > anyone would want to pretend to > have it. ugh > well enough crying over myself I am jsut so tired > of feeling sick and tired. > I hope you are all well and pain free. > hugs to all > sandie > > > [Non-text portions of this message have been > removed] > > __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 9, 2005 Report Share Posted July 9, 2005 Sandie, I am so sorry for all that you are going through. It does sometimes take a couple of months for the MTX to take effect. Even after it started to help I still hurt but not like I did before I started taking the MTX. Morning was the worst for me. I am still taking MTX plus the Enbrel. Just keep telling yourself that it will get better. And we are all here for you. It sounds like your sister just wants attention. You are in my prayers. Beth(AR) --- slmcc93@... wrote: > Hi all, > I am feeling so down right now. I started my > methotrexate last week so now > have 2 doses in me and still feel terrible. I am in > so much pain right now that > when I shower the water hitting me hurts. I also > feel like I am getting a > cold or something like that- Terrible headace and > stuffy nose and such but took > my dose this week anyway. I so want this medicine to > help me. Of those of you > who take this med- how long before you feel better? > > I am also having so much guilt over the fact that I > cannot do too much with > my kids. I am in so much pain it is all I can do to > get through the day of > everyday care for them(they are 9,3,1) I dont even > take them out to play anyomre. > Ok it has been hot here(florida) but we usually go > out after supper but lately > I cant even do that. Hubby works long hours and is a > huge help when he is > home but for that I feel bad too. 2 nights ago I had > to crawl into bed at 8 pm > and leave him with everything to care for the kids. > I couldnt even cook that > night. I feel like I am a failure of a Mom and wife. > I wish for the days when I > was my Old self. I want to wake up one day and feel > good. I am so tired of > feeling this way. > then to make matters worse, my sister who is a huge > hypochondriac now > supposedly has RA (in the past she has " supposedly, > had a misscarriage, cancer, now > also has back problems, stomach problems, sleep > problems, bowel problems etc > etc) she has gastric bypass surgery and then was > able to have her son but also > not without huge drama. Now I am going up to visit > my family in 2 weeks and she > has all this crap going on. she also says she has > lupus and plurisy( which I > had 3 times in the past 2 years) and says she has RA > in her back. Can you even > get that in your back? I thought RA affected your > joints. anyway... I dont > even know why I am mad at her for her lies . I guess > it is because this damn > disease is so terrible I dont know why on earth > anyone would want to pretend to > have it. ugh > well enough crying over myself I am jsut so tired > of feeling sick and tired. > I hope you are all well and pain free. > hugs to all > sandie > > > [Non-text portions of this message have been > removed] > > __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 10, 2005 Report Share Posted July 10, 2005 > Hi all, > I am feeling so down right now. I started my methotrexate last week so now > have 2 doses in me and still feel terrible. I am in so much pain right now that > when I shower the water hitting me hurts. I also feel like I am getting a > cold or something like that- Terrible headace and stuffy nose and such but took > my dose this week anyway. I so want this medicine to help me. Of those of you > who take this med- how long before you feel better? > I am also having so much guilt over the fact that I cannot do too much with > my kids. I am in so much pain it is all I can do to get through the day of > everyday care for them(they are 9,3,1) I dont even take them out to play anyomre. > Ok it has been hot here(florida) but we usually go out after supper but lately > I cant even do that. Hubby works long hours and is a huge help when he is > home but for that I feel bad too. 2 nights ago I had to crawl into bed at 8 pm > and leave him with everything to care for the kids. I couldnt even cook that > night. I feel like I am a failure of a Mom and wife. I wish for the days when I > was my Old self. I want to wake up one day and feel good. I am so tired of > feeling this way. > then to make matters worse, my sister who is a huge hypochondriac now > supposedly has RA (in the past she has " supposedly, had a misscarriage, cancer, now > also has back problems, stomach problems, sleep problems, bowel problems etc > etc) she has gastric bypass surgery and then was able to have her son but also > not without huge drama. Now I am going up to visit my family in 2 weeks and she > has all this crap going on. she also says she has lupus and plurisy ( which I > had 3 times in the past 2 years) and says she has RA in her back. Can you even > get that in your back? I thought RA affected your joints. anyway... I dont > even know why I am mad at her for her lies . I guess it is because this damn > disease is so terrible I dont know why on earth anyone would want to pretend to > have it. ugh > well enough crying over myself I am jsut so tired of feeling sick and tired. > I hope you are all well and pain free. > hugs to all > sandie > > Sandie, Sorry for the misery you are in. I think it's harder for us to accept as women being the nurturing kind that it is hard to recieve help even when we desperatly need it. I hear what your saying because I've been experiancing the frustration of being a burden also. We really shouldn't feel quilty about something out of our control. I am just starting to slow down the stress of it all and it is helping. I hope you can get some help with the little ones to concentrate on getting you better. Roxanna > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 10, 2005 Report Share Posted July 10, 2005 > Hi all, > I am feeling so down right now. I started my methotrexate last week so now > have 2 doses in me and still feel terrible. I am in so much pain right now that > when I shower the water hitting me hurts. I also feel like I am getting a > cold or something like that- Terrible headace and stuffy nose and such but took > my dose this week anyway. I so want this medicine to help me. Of those of you > who take this med- how long before you feel better? > I am also having so much guilt over the fact that I cannot do too much with > my kids. I am in so much pain it is all I can do to get through the day of > everyday care for them(they are 9,3,1) I dont even take them out to play anyomre. > Ok it has been hot here(florida) but we usually go out after supper but lately > I cant even do that. Hubby works long hours and is a huge help when he is > home but for that I feel bad too. 2 nights ago I had to crawl into bed at 8 pm > and leave him with everything to care for the kids. I couldnt even cook that > night. I feel like I am a failure of a Mom and wife. I wish for the days when I > was my Old self. I want to wake up one day and feel good. I am so tired of > feeling this way. > then to make matters worse, my sister who is a huge hypochondriac now > supposedly has RA (in the past she has " supposedly, had a misscarriage, cancer, now > also has back problems, stomach problems, sleep problems, bowel problems etc > etc) she has gastric bypass surgery and then was able to have her son but also > not without huge drama. Now I am going up to visit my family in 2 weeks and she > has all this crap going on. she also says she has lupus and plurisy ( which I > had 3 times in the past 2 years) and says she has RA in her back. Can you even > get that in your back? I thought RA affected your joints. anyway... I dont > even know why I am mad at her for her lies . I guess it is because this damn > disease is so terrible I dont know why on earth anyone would want to pretend to > have it. ugh > well enough crying over myself I am jsut so tired of feeling sick and tired. > I hope you are all well and pain free. > hugs to all > sandie > > Sandie, Sorry for the misery you are in. I think it's harder for us to accept as women being the nurturing kind that it is hard to recieve help even when we desperatly need it. I hear what your saying because I've been experiancing the frustration of being a burden also. We really shouldn't feel quilty about something out of our control. I am just starting to slow down the stress of it all and it is helping. I hope you can get some help with the little ones to concentrate on getting you better. Roxanna > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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