Re: To my Family, from Squarehead Ken.....a little more clarification,O.K.?

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Dearest Ken: Another hat will be on it's way to you

soon.........I am in the process of making it for

you..........or decorating it.......or

whatever..........I made hats to sell advertising

Rick's band and of course you need to have one of

those.............

My computer is in the hospital as we speak. I am on

vacation this week and on my son's computer while he

is at work,....hopefully it is only the power supply

and will be fixed and home with me soon.........I am

so lost without it...........LOL

my friends and I are going to 7 Feathers Indian Casino

tomorrow and going to a concert tomorrow night to see

Herman's Hermits.........do you remember them??? my

friend is friends with Noone so we are gonna

hang out with him and the band afterwards..........I

will report it all to you

Hope you are feeling ok...........both knees are

killing me today as I had to stand for an extended

period last night running the video camera for one of

Rick's gigs..........was fun,...maybe I can send you a

video...........VHS or DVD???

Love ya

Pat

--- kenneth samuelsen <squarehead52@...> wrote:

> Greetings, to all the people I have come to love so

> much.....YOU ALL!!!!

> There are a lot of guys out there, but NOT many

> men, in comparison: Just as there are a lot of

> women, but few Ladies, in comparison.

> And, most important...it is NOT your

> " upbringing , or your " childhood " that determines

> who yopu turn out to be, or WHAT you turn out to be!

> I KNOW. And because I feel so close to many of you,

> I am going to share a little known fact:(you see, I

> don't share this with just anybody, so you can

> determine the impact it had on me)

> Both my mother and my " father " were very abusive

> alcoholics!.......my " father " , well, he wasn't

> really my father...you see, my mother cheated on him

> two years AFTER they were married, and I was the

> result. It was only two years ago, in a drunken

> state, that my " father " finally let it be known that

> the name of my REAL father was " Garbis Crone(or

> krone) .He was a norwegisan sailor,who was " seeing

> my mother.My grandmother, and my grandfather, AND my

> mother were all Norwegian. I suffered terribly,

> growing up, and I see, now, that the reason my

> " father " hated me so much(he STILL does, evewn now,

> at HIS age) is because I was a constant reminder of

> the fact that my mother stepped out on him. All thru

> my child hood, are pictures in my mind of him

> brutely beating my mother and myself. He put me in

> the hospital before I was seven, and HE is the

> reason I cannot father children, whom are " drawn " to

> me, and whom I love!!!

> A true man can be anything he wants! IF he CARES

> enough!!!!! I don't drink. And I am not abusive. I

> don't swear, or go to bars, or laugh at someone

> else. I have respect, even for the lonliest street

> person. I swore, growing up, I would NEVER grow up

> to be like him! And I DIDN'T!

> Because I WANTED to!!!!!!!I could tell you

> horrer stories, like the time he dumped cold water

> on my head, a whole pot, then hit me over the head

> with it, breaking it, a Corning pot, which isn't

> supposed to break, and then making me stand out in

> the falling down snow, ai my pajama's......at age 7.

> I have forgiven my parents all that they

> did...but I will never forget.

> And THAT, dear family, is WHY I have NO

> patience with a person, man or woman, who would hurt

> another.....including neglect, when their spouse

> needs it so badly. It is ALSO, why, when I say " I

> love you " , even tho " I might not have seen you, I

> MEANI it !!!!!!

> Well, now you know a lot more about me than

> most. And you know what? If I didn't love you all, I

> wouldn't tell you what I have just said!

>

> I want to thank all of you who have answered my last

> post. I want to tell you that it really DID bring

> tears to my eyes, and really made me feel good about

> myself! It made me realize again, that I am NOT

> ALONE! Made me realize again, how much you all

> really truly care! I thank you, more than I can

> write about! I love you! oh....a word about why

> collecting hats is so important to me....eventually,

> my grandfather and grandmother " rescued " me, and

> brought me to live with them. My Grand dad was a

> trucker(as was I ) , and when he was gone, I would

> go to the hall closet, and get one of his hats down,

> and bury my face in it, when I missed him so badly,

> and his " scent " was IN the hat! I could smell him,

> literally, and made me feel close to him! That's why

> I collect hats, and to those of you who have sent me

> a hat, well, now you know why you are so important

> to me, and why I say it means all the world to me

> that you WOULD send me a hat! Truly, I loive you!

> Well, I didn't mean to go on for so long.

> Please forgive me....it's just such a comfort to

> have you all to talk to, to " get things off my

> chest " with, so to speak.You all have become the

> family I have needed for so long, and I LOVE YOU

> ALL!!!!!I pray that each and every one of you has

> someone to help, and support you, be you a Lady or a

> Man(Truly you ARE....NOT just " guys, and Women)

> haha! And,if ever I can do something special for

> you, let me know.....for instance, give me a few

> " details " and I will gladly write a special poem,

> just for YOU, or for someone you want to send it to(

> not to " brag " but I'm kind of a " wordsmith " haha)

> Well gotta go. Thank you for letting me get this

> off my chest.I thank you, I love you, and I hope I

> haven't offended any of you! You all mean the world

> to me!

> And, by the way, haha, if any of you want to

> send me a hat, Pat, and Marina have my address,

> hahaha! Love to you all..........ken

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Sell on Auctions - No fees. Bid on great

> items.

>

> [Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

>

>

>

>

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Dearest Ken: Another hat will be on it's way to you

soon.........I am in the process of making it for

you..........or decorating it.......or

whatever..........I made hats to sell advertising

Rick's band and of course you need to have one of

those.............

My computer is in the hospital as we speak. I am on

vacation this week and on my son's computer while he

is at work,....hopefully it is only the power supply

and will be fixed and home with me soon.........I am

so lost without it...........LOL

my friends and I are going to 7 Feathers Indian Casino

tomorrow and going to a concert tomorrow night to see

Herman's Hermits.........do you remember them??? my

friend is friends with Noone so we are gonna

hang out with him and the band afterwards..........I

will report it all to you

Hope you are feeling ok...........both knees are

killing me today as I had to stand for an extended

period last night running the video camera for one of

Rick's gigs..........was fun,...maybe I can send you a

video...........VHS or DVD???

Love ya

Pat

--- kenneth samuelsen <squarehead52@...> wrote:

> Greetings, to all the people I have come to love so

> much.....YOU ALL!!!!

> There are a lot of guys out there, but NOT many

> men, in comparison: Just as there are a lot of

> women, but few Ladies, in comparison.

> And, most important...it is NOT your

> " upbringing , or your " childhood " that determines

> who yopu turn out to be, or WHAT you turn out to be!

> I KNOW. And because I feel so close to many of you,

> I am going to share a little known fact:(you see, I

> don't share this with just anybody, so you can

> determine the impact it had on me)

> Both my mother and my " father " were very abusive

> alcoholics!.......my " father " , well, he wasn't

> really my father...you see, my mother cheated on him

> two years AFTER they were married, and I was the

> result. It was only two years ago, in a drunken

> state, that my " father " finally let it be known that

> the name of my REAL father was " Garbis Crone(or

> krone) .He was a norwegisan sailor,who was " seeing

> my mother.My grandmother, and my grandfather, AND my

> mother were all Norwegian. I suffered terribly,

> growing up, and I see, now, that the reason my

> " father " hated me so much(he STILL does, evewn now,

> at HIS age) is because I was a constant reminder of

> the fact that my mother stepped out on him. All thru

> my child hood, are pictures in my mind of him

> brutely beating my mother and myself. He put me in

> the hospital before I was seven, and HE is the

> reason I cannot father children, whom are " drawn " to

> me, and whom I love!!!

> A true man can be anything he wants! IF he CARES

> enough!!!!! I don't drink. And I am not abusive. I

> don't swear, or go to bars, or laugh at someone

> else. I have respect, even for the lonliest street

> person. I swore, growing up, I would NEVER grow up

> to be like him! And I DIDN'T!

> Because I WANTED to!!!!!!!I could tell you

> horrer stories, like the time he dumped cold water

> on my head, a whole pot, then hit me over the head

> with it, breaking it, a Corning pot, which isn't

> supposed to break, and then making me stand out in

> the falling down snow, ai my pajama's......at age 7.

> I have forgiven my parents all that they

> did...but I will never forget.

> And THAT, dear family, is WHY I have NO

> patience with a person, man or woman, who would hurt

> another.....including neglect, when their spouse

> needs it so badly. It is ALSO, why, when I say " I

> love you " , even tho " I might not have seen you, I

> MEANI it !!!!!!

> Well, now you know a lot more about me than

> most. And you know what? If I didn't love you all, I

> wouldn't tell you what I have just said!

>

> I want to thank all of you who have answered my last

> post. I want to tell you that it really DID bring

> tears to my eyes, and really made me feel good about

> myself! It made me realize again, that I am NOT

> ALONE! Made me realize again, how much you all

> really truly care! I thank you, more than I can

> write about! I love you! oh....a word about why

> collecting hats is so important to me....eventually,

> my grandfather and grandmother " rescued " me, and

> brought me to live with them. My Grand dad was a

> trucker(as was I ) , and when he was gone, I would

> go to the hall closet, and get one of his hats down,

> and bury my face in it, when I missed him so badly,

> and his " scent " was IN the hat! I could smell him,

> literally, and made me feel close to him! That's why

> I collect hats, and to those of you who have sent me

> a hat, well, now you know why you are so important

> to me, and why I say it means all the world to me

> that you WOULD send me a hat! Truly, I loive you!

> Well, I didn't mean to go on for so long.

> Please forgive me....it's just such a comfort to

> have you all to talk to, to " get things off my

> chest " with, so to speak.You all have become the

> family I have needed for so long, and I LOVE YOU

> ALL!!!!!I pray that each and every one of you has

> someone to help, and support you, be you a Lady or a

> Man(Truly you ARE....NOT just " guys, and Women)

> haha! And,if ever I can do something special for

> you, let me know.....for instance, give me a few

> " details " and I will gladly write a special poem,

> just for YOU, or for someone you want to send it to(

> not to " brag " but I'm kind of a " wordsmith " haha)

> Well gotta go. Thank you for letting me get this

> off my chest.I thank you, I love you, and I hope I

> haven't offended any of you! You all mean the world

> to me!

> And, by the way, haha, if any of you want to

> send me a hat, Pat, and Marina have my address,

> hahaha! Love to you all..........ken

>

>

> ---------------------------------

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> items.

>

> [Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

>

>

>

>

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Pat

Noone!!!! What memories. When I was a teen, I was in LOVE with

Noone. I saw him on the Steel Pier in Atlantic City.

My bedroom walls were covered in his posters. Then he got married. I

tore all the posters down and cried for days LOL!

Thanks for bringing back those memories.

I used to do the lighting for a friend's band and can relate. Lots of

fun and worth the pain.

Have a great time tomorrow.

a

On Jul 7, 2005, at 6:10 PM, Alvarez wrote:

> Dearest Ken:  Another hat will be on it's way to you

> soon.........I am in the process of making it for

> you..........or decorating it.......or

> whatever..........I made hats to sell advertising

> Rick's band and of course you need to have one of

> those.............

>

> My computer is in the hospital as we speak.  I am on

> vacation this week and on my son's computer while he

> is at work,....hopefully it is only the power supply

> and will be fixed and home with me soon.........I am

> so lost without it...........LOL

>

> my friends and I are going to 7 Feathers Indian Casino

> tomorrow and going to a concert tomorrow night to see

> Herman's Hermits.........do you remember them???  my

> friend is friends with Noone so we are gonna

> hang out with him and the band afterwards..........I

> will report it all to you

>

> Hope you are feeling ok...........both knees are

> killing me today as I had to stand for an extended

> period last night running the video camera for one of

> Rick's gigs..........was fun,...maybe I can send you a

> video...........VHS or DVD???

>

> Love ya

> Pat

[Guest guest]

Pat

Noone!!!! What memories. When I was a teen, I was in LOVE with

Noone. I saw him on the Steel Pier in Atlantic City.

My bedroom walls were covered in his posters. Then he got married. I

tore all the posters down and cried for days LOL!

Thanks for bringing back those memories.

I used to do the lighting for a friend's band and can relate. Lots of

fun and worth the pain.

Have a great time tomorrow.

a

On Jul 7, 2005, at 6:10 PM, Alvarez wrote:

> Dearest Ken:  Another hat will be on it's way to you

> soon.........I am in the process of making it for

> you..........or decorating it.......or

> whatever..........I made hats to sell advertising

> Rick's band and of course you need to have one of

> those.............

>

> My computer is in the hospital as we speak.  I am on

> vacation this week and on my son's computer while he

> is at work,....hopefully it is only the power supply

> and will be fixed and home with me soon.........I am

> so lost without it...........LOL

>

> my friends and I are going to 7 Feathers Indian Casino

> tomorrow and going to a concert tomorrow night to see

> Herman's Hermits.........do you remember them???  my

> friend is friends with Noone so we are gonna

> hang out with him and the band afterwards..........I

> will report it all to you

>

> Hope you are feeling ok...........both knees are

> killing me today as I had to stand for an extended

> period last night running the video camera for one of

> Rick's gigs..........was fun,...maybe I can send you a

> video...........VHS or DVD???

>

> Love ya

> Pat

[Guest guest]

Ken,

You've had a very painful past, and I admire you for the way you've

dealt with it. No child should have to suffer the way you did.

I'm really sorry you had such a rotten childhood. You are quite a MAN.

Alcoholism has affected my family as well and I know it's horrors.

a

On Jul 7, 2005, at 3:45 PM, kenneth samuelsen wrote:

> Greetings, to all the people I have come to love so much.....YOU

> ALL!!!!

>     There are a lot of guys out there, but NOT many men, in

> comparison: Just as there are a lot of women, but few Ladies, in

> comparison.

>      And, most important...it is NOT your " upbringing , or your

> " childhood " that determines who yopu turn out to be, or WHAT you turn

> out to be! I KNOW. And because I feel so close to many of you, I am

> going to share a little known fact:(you see, I don't share this with

> just anybody, so you can determine the impact it had on me)

>   Both my mother and my " father " were very abusive

> alcoholics!.......my " father " , well, he wasn't really my father...you

> see, my mother cheated on him two years AFTER they were married, and I

> was the result. It was only two years ago, in a drunken state, that

> my " father " finally let it be known that the name of my REAL father was

> " Garbis Crone(or krone) .He was a norwegisan sailor,who was " seeing

> my mother.My grandmother, and my grandfather, AND my mother were all

> Norwegian. I suffered terribly, growing up, and I see, now, that the

> reason my " father " hated me so much(he STILL does, evewn now, at HIS

> age) is because I was a constant reminder of the fact that my mother

> stepped out on him. All thru my child hood, are pictures in my mind of

> him brutely beating my mother and myself. He put me in the hospital

> before I was seven, and HE is the reason I cannot father children,

> whom are " drawn " to me, and whom I love!!!!

>     A true man can be anything he wants! IF he CARES enough!!!!! I

> don't drink. And I am not abusive. I don't swear, or go to bars, or

> laugh at someone else. I have respect, even for the lonliest street

> person. I swore, growing up, I would NEVER grow up to be like him! And

> I DIDN'T!

>      Because I WANTED to!!!!!!!I could tell you horrer stories, like

> the time he dumped cold water on my head, a whole pot, then hit me

> over the head with it, breaking it, a Corning pot, which isn't

> supposed to break, and then making me stand out in the falling down

> snow, ai my pajama's......at age 7.

>     I have forgiven my parents all that they did...but I will never

> forget.

>      And THAT, dear family, is WHY I have NO patience with a person,

> man or woman, who would hurt another.....including neglect, when their

> spouse needs it so badly. It is ALSO, why, when I say " I love you " ,

> even tho " I might not have seen you, I MEANI it !!!!!!

>        Well, now you know a lot more about me than most. And you know

> what? If I didn't love you all, I wouldn't tell you what I have just

> said!

>

> I want to thank all of you who have answered my last post. I want to

> tell you that it really DID bring tears to my eyes, and really made me

> feel good about myself! It made me realize again, that I am NOT ALONE!

> Made me realize again, how much you all really truly care! I thank

> you, more than I can write about! I love you! oh....a word about why

> collecting hats is so important to me....eventually, my grandfather

> and grandmother " rescued " me, and brought me to live with them. My

> Grand dad was a trucker(as was I ) , and when he was gone, I would go

> to the hall closet, and get one of his hats down, and bury my face in

> it, when I missed him so badly, and his " scent " was IN the hat! I

> could smell him, literally, and made me feel close to him! That's why

> I collect hats, and to those of you who have sent me a hat, well, now

> you know why you are so important to me, and why I say it means all

> the world to me that you WOULD send me a hat! Truly, I loive you!

>      Well, I didn't mean to go on for so long. Please forgive

> me....it's just such a comfort to have you all to talk to, to " get

> things off my chest " with, so to speak.You all have become the family

> I have needed for so long, and I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!I pray that each and

> every one of you has someone to help, and support you, be you a Lady

> or a Man(Truly you ARE....NOT just " guys, and Women) haha! And,if ever

> I can do something special for you, let me know.....for instance, give

> me a few " details " and I will gladly write a special poem, just for

> YOU, or for someone you want to send it to( not to " brag " but I'm kind

> of a " wordsmith " haha)

>     Well gotta go. Thank you for letting me get this off my chest.I

> thank you, I love you, and I hope I haven't offended any of you! You

> all mean the world to me!

>       And, by the way, haha, if any of you want to send me a hat,

> Pat, and Marina have my address, hahaha!   Love to you

> all..........ken

>

>            

> ---------------------------------

> Sell on Auctions  - No fees. Bid on great items.

>

>

[Guest guest]

Ken,

You've had a very painful past, and I admire you for the way you've

dealt with it. No child should have to suffer the way you did.

I'm really sorry you had such a rotten childhood. You are quite a MAN.

Alcoholism has affected my family as well and I know it's horrors.

a

On Jul 7, 2005, at 3:45 PM, kenneth samuelsen wrote:

> Greetings, to all the people I have come to love so much.....YOU

> ALL!!!!

>     There are a lot of guys out there, but NOT many men, in

> comparison: Just as there are a lot of women, but few Ladies, in

> comparison.

>      And, most important...it is NOT your " upbringing , or your

> " childhood " that determines who yopu turn out to be, or WHAT you turn

> out to be! I KNOW. And because I feel so close to many of you, I am

> going to share a little known fact:(you see, I don't share this with

> just anybody, so you can determine the impact it had on me)

>   Both my mother and my " father " were very abusive

> alcoholics!.......my " father " , well, he wasn't really my father...you

> see, my mother cheated on him two years AFTER they were married, and I

> was the result. It was only two years ago, in a drunken state, that

> my " father " finally let it be known that the name of my REAL father was

> " Garbis Crone(or krone) .He was a norwegisan sailor,who was " seeing

> my mother.My grandmother, and my grandfather, AND my mother were all

> Norwegian. I suffered terribly, growing up, and I see, now, that the

> reason my " father " hated me so much(he STILL does, evewn now, at HIS

> age) is because I was a constant reminder of the fact that my mother

> stepped out on him. All thru my child hood, are pictures in my mind of

> him brutely beating my mother and myself. He put me in the hospital

> before I was seven, and HE is the reason I cannot father children,

> whom are " drawn " to me, and whom I love!!!!

>     A true man can be anything he wants! IF he CARES enough!!!!! I

> don't drink. And I am not abusive. I don't swear, or go to bars, or

> laugh at someone else. I have respect, even for the lonliest street

> person. I swore, growing up, I would NEVER grow up to be like him! And

> I DIDN'T!

>      Because I WANTED to!!!!!!!I could tell you horrer stories, like

> the time he dumped cold water on my head, a whole pot, then hit me

> over the head with it, breaking it, a Corning pot, which isn't

> supposed to break, and then making me stand out in the falling down

> snow, ai my pajama's......at age 7.

>     I have forgiven my parents all that they did...but I will never

> forget.

>      And THAT, dear family, is WHY I have NO patience with a person,

> man or woman, who would hurt another.....including neglect, when their

> spouse needs it so badly. It is ALSO, why, when I say " I love you " ,

> even tho " I might not have seen you, I MEANI it !!!!!!

>        Well, now you know a lot more about me than most. And you know

> what? If I didn't love you all, I wouldn't tell you what I have just

> said!

>

> I want to thank all of you who have answered my last post. I want to

> tell you that it really DID bring tears to my eyes, and really made me

> feel good about myself! It made me realize again, that I am NOT ALONE!

> Made me realize again, how much you all really truly care! I thank

> you, more than I can write about! I love you! oh....a word about why

> collecting hats is so important to me....eventually, my grandfather

> and grandmother " rescued " me, and brought me to live with them. My

> Grand dad was a trucker(as was I ) , and when he was gone, I would go

> to the hall closet, and get one of his hats down, and bury my face in

> it, when I missed him so badly, and his " scent " was IN the hat! I

> could smell him, literally, and made me feel close to him! That's why

> I collect hats, and to those of you who have sent me a hat, well, now

> you know why you are so important to me, and why I say it means all

> the world to me that you WOULD send me a hat! Truly, I loive you!

>      Well, I didn't mean to go on for so long. Please forgive

> me....it's just such a comfort to have you all to talk to, to " get

> things off my chest " with, so to speak.You all have become the family

> I have needed for so long, and I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!I pray that each and

> every one of you has someone to help, and support you, be you a Lady

> or a Man(Truly you ARE....NOT just " guys, and Women) haha! And,if ever

> I can do something special for you, let me know.....for instance, give

> me a few " details " and I will gladly write a special poem, just for

> YOU, or for someone you want to send it to( not to " brag " but I'm kind

> of a " wordsmith " haha)

>     Well gotta go. Thank you for letting me get this off my chest.I

> thank you, I love you, and I hope I haven't offended any of you! You

> all mean the world to me!

>       And, by the way, haha, if any of you want to send me a hat,

> Pat, and Marina have my address, hahaha!   Love to you

> all..........ken

>

>            

> ---------------------------------

> Sell on Auctions  - No fees. Bid on great items.

>

>

[Guest guest]

Ken:

I'm fairly new here and am still trying to get to know everyone (as well

as you can through an online support group!). I appreciate the honesty

and your sincerity of your post....it brought tears to my eyes.

I wish you all the best with your new found " family " .

Thank you,

> Greetings, to all the people I have come to love so much.....YOU

ALL!!!!

> There are a lot of guys out there, but NOT many men, in

comparison: Just as there are a lot of women, but few Ladies, in

comparison.

> And, most important...it is NOT your " upbringing , or

your " childhood " that determines who yopu turn out to be, or WHAT you

turn out to be! I KNOW. And because I feel so close to many of you, I

am going to share a little known fact:(you see, I don't share this with

just anybody, so you can determine the impact it had on me)

> Both my mother and my " father " were very abusive

alcoholics!.......my " father " , well, he wasn't really my father...you see,

my mother cheated on him two years AFTER they were married, and I

was the result. It was only two years ago, in a drunken state, that

my " father " finally let it be known that the name of my REAL father

was " Garbis Crone(or krone) .He was a norwegisan sailor,who

was " seeing my mother.My grandmother, and my grandfather, AND my

mother were all Norwegian. I suffered terribly, growing up, and I see,

now, that the reason my " father " hated me so much(he STILL does,

evewn now, at HIS age) is because I was a constant reminder of the

fact that my mother stepped out on him. All thru my child hood, are

pictures in my mind of him brutely beating my mother and myself. He

put me in the hospital before I was seven, and HE is the reason I

cannot father children, whom are " drawn " to me, and whom I love!!!

> A true man can be anything he wants! IF he CARES enough!!!!! I

don't drink. And I am not abusive. I don't swear, or go to bars, or laugh

at someone else. I have respect, even for the lonliest street person. I

swore, growing up, I would NEVER grow up to be like him! And I

DIDN'T!

> Because I WANTED to!!!!!!!I could tell you horrer stories, like the

time he dumped cold water on my head, a whole pot, then hit me over

the head with it, breaking it, a Corning pot, which isn't supposed to

break, and then making me stand out in the falling down snow, ai my

pajama's......at age 7.

> I have forgiven my parents all that they did...but I will never forget.

> And THAT, dear family, is WHY I have NO patience with a

person, man or woman, who would hurt another.....including neglect,

when their spouse needs it so badly. It is ALSO, why, when I say " I love

you " , even tho " I might not have seen you, I MEANI it !!!!!!

> Well, now you know a lot more about me than most. And you

know what? If I didn't love you all, I wouldn't tell you what I have just

said!

>

> I want to thank all of you who have answered my last post. I want to

tell you that it really DID bring tears to my eyes, and really made me

feel good about myself! It made me realize again, that I am NOT

ALONE! Made me realize again, how much you all really truly care! I

thank you, more than I can write about! I love you! oh....a word about

why collecting hats is so important to me....eventually, my grandfather

and grandmother " rescued " me, and brought me to live with them. My

Grand dad was a trucker(as was I ) , and when he was gone, I would go

to the hall closet, and get one of his hats down, and bury my face in it,

when I missed him so badly, and his " scent " was IN the hat! I could

smell him, literally, and made me feel close to him! That's why I collect

hats, and to those of you who have sent me a hat, well, now you know

why you are so important to me, and why I say it means all the world to

me that you WOULD send me a hat! Truly, I loive you!

> Well, I didn't mean to go on for so long. Please forgive me....it's

just such a comfort to have you all to talk to, to " get things off my

chest " with, so to speak.You all have become the family I have needed

for so long, and I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!I pray that each and every one of

you has someone to help, and support you, be you a Lady or a Man

(Truly you ARE....NOT just " guys, and Women) haha! And,if ever I can

do something special for you, let me know.....for instance, give me a

few " details " and I will gladly write a special poem, just for YOU, or for

someone you want to send it to( not to " brag " but I'm kind of

a " wordsmith " haha)

> Well gotta go. Thank you for letting me get this off my chest.I

thank you, I love you, and I hope I haven't offended any of you! You all

mean the world to me!

> And, by the way, haha, if any of you want to send me a hat, Pat,

and Marina have my address, hahaha! Love to you all..........ken

>

>

> ---------------------------------

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>

>

[Guest guest]

Ken:

I'm fairly new here and am still trying to get to know everyone (as well

as you can through an online support group!). I appreciate the honesty

and your sincerity of your post....it brought tears to my eyes.

I wish you all the best with your new found " family " .

Thank you,

> Greetings, to all the people I have come to love so much.....YOU

ALL!!!!

> There are a lot of guys out there, but NOT many men, in

comparison: Just as there are a lot of women, but few Ladies, in

comparison.

> And, most important...it is NOT your " upbringing , or

your " childhood " that determines who yopu turn out to be, or WHAT you

turn out to be! I KNOW. And because I feel so close to many of you, I

am going to share a little known fact:(you see, I don't share this with

just anybody, so you can determine the impact it had on me)

> Both my mother and my " father " were very abusive

alcoholics!.......my " father " , well, he wasn't really my father...you see,

my mother cheated on him two years AFTER they were married, and I

was the result. It was only two years ago, in a drunken state, that

my " father " finally let it be known that the name of my REAL father

was " Garbis Crone(or krone) .He was a norwegisan sailor,who

was " seeing my mother.My grandmother, and my grandfather, AND my

mother were all Norwegian. I suffered terribly, growing up, and I see,

now, that the reason my " father " hated me so much(he STILL does,

evewn now, at HIS age) is because I was a constant reminder of the

fact that my mother stepped out on him. All thru my child hood, are

pictures in my mind of him brutely beating my mother and myself. He

put me in the hospital before I was seven, and HE is the reason I

cannot father children, whom are " drawn " to me, and whom I love!!!

> A true man can be anything he wants! IF he CARES enough!!!!! I

don't drink. And I am not abusive. I don't swear, or go to bars, or laugh

at someone else. I have respect, even for the lonliest street person. I

swore, growing up, I would NEVER grow up to be like him! And I

DIDN'T!

> Because I WANTED to!!!!!!!I could tell you horrer stories, like the

time he dumped cold water on my head, a whole pot, then hit me over

the head with it, breaking it, a Corning pot, which isn't supposed to

break, and then making me stand out in the falling down snow, ai my

pajama's......at age 7.

> I have forgiven my parents all that they did...but I will never forget.

> And THAT, dear family, is WHY I have NO patience with a

person, man or woman, who would hurt another.....including neglect,

when their spouse needs it so badly. It is ALSO, why, when I say " I love

you " , even tho " I might not have seen you, I MEANI it !!!!!!

> Well, now you know a lot more about me than most. And you

know what? If I didn't love you all, I wouldn't tell you what I have just

said!

>

> I want to thank all of you who have answered my last post. I want to

tell you that it really DID bring tears to my eyes, and really made me

feel good about myself! It made me realize again, that I am NOT

ALONE! Made me realize again, how much you all really truly care! I

thank you, more than I can write about! I love you! oh....a word about

why collecting hats is so important to me....eventually, my grandfather

and grandmother " rescued " me, and brought me to live with them. My

Grand dad was a trucker(as was I ) , and when he was gone, I would go

to the hall closet, and get one of his hats down, and bury my face in it,

when I missed him so badly, and his " scent " was IN the hat! I could

smell him, literally, and made me feel close to him! That's why I collect

hats, and to those of you who have sent me a hat, well, now you know

why you are so important to me, and why I say it means all the world to

me that you WOULD send me a hat! Truly, I loive you!

> Well, I didn't mean to go on for so long. Please forgive me....it's

just such a comfort to have you all to talk to, to " get things off my

chest " with, so to speak.You all have become the family I have needed

for so long, and I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!I pray that each and every one of

you has someone to help, and support you, be you a Lady or a Man

(Truly you ARE....NOT just " guys, and Women) haha! And,if ever I can

do something special for you, let me know.....for instance, give me a

few " details " and I will gladly write a special poem, just for YOU, or for

someone you want to send it to( not to " brag " but I'm kind of

a " wordsmith " haha)

> Well gotta go. Thank you for letting me get this off my chest.I

thank you, I love you, and I hope I haven't offended any of you! You all

mean the world to me!

> And, by the way, haha, if any of you want to send me a hat, Pat,

and Marina have my address, hahaha! Love to you all..........ken

>

>

> ---------------------------------

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>

>

[Guest guest]

i will ask for an autographed pic of peter for you and

will try to take one of myself with him What a blast

from the past huh? sure does look good for his

age.. check out his pic at www.sevenfeathers.com

i will let ya know how it turns out

Pat

--- a <a54@...> wrote:

> Pat

>

> Noone!!!! What memories. When I was a teen,

> I was in LOVE with

> Noone. I saw him on the Steel Pier in

> Atlantic City.

> My bedroom walls were covered in his posters. Then

> he got married. I

> tore all the posters down and cried for days LOL!

> Thanks for bringing back those memories.

> I used to do the lighting for a friend's band and

> can relate. Lots of

> fun and worth the pain.

> Have a great time tomorrow.

>

> a

>

>

>

> On Jul 7, 2005, at 6:10 PM, Alvarez wrote:

>

> > Dearest Ken:  Another hat will be on it's way to

> you

> > soon.........I am in the process of making it for

> > you..........or decorating it.......or

> > whatever..........I made hats to sell advertising

> > Rick's band and of course you need to have one of

> > those.............

> >

> > My computer is in the hospital as we speak.  I am

> on

> > vacation this week and on my son's computer while

> he

> > is at work,....hopefully it is only the power

> supply

> > and will be fixed and home with me soon.........I

> am

> > so lost without it...........LOL

> >

> > my friends and I are going to 7 Feathers Indian

> Casino

> > tomorrow and going to a concert tomorrow night to

> see

> > Herman's Hermits.........do you remember them??? 

> my

> > friend is friends with Noone so we are

> gonna

> > hang out with him and the band

> afterwards..........I

> > will report it all to you

> >

> > Hope you are feeling ok...........both knees are

> > killing me today as I had to stand for an

> extended

> > period last night running the video camera for

> one of

> > Rick's gigs..........was fun,...maybe I can send

> you a

> > video...........VHS or DVD???

> >

> > Love ya

> > Pat

>

> [Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

>

>

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[Guest guest]

i will ask for an autographed pic of peter for you and

will try to take one of myself with him What a blast

from the past huh? sure does look good for his

age.. check out his pic at www.sevenfeathers.com

i will let ya know how it turns out

Pat

--- a <a54@...> wrote:

> Pat

>

> Noone!!!! What memories. When I was a teen,

> I was in LOVE with

> Noone. I saw him on the Steel Pier in

> Atlantic City.

> My bedroom walls were covered in his posters. Then

> he got married. I

> tore all the posters down and cried for days LOL!

> Thanks for bringing back those memories.

> I used to do the lighting for a friend's band and

> can relate. Lots of

> fun and worth the pain.

> Have a great time tomorrow.

>

> a

>

>

>

> On Jul 7, 2005, at 6:10 PM, Alvarez wrote:

>

> > Dearest Ken:  Another hat will be on it's way to

> you

> > soon.........I am in the process of making it for

> > you..........or decorating it.......or

> > whatever..........I made hats to sell advertising

> > Rick's band and of course you need to have one of

> > those.............

> >

> > My computer is in the hospital as we speak.  I am

> on

> > vacation this week and on my son's computer while

> he

> > is at work,....hopefully it is only the power

> supply

> > and will be fixed and home with me soon.........I

> am

> > so lost without it...........LOL

> >

> > my friends and I are going to 7 Feathers Indian

> Casino

> > tomorrow and going to a concert tomorrow night to

> see

> > Herman's Hermits.........do you remember them??? 

> my

> > friend is friends with Noone so we are

> gonna

> > hang out with him and the band

> afterwards..........I

> > will report it all to you

> >

> > Hope you are feeling ok...........both knees are

> > killing me today as I had to stand for an

> extended

> > period last night running the video camera for

> one of

> > Rick's gigs..........was fun,...maybe I can send

> you a

> > video...........VHS or DVD???

> >

> > Love ya

> > Pat

>

> [Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

>

>

____________________________________________________

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[Guest guest]

Hi,

Ken, you are very brave. The choices we make are so important in the making

of who we can be.

Praying for loads & loads of blessings for you and your family.

I am so glad to have found this group and to have joined it. I read through

all the emails as at when I find time. You all are so sensitive to each

others conditions and share so much of yourselves. You all are Heros !!

God bless all of you.

Warm Regards,

Sheena

[ ] To my Family, from " Squarehead Ken " .....a little more

clarification,O.K.?

Greetings, to all the people I have come to love so much.....YOU ALL!!!!

There are a lot of guys out there, but NOT many men, in comparison: Just

as there are a lot of women, but few Ladies, in comparison.

And, most important...it is NOT your " upbringing , or your " childhood "

that determines who yopu turn out to be, or WHAT you turn out to be! I KNOW.

And because I feel so close to many of you, I am going to share a little

known fact:(you see, I don't share this with just anybody, so you can

determine the impact it had on me)

Both my mother and my " father " were very abusive alcoholics!.......my

" father " , well, he wasn't really my father...you see, my mother cheated on

him two years AFTER they were married, and I was the result. It was only two

years ago, in a drunken state, that my " father " finally let it be known that

the name of my REAL father was " Garbis Crone(or krone) .He was a norwegisan

sailor,who was " seeing my mother.My grandmother, and my grandfather, AND my

mother were all Norwegian. I suffered terribly, growing up, and I see, now,

that the reason my " father " hated me so much(he STILL does, evewn now, at

HIS age) is because I was a constant reminder of the fact that my mother

stepped out on him. All thru my child hood, are pictures in my mind of him

brutely beating my mother and myself. He put me in the hospital before I was

seven, and HE is the reason I cannot father children, whom are " drawn " to

me, and whom I love!!!!

A true man can be anything he wants! IF he CARES enough!!!!! I don't

drink. And I am not abusive. I don't swear, or go to bars, or laugh at

someone else. I have respect, even for the lonliest street person. I swore,

growing up, I would NEVER grow up to be like him! And I DIDN'T!

Because I WANTED to!!!!!!!I could tell you horrer stories, like the

time he dumped cold water on my head, a whole pot, then hit me over the head

with it, breaking it, a Corning pot, which isn't supposed to break, and then

making me stand out in the falling down snow, ai my pajama's......at age 7.

I have forgiven my parents all that they did...but I will never forget.

And THAT, dear family, is WHY I have NO patience with a person, man or

woman, who would hurt another.....including neglect, when their spouse needs

it so badly. It is ALSO, why, when I say " I love you " , even tho " I might not

have seen you, I MEANI it !!!!!!

Well, now you know a lot more about me than most. And you know what?

If I didn't love you all, I wouldn't tell you what I have just said!

I want to thank all of you who have answered my last post. I want to tell

you that it really DID bring tears to my eyes, and really made me feel good

about myself! It made me realize again, that I am NOT ALONE! Made me realize

again, how much you all really truly care! I thank you, more than I can

write about! I love you! oh....a word about why collecting hats is so

important to me....eventually, my grandfather and grandmother " rescued " me,

and brought me to live with them. My Grand dad was a trucker(as was I ) ,

and when he was gone, I would go to the hall closet, and get one of his hats

down, and bury my face in it, when I missed him so badly, and his " scent "

was IN the hat! I could smell him, literally, and made me feel close to him!

That's why I collect hats, and to those of you who have sent me a hat, well,

now you know why you are so important to me, and why I say it means all the

world to me that you WOULD send me a hat! Truly, I loive you!

Well, I didn't mean to go on for so long. Please forgive me....it's

just such a comfort to have you all to talk to, to " get things off my chest "

with, so to speak.You all have become the family I have needed for so long,

and I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!I pray that each and every one of you has someone to

help, and support you, be you a Lady or a Man(Truly you ARE....NOT just

" guys, and Women) haha! And,if ever I can do something special for you, let

me know.....for instance, give me a few " details " and I will gladly write a

special poem, just for YOU, or for someone you want to send it to( not to

" brag " but I'm kind of a " wordsmith " haha)

Well gotta go. Thank you for letting me get this off my chest.I thank

you, I love you, and I hope I haven't offended any of you! You all mean the

world to me!

And, by the way, haha, if any of you want to send me a hat, Pat, and

Marina have my address, hahaha! Love to you all..........ken

---------------------------------

Sell on Auctions - No fees. Bid on great items.

[Guest guest]

Hi,

Ken, you are very brave. The choices we make are so important in the making

of who we can be.

Praying for loads & loads of blessings for you and your family.

I am so glad to have found this group and to have joined it. I read through

all the emails as at when I find time. You all are so sensitive to each

others conditions and share so much of yourselves. You all are Heros !!

God bless all of you.

Warm Regards,

Sheena

[ ] To my Family, from " Squarehead Ken " .....a little more

clarification,O.K.?

Greetings, to all the people I have come to love so much.....YOU ALL!!!!

There are a lot of guys out there, but NOT many men, in comparison: Just

as there are a lot of women, but few Ladies, in comparison.

And, most important...it is NOT your " upbringing , or your " childhood "

that determines who yopu turn out to be, or WHAT you turn out to be! I KNOW.

And because I feel so close to many of you, I am going to share a little

known fact:(you see, I don't share this with just anybody, so you can

determine the impact it had on me)

Both my mother and my " father " were very abusive alcoholics!.......my

" father " , well, he wasn't really my father...you see, my mother cheated on

him two years AFTER they were married, and I was the result. It was only two

years ago, in a drunken state, that my " father " finally let it be known that

the name of my REAL father was " Garbis Crone(or krone) .He was a norwegisan

sailor,who was " seeing my mother.My grandmother, and my grandfather, AND my

mother were all Norwegian. I suffered terribly, growing up, and I see, now,

that the reason my " father " hated me so much(he STILL does, evewn now, at

HIS age) is because I was a constant reminder of the fact that my mother

stepped out on him. All thru my child hood, are pictures in my mind of him

brutely beating my mother and myself. He put me in the hospital before I was

seven, and HE is the reason I cannot father children, whom are " drawn " to

me, and whom I love!!!!

A true man can be anything he wants! IF he CARES enough!!!!! I don't

drink. And I am not abusive. I don't swear, or go to bars, or laugh at

someone else. I have respect, even for the lonliest street person. I swore,

growing up, I would NEVER grow up to be like him! And I DIDN'T!

Because I WANTED to!!!!!!!I could tell you horrer stories, like the

time he dumped cold water on my head, a whole pot, then hit me over the head

with it, breaking it, a Corning pot, which isn't supposed to break, and then

making me stand out in the falling down snow, ai my pajama's......at age 7.

I have forgiven my parents all that they did...but I will never forget.

And THAT, dear family, is WHY I have NO patience with a person, man or

woman, who would hurt another.....including neglect, when their spouse needs

it so badly. It is ALSO, why, when I say " I love you " , even tho " I might not

have seen you, I MEANI it !!!!!!

Well, now you know a lot more about me than most. And you know what?

If I didn't love you all, I wouldn't tell you what I have just said!

I want to thank all of you who have answered my last post. I want to tell

you that it really DID bring tears to my eyes, and really made me feel good

about myself! It made me realize again, that I am NOT ALONE! Made me realize

again, how much you all really truly care! I thank you, more than I can

write about! I love you! oh....a word about why collecting hats is so

important to me....eventually, my grandfather and grandmother " rescued " me,

and brought me to live with them. My Grand dad was a trucker(as was I ) ,

and when he was gone, I would go to the hall closet, and get one of his hats

down, and bury my face in it, when I missed him so badly, and his " scent "

was IN the hat! I could smell him, literally, and made me feel close to him!

That's why I collect hats, and to those of you who have sent me a hat, well,

now you know why you are so important to me, and why I say it means all the

world to me that you WOULD send me a hat! Truly, I loive you!

Well, I didn't mean to go on for so long. Please forgive me....it's

just such a comfort to have you all to talk to, to " get things off my chest "

with, so to speak.You all have become the family I have needed for so long,

and I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!I pray that each and every one of you has someone to

help, and support you, be you a Lady or a Man(Truly you ARE....NOT just

" guys, and Women) haha! And,if ever I can do something special for you, let

me know.....for instance, give me a few " details " and I will gladly write a

special poem, just for YOU, or for someone you want to send it to( not to

" brag " but I'm kind of a " wordsmith " haha)

Well gotta go. Thank you for letting me get this off my chest.I thank

you, I love you, and I hope I haven't offended any of you! You all mean the

world to me!

And, by the way, haha, if any of you want to send me a hat, Pat, and

Marina have my address, hahaha! Love to you all..........ken

---------------------------------

Sell on Auctions - No fees. Bid on great items.

[Guest guest]

You're so sweet! He's STILL a hunk! I'm cyber swooning over here LOL!

I didn't realize he was still performing. Do they have new material?

a

On Jul 8, 2005, at 1:47 AM, Alvarez wrote:

> i will ask for an autographed pic of peter for you and

> will try to take one of myself with him  What a blast

> from the past huh?  sure does look good for his

> age..  check out his pic at www.sevenfeathers.com

>

> i will let ya know how it turns out

>

> Pat

[Guest guest]

You're so sweet! He's STILL a hunk! I'm cyber swooning over here LOL!

I didn't realize he was still performing. Do they have new material?

a

On Jul 8, 2005, at 1:47 AM, Alvarez wrote:

> i will ask for an autographed pic of peter for you and

> will try to take one of myself with him  What a blast

> from the past huh?  sure does look good for his

> age..  check out his pic at www.sevenfeathers.com

>

> i will let ya know how it turns out

>

> Pat