Re: Going to the rheumatologist tomorrow, feeling excited and scared...

January 1, 2007

Penny, I know how you feel. One week before my daughter graduated and I was

going to quit my job driving her school bus to take of her. is when I broke my

back. Actually for the 2nd time. I was able to keep going with the first but

with them both and a ruptured disc it is almost more than I can handle at time.

in the last 7 months my activity level has gone from very active to doing what I

can. Which most of the time consist of caring for my daughter she is first

priority by all means. My parents were really looking forward to Beth and me

being feel and being able to spend more time with them and they only live about

2 miles from me. but there are days I do good to get up. and that is because the

bed hurts me so bad. Like you I try not to talk about my back and pain to my

family. I know they get tired of hearing it. And it really worries my parents as

they have already lost one child. And that is another topic. I am now a only

child. With the shape I am in now how on earth will I be able to care for my

parents when the time comes. Daddy is 71 and Mama 66 and in not real good

health. they have both went down tremendously since my brother passed away.

Which I can't imagine what they are going through.

So, when you posted did you expect me to write you a book.

I am suppose to go in one day this week to see my PM Dr.....

Because Like you I want to know why I keep going down hill.

Happy New Year

Jena

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Going to the rheumatologist tomorrow, feeling excited

and scared...

Hi!

I have an appointment with a rheumalogist tomorrow and I have not

been to one since my diagnosis in 2000. I have just been going to a

general practioner for the past 6 years and since my symptoms have

worsened, I asked for a referral and tomorrow I am going. I am

scared and I do not know why. I suspect that I have more than

fibromyalgia going on and I would welcome a diagnosis, but I am also

afraid of it.

My mom has and her dad had rheumatoid arthritis, and she thinks she

can see changes in my hands. I have noticed more pain in my feet,

ankles, hips, elbows, wrists and hands and I am angry and afraid

because of the pain. I guess part of me always thought that I would

get better, or at least stay the same, and I think it is unfair,

after working so hard all these years, that I have this now. I feel

alone in my painful body and even though I know that I am more

mobile than many on this site, my pain levels are starting to

concern me.

I am having to limit my activities more and more and I do not like

to do that. I try to be a good sport most days, but today is not

one of those days. Thanks for reading my vent and making me not feel

so all alone. Penny

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January 4, 2007

lately I have felt much older.

I go to see my PM Dr. today. Say a prayer that he can come up with a different

treatment plan for me.