How Do You Keep Positive?

[Guest guest]

I struggled with posting this.

I typed this out several times over the past couple of days, but just

couldn't get myself to hit the " send " button.

There are MANY people here who are happy, optimistic and seem very

well adjusted about what they are dealing with. I am newly diagnosed,

and still haven't found the right med combo yet, so suffer daily with

accute pain and limited mobility. There are still many days that I spend

22/24 hours in bed sleeping or unable to move.

I could list all the negatives, like how I've lost my job (and only source

of income) of ten years, and how I struggle to pay for my meds

monthly. But I know that there are so many others out there who are in

a much worse situation than myself.

I guess it's because I am still new to all of this. Maybe I am still in the

mourning period where I long for the way my life used to be? I am not

normally a negative person. I am a realist, but overall....normally very

positive. I hate this feeling of helplessness over this damn disease. I

know that I will find the right med combo and it will make all the

difference, but until then....I am playing the waiting game.

Not feeling sorry for myself.....just feeling helpless.

Thanks for reading...