a different perspective to AF

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Hi, all.

Over the past few days it occurs to me that I have come on very

strong about my perception that the medical establishment is less than

dedicated when it comes to treating AF patients. I have to admit that

I am basing that more on a presumption than practical experience, for

I have not at all exhausted the options that the cardiologists'

profession would have for me. I have so far tried to defeat this thing

almost on my own, by learning everything I could about it, and just

when I think I'm getting to Square TWO, I'm looking a new situation in

the face. Really a downer for me this A.M was the failure of " the

cure " ! The fact that some four hours after that failed effort, not a

waste, mind you, after about 28 hours, AF left quietly all on its own

while busy in my office shows its unpredictability. No wonder the

cardiologists are mystified! I guess they do the best they can, under

the extreme pressure. I have an appointment on Feb. 12 - I can be

chronic by then, maybe even on the wrong side of the grass...

My backtracking on the negative opinions I've been

spewing, is related to the fact that I HAVE found a postive side to

AF. What else is there that can so drive home the fact that we are NOT

INVINCIBLE, and, like it or not, must face our mortality. The heart,

above all organs, is most identified with life. A shaky beat, the

shortness of breath, the weakness, the unease, these so very clearly

demonstrate how dependent we are on everything working together in the

incredibly intricate, wonderful, astonishing, creations that are our

bodies!

Many times since I have had this condition - nearly 2 years - I have

been so very grateful that I have drawn closer to God through it - my

Christianity has gone from principle to practice. It is in that

connection that I felt an urgency to do the backtracking. I apologize

for my harsh, judgemental statements with respect to those who try to

find solutions for our AF.

I am prepared, even comfortable, about what comes when the heart

gives up altogether, which may come sooner than I had planned. Instead

of fear and trembling, I am totally at ease about the final curtain

coming down, because I know it is not really the final curtain. I have

had a marvelous opportunity to get down to the important questions,

and can never complain that I wasn't warned. We AF'ers above all

people can consider ourselves to have had our eyes opened to the

shortness and sweetness of life... So we get our AF fixed? But it

still does end for us all!

Meanwhile, I'll NOT give up on the " cure " !

Have a great Christmas, everyone! Yes, think " Thub-doop, thub-doop

thub-doop.....

Lawrence