Re: Barefoottg Still new in here

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Hi Barefoottg,

Nice to hear from you again! The computer is kind of my life-line as well. I

don't drive any more either, but do have my sister who comes and sees me almost

daily. She is also the one who takes me to dr's appt's when Danny can't, which

is most of the time. I'm so blessed to have her.

Why or how would your 2 grown children put you in an early grave? Children can

make things stressful, but we are oh so blessed to have them. My boys can be

very stressful, but not after they leave home. lol I have a 20 yr old and a 15

yr old. Teen years bring about the monster in them. We all have it, our time has

just passed. I know my mom said the same things about me when I was a teen.

Although what we experience with each of them is different and some things more

of a challenge then others, the are still ours and we still love them with all

our hearts. Can you imagine what you'd do if something were to happen to take

one of those precious creatures from your life permanently? Oh gosh, Bare, I

can't even imagine and don't want to. They'd have to put me away because I

wouldn't be worth anything to anyone, not even myself. I know I've told ,

my 15 yr old that he will cause me to have a heart attack or stroke and I told

my 20 yr old the same thing when he was a teen, but you know what?, lol Neither

of them have. It just feels that way sometimes and I have apologized to both of

them for even saying it. A friend of mine has a quote in her signature in email,

it reads " life is a drawing in which you have no eraser " . Gosh that just stood

out and screamed at me. How true! We can never erase things we do, damage we

cause to others, ourselves, we just can't. Ok, enough of my preaching, lol I

think you know how I feel about my children now! I love the lil monsters!! And

wish they were still baby's. Oh one more thing, no one told us about the

" terrible teens " only the terrible two's that are a piece of cake. If we were

told everything, we'd be extinct for sure! Lol

Everything happens for a reason Bare, and you are right, maybe it is your time

to deal with past issues. Every layer has been removed that was once used to

bypass it all. I'm here for you as you walk down that path. It's a hard one, I

won't lie. I've done it. It takes a long time depending on the past you have. It

took me 12 yrs. But I'm free! And that makes it all worth it. Things do get

better, keep your chin up and keep smiling! Your self esteem will increase as

time goes on, just wait and watch, it's amazing when you see the transformation.

Big hugs,

~Tommie

Still new in here

Hello to everyone, I saw Marti's message and I too have just

been " lurking " in here since I joined. I would like to re-introduce

myself. I have multiple pain issues but I don't want to waste space

going back over it a second time. I love drawing, photography,

helping others, being on my computer(my life-line)to the outside

world. I am in my mid-fifties(that's all I will say 'bout that). I

have 2 grown children who will probably put me in an early grave. I

also have two grand daughters. Hmm I guess now that I think about it

there isn't any family on my side to speak of. I walked out of their

lives when I was quite young to get away and try to survive allot of

abuse issues. My hubby's family have all passed away except for his

sister, so we basically just have eachother. His Sis, our kids, and

grand daughters all live out of state. You know how traveling can be

when you are in pain as well as the expense so I don't see them much.

Anyway I know I need to be involved in " something " . Can't drive

anymore, and walking is out, and the friends I did have seemed to

drift away one by one when I have to keep saying " no " sorry I can't

do that anymore. After I quit mourning my old active life of taking

care of everybody else's needs, this is who I am left with. Don't

know if I like her(me)too much. My hubby says I have kept myself busy

to avoid dealing with my feelings about my family. Maybe he is right,

because now being alone with myself I tend to go back to those times

more often in my thoughts. One thing I do know since " lurking " around

is that this group has a whole lot of wonderful caring sweet people

in it. I hope I can be like you guys. I have a very low self-esteem

and I have started several posts before but then didn't send them.

They some how sound stupid when I read over one before I send it, so

I just cancel it. Welp that's me. I hope I can fit in somewhere.

A late Merry Christmas to you all. Hugs, barefoottg