I am feeling better today, I gave myself the gift of a long night's sleep....

[Guest guest]

Good morning,

I think I was just so tired yesterday from working so many days

and the minor stress of Christmas. My Christmas was pretty simple,

but I always seem to worry that people will not like the gifts that

I give them. Of course, my modest gifts are fine, but I come from a

line of worriers and I have to just not do it.

I have had a lot of stress this year and I am still dealing with

my mom saying, " You did nothing wrong, but you and your family can

not stay with me because I am afraid that I will have a stroke and

die. " Her mom died from a stroke at 61 years of age and my mom

always thinks that she will drop over from a stroke at Christmas

time. I was quite offended as it is hard to hear that your mom

thinks your mere presence will kill her. My mom is bipolar and you

never know what she will say. She also reads a lot into stuff and

will make a problem when there is not one. I have to catch myself

from doing the same thing all the time.

I have had thirteen years of therapy and I can understand my

family better, but it is still hard to break those old patterns.

Thanks for reading my concerns. Gentle Hugs to all, Penny