Guest guest Posted April 21, 2005 Report Share Posted April 21, 2005 DEAR KEN, I MEANT EVERY WORD I SAID TOO. I HAVE BEEN WHERE YOU ARE BEFORE, MANY TIMES. IF IT WERE NOT FOR THE SIMPLE WORDS FROM A CARING PERSON, I WOULD NOT HAVE HAD THE INNER-STRENGTH OR COURAGE OR EVEN CARED AFTER AWHILE, TO TRY AND GET THROUGH SOME OF MY ORDEALS. WE ARE NOT ONLY FACE WITH CHRONIC PAIN, AND FLARES. WE HAVE TO LIVE WITH THEM SILENTLY, UNLESS WE ARE BLESSED WITH A GOOD FRIEND LIKE US. YOU CAN NOT TALK THE WAY YOU AND I ARE WITH SOMEONE HEALTHY, THEY LOOK AT YOU AND MURMUR WORDS OF, I AM SO SORRY BLAH BLAH, THEY HAVE NO IDEA OF WHAT WE ARE SPEAKING OF. MOST OF THEM DO NOT CARE, AFTER HEARING IT ONE TIME, THAT IS ENOUGH. WELL, IT IS NOT ENOUGH FOR US. WE LIVE THIS EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY. WE NEED THOSE WORDS TO HELP US. KEN, YOU NEED, JUST LIKE I DO, TO HEAR THE SIMPLE WORDS, I DO CARE ABOUT YOU KEN, I KNOW YOU HURT, I KNOW YOUR PAIN IS MOSTLY FRUSTRATION AT YOURSELF. YOU CAN AT TIMES TURN THAT HATRED FOR YOUR CONDITION INWARD TO YOURSELF AND HATE YOURSELF IN YOUR WORST, DARKEST HOURS. I KNOW THAT YOU FEEL GUILT FOR THE WAY YOU ARE. IT IS VERY VERY HARD. THAT IS WHY I TELL YOU, THAT I CARE HOW YOU FEEL, AND I KNOW WHAT YOU FEEL. YOU WILL GET OVER THIS FLARE, BUT ANOTHER WILL COME ONE DAY. IN THE MEAN TIME, I WOULD ENJOY GETTING TO KNOW YOU BETTER, WHERE YOU LIVE ETC... ANYTIME YOU WISH TO WRITE ME OFF GROUP JUST ASK FOR MY ADDRESS AND I WILL GIVE IT TO YOU, I AM ONLINE AND OFF LINE ALOT DURING THE DAY, AS I AM TOTALLY DISABLED NOW. SO, RELAX, GIVE YOUR BODY TIME TO GET WELL, AND IN THAT TIME, KNOW THAT I AM OUT HERE, ROOTING FOR YOU ! CINDI Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 21, 2005 Report Share Posted April 21, 2005 DEAR KEN, I MEANT EVERY WORD I SAID TOO. I HAVE BEEN WHERE YOU ARE BEFORE, MANY TIMES. IF IT WERE NOT FOR THE SIMPLE WORDS FROM A CARING PERSON, I WOULD NOT HAVE HAD THE INNER-STRENGTH OR COURAGE OR EVEN CARED AFTER AWHILE, TO TRY AND GET THROUGH SOME OF MY ORDEALS. WE ARE NOT ONLY FACE WITH CHRONIC PAIN, AND FLARES. WE HAVE TO LIVE WITH THEM SILENTLY, UNLESS WE ARE BLESSED WITH A GOOD FRIEND LIKE US. YOU CAN NOT TALK THE WAY YOU AND I ARE WITH SOMEONE HEALTHY, THEY LOOK AT YOU AND MURMUR WORDS OF, I AM SO SORRY BLAH BLAH, THEY HAVE NO IDEA OF WHAT WE ARE SPEAKING OF. MOST OF THEM DO NOT CARE, AFTER HEARING IT ONE TIME, THAT IS ENOUGH. WELL, IT IS NOT ENOUGH FOR US. WE LIVE THIS EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY. WE NEED THOSE WORDS TO HELP US. KEN, YOU NEED, JUST LIKE I DO, TO HEAR THE SIMPLE WORDS, I DO CARE ABOUT YOU KEN, I KNOW YOU HURT, I KNOW YOUR PAIN IS MOSTLY FRUSTRATION AT YOURSELF. YOU CAN AT TIMES TURN THAT HATRED FOR YOUR CONDITION INWARD TO YOURSELF AND HATE YOURSELF IN YOUR WORST, DARKEST HOURS. I KNOW THAT YOU FEEL GUILT FOR THE WAY YOU ARE. IT IS VERY VERY HARD. THAT IS WHY I TELL YOU, THAT I CARE HOW YOU FEEL, AND I KNOW WHAT YOU FEEL. YOU WILL GET OVER THIS FLARE, BUT ANOTHER WILL COME ONE DAY. IN THE MEAN TIME, I WOULD ENJOY GETTING TO KNOW YOU BETTER, WHERE YOU LIVE ETC... ANYTIME YOU WISH TO WRITE ME OFF GROUP JUST ASK FOR MY ADDRESS AND I WILL GIVE IT TO YOU, I AM ONLINE AND OFF LINE ALOT DURING THE DAY, AS I AM TOTALLY DISABLED NOW. SO, RELAX, GIVE YOUR BODY TIME TO GET WELL, AND IN THAT TIME, KNOW THAT I AM OUT HERE, ROOTING FOR YOU ! CINDI Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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