Guest guest Posted April 16, 2005 Report Share Posted April 16, 2005 I don’t post very often, but I am a loyal reader. You all teach me so much every single day, some days I would be lost without reading this list. I just want to say, I hurt today! I am mad that the Rheumy wants me off of prednisone. I understand why she does, but I am still mad! I am mad! I am mad! I needed to share it with people who understand and won’t judge me. And I hurt, darn it. I am down to 1½ mg and I am proud of myself but I hurt. And I am tired of complaining. Yes, complaining. Sometimes, I feel like everyone around me wants me to say I am good, so I say I am ok. I am not ok, darn it…I hurt, but you don’t understand what it feels like to hurt like I hurt. I feel selfish that I can’t be like I once was, but I can’t change now or I would. I hurt; did anybody hear me say I hurt…? No, nobody knows how bad I hurt because I don’t complain out loud anymore because I am tired dealing with you worrying about me hurting. I am frustrated, I hurt, I am mad and I understand in this group I am NOT ALONE. Thanks for listening. God Bless & Goodnight. Take care, Peggy “The only difference between a weed and a flower is judgment " - Author Unknown Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 16, 2005 Report Share Posted April 16, 2005 I don’t post very often, but I am a loyal reader. You all teach me so much every single day, some days I would be lost without reading this list. I just want to say, I hurt today! I am mad that the Rheumy wants me off of prednisone. I understand why she does, but I am still mad! I am mad! I am mad! I needed to share it with people who understand and won’t judge me. And I hurt, darn it. I am down to 1½ mg and I am proud of myself but I hurt. And I am tired of complaining. Yes, complaining. Sometimes, I feel like everyone around me wants me to say I am good, so I say I am ok. I am not ok, darn it…I hurt, but you don’t understand what it feels like to hurt like I hurt. I feel selfish that I can’t be like I once was, but I can’t change now or I would. I hurt; did anybody hear me say I hurt…? No, nobody knows how bad I hurt because I don’t complain out loud anymore because I am tired dealing with you worrying about me hurting. I am frustrated, I hurt, I am mad and I understand in this group I am NOT ALONE. Thanks for listening. God Bless & Goodnight. Take care, Peggy “The only difference between a weed and a flower is judgment " - Author Unknown Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 In a message dated 4/17/2005 6:39:34 AM Central Standard Time, itsmepeggyb@... writes: No, nobody knows how bad I hurt because I don’t complain out loud anymore because I am tired dealing with you worrying about me hurting. Peggy, I'm at this point too. When people ask me how I am, " ok " is my favorite answer. I don't like to complain either-- (on this list, complain all you want:) I quickly change the subject, even with my husband, who worries to no end. What a strange cycle that creates. I end up taking care of him and his worrying about me. There are times I choose to fill him in truthfully, but I am trying to break the cycle we've gotten into-- he asks me how I am first thing in the morning. I don't want to start his day off badly, because mornings are always a bad time for me, so I say " ok " and give him a hug and bring him a cup of coffee, and immediately ask what he'll be doing today! I hope today is a better day for you! Kirsten, MN Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 In a message dated 4/17/2005 6:39:34 AM Central Standard Time, itsmepeggyb@... writes: No, nobody knows how bad I hurt because I don’t complain out loud anymore because I am tired dealing with you worrying about me hurting. Peggy, I'm at this point too. When people ask me how I am, " ok " is my favorite answer. I don't like to complain either-- (on this list, complain all you want:) I quickly change the subject, even with my husband, who worries to no end. What a strange cycle that creates. I end up taking care of him and his worrying about me. There are times I choose to fill him in truthfully, but I am trying to break the cycle we've gotten into-- he asks me how I am first thing in the morning. I don't want to start his day off badly, because mornings are always a bad time for me, so I say " ok " and give him a hug and bring him a cup of coffee, and immediately ask what he'll be doing today! I hope today is a better day for you! Kirsten, MN Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 ----- Original Message ----- From: Peggy Brecheisen > I just want to say, I hurt today! I am mad that the Rheumy wants me off of prednisone. I understand why she does, but I am still mad! I am mad! I am mad! I needed to share it with people who understand and won't judge me. I understand the side effects of prednisone, being on it myself, but when I'm in a lot of pain, my rheumy increases the dose. I'm sorry you're hurting! Nina Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 ----- Original Message ----- From: Peggy Brecheisen > I just want to say, I hurt today! I am mad that the Rheumy wants me off of prednisone. I understand why she does, but I am still mad! I am mad! I am mad! I needed to share it with people who understand and won't judge me. I understand the side effects of prednisone, being on it myself, but when I'm in a lot of pain, my rheumy increases the dose. I'm sorry you're hurting! Nina Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 Hi Peggy, After reading your email I could of erased your name and signed mine and sent it off. You feel like I have been feeling these past two weeks. I have no family around me(wish I did) but do have a supportive husband. I can be crying in pain and he will still find a way to make me laugh. For me laughter is sometimes the key. But then there are days that it hurts to laugh. I guess for my state of mind it is great. This is a wonderful group, I only joined yesterday but am excited about hearing from people who really do understand my, hurt and frustrations. I hope that you soon feel some relief. I am taking oxycocet for my pain and it really do work for me. Well it makes me not really care about the pain. I do just want to be painfree, I want to go for walks, exercise, do normal things. I am sure I will and soon. Please keep in touch. Gentle hugs, Corinne Peggy Brecheisen wrote: > > I don't post very often, but I am a loyal reader. You all teach me so > much every single day, some days I would be lost without reading this > list. > > > I just want to say, I hurt today! I am mad that the Rheumy wants me off > of prednisone. I understand why she does, but I am still mad! I am > mad! I am mad! I needed to share it with people who understand and > won't judge me. > > And I hurt, darn it. I am down to 1½ mg and I am proud of myself but I > hurt. > > And I am tired of complaining. Yes, complaining. Sometimes, I feel > like everyone around me wants me to say I am good, so I say I am ok. I > am not ok, darn it...I hurt, but you don't understand what it feels like > to hurt like I hurt. > > I feel selfish that I can't be like I once was, but I can't change now > or I would. I hurt; did anybody hear me say I hurt...? No, nobody knows > how bad I hurt because I don't complain out loud anymore because I am > tired dealing with you worrying about me hurting. > > I am frustrated, I hurt, I am mad and I understand in this group I am > NOT ALONE. > > Thanks for listening. God Bless & Goodnight. > > Take care, Peggy > > > " The only difference between a weed and a flower is judgment " > - Author Unknown > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 Hi Peggy, After reading your email I could of erased your name and signed mine and sent it off. You feel like I have been feeling these past two weeks. I have no family around me(wish I did) but do have a supportive husband. I can be crying in pain and he will still find a way to make me laugh. For me laughter is sometimes the key. But then there are days that it hurts to laugh. I guess for my state of mind it is great. This is a wonderful group, I only joined yesterday but am excited about hearing from people who really do understand my, hurt and frustrations. I hope that you soon feel some relief. I am taking oxycocet for my pain and it really do work for me. Well it makes me not really care about the pain. I do just want to be painfree, I want to go for walks, exercise, do normal things. I am sure I will and soon. Please keep in touch. Gentle hugs, Corinne Peggy Brecheisen wrote: > > I don't post very often, but I am a loyal reader. You all teach me so > much every single day, some days I would be lost without reading this > list. > > > I just want to say, I hurt today! I am mad that the Rheumy wants me off > of prednisone. I understand why she does, but I am still mad! I am > mad! I am mad! I needed to share it with people who understand and > won't judge me. > > And I hurt, darn it. I am down to 1½ mg and I am proud of myself but I > hurt. > > And I am tired of complaining. Yes, complaining. Sometimes, I feel > like everyone around me wants me to say I am good, so I say I am ok. I > am not ok, darn it...I hurt, but you don't understand what it feels like > to hurt like I hurt. > > I feel selfish that I can't be like I once was, but I can't change now > or I would. I hurt; did anybody hear me say I hurt...? No, nobody knows > how bad I hurt because I don't complain out loud anymore because I am > tired dealing with you worrying about me hurting. > > I am frustrated, I hurt, I am mad and I understand in this group I am > NOT ALONE. > > Thanks for listening. God Bless & Goodnight. > > Take care, Peggy > > > " The only difference between a weed and a flower is judgment " > - Author Unknown > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 In a message dated 4/17/2005 7:21:02 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time, Peggy writes: I am frustrated, I hurt, I am mad and I understand in this group I am NOT ALONE. Peggy ... I am so sorry for how you are feeling and I soooooooooo " get " exactly how you feel!!! Take good care of you! Love and Prayers, Beth ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* RA, or any other health challenge, is NOT a show-stopper!!! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 In a message dated 4/17/2005 7:21:02 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time, Peggy writes: I am frustrated, I hurt, I am mad and I understand in this group I am NOT ALONE. Peggy ... I am so sorry for how you are feeling and I soooooooooo " get " exactly how you feel!!! Take good care of you! Love and Prayers, Beth ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* RA, or any other health challenge, is NOT a show-stopper!!! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 Thanks, I really needed hearing that! " The only difference between a weed and a flower is judgment " - Author Unknown Re: [ ] Pain & Complaining In a message dated 4/17/2005 6:39:34 AM Central Standard Time, itsmepeggyb@... writes: No, nobody knows how bad I hurt because I don't complain out loud anymore because I am tired dealing with you worrying about me hurting. Peggy, I'm at this point too. When people ask me how I am, " ok " is my favorite answer. I don't like to complain either-- (on this list, complain all you want:) I quickly change the subject, even with my husband, who worries to no end. What a strange cycle that creates. I end up taking care of him and his worrying about me. There are times I choose to fill him in truthfully, but I am trying to break the cycle we've gotten into-- he asks me how I am first thing in the morning. I don't want to start his day off badly, because mornings are always a bad time for me, so I say " ok " and give him a hug and bring him a cup of coffee, and immediately ask what he'll be doing today! I hope today is a better day for you! Kirsten, MN Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 Thanks, I really needed hearing that! " The only difference between a weed and a flower is judgment " - Author Unknown Re: [ ] Pain & Complaining In a message dated 4/17/2005 6:39:34 AM Central Standard Time, itsmepeggyb@... writes: No, nobody knows how bad I hurt because I don't complain out loud anymore because I am tired dealing with you worrying about me hurting. Peggy, I'm at this point too. When people ask me how I am, " ok " is my favorite answer. I don't like to complain either-- (on this list, complain all you want:) I quickly change the subject, even with my husband, who worries to no end. What a strange cycle that creates. I end up taking care of him and his worrying about me. There are times I choose to fill him in truthfully, but I am trying to break the cycle we've gotten into-- he asks me how I am first thing in the morning. I don't want to start his day off badly, because mornings are always a bad time for me, so I say " ok " and give him a hug and bring him a cup of coffee, and immediately ask what he'll be doing today! I hope today is a better day for you! Kirsten, MN Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 Thanks Nina. I appreciate your concern. Hugs, Peggy " The only difference between a weed and a flower is judgment " - Author Unknown Re: [ ] Pain & Complaining ----- Original Message ----- From: Peggy Brecheisen > I just want to say, I hurt today! I am mad that the Rheumy wants me off of prednisone. I understand why she does, but I am still mad! I am mad! I am mad! I needed to share it with people who understand and won't judge me. I understand the side effects of prednisone, being on it myself, but when I'm in a lot of pain, my rheumy increases the dose. I'm sorry you're hurting! Nina Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 Thanks Nina. I appreciate your concern. Hugs, Peggy " The only difference between a weed and a flower is judgment " - Author Unknown Re: [ ] Pain & Complaining ----- Original Message ----- From: Peggy Brecheisen > I just want to say, I hurt today! I am mad that the Rheumy wants me off of prednisone. I understand why she does, but I am still mad! I am mad! I am mad! I needed to share it with people who understand and won't judge me. I understand the side effects of prednisone, being on it myself, but when I'm in a lot of pain, my rheumy increases the dose. I'm sorry you're hurting! Nina Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 Thanks Corinne. I usually lurk, but feel the intense need to come out of my shell. Share myself and listen more intensely to others…I want to be a more active member of this wonderful support group. Hugs, Peggy “The only difference between a weed and a flower is judgment " - Author Unknown Re: [ ] Pain & Complaining Hi Peggy, After reading your email I could of erased your name and signed mine and sent it off. You feel like I have been feeling these past two weeks. I have no family around me(wish I did) but do have a supportive husband. I can be crying in pain and he will still find a way to make me laugh. For me laughter is sometimes the key. But then there are days that it hurts to laugh. I guess for my state of mind it is great. This is a wonderful group, I only joined yesterday but am excited about hearing from people who really do understand my, hurt and frustrations. I hope that you soon feel some relief. I am taking oxycocet for my pain and it really do work for me. Well it makes me not really care about the pain. I do just want to be painfree, I want to go for walks, exercise, do normal things. I am sure I will and soon. Please keep in touch. Gentle hugs, Corinne Peggy Brecheisen wrote: > > I don't post very often, but I am a loyal reader. You all teach me so > much every single day, some days I would be lost without reading this > list. > > > I just want to say, I hurt today! I am mad that the Rheumy wants me off > of prednisone. I understand why she does, but I am still mad! I am > mad! I am mad! I needed to share it with people who understand and > won't judge me. > > And I hurt, darn it. I am down to 1½ mg and I am proud of myself but I > hurt. > > And I am tired of complaining. Yes, complaining. Sometimes, I feel > like everyone around me wants me to say I am good, so I say I am ok. I > am not ok, darn it...I hurt, but you don't understand what it feels like > to hurt like I hurt. > > I feel selfish that I can't be like I once was, but I can't change now > or I would. I hurt; did anybody hear me say I hurt...? No, nobody knows > how bad I hurt because I don't complain out loud anymore because I am > tired dealing with you worrying about me hurting. > > I am frustrated, I hurt, I am mad and I understand in this group I am > NOT ALONE. > > Thanks for listening. God Bless & Goodnight. > > Take care, Peggy > > > " The only difference between a weed and a flower is judgment " > - Author Unknown > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 Thanks Corinne. I usually lurk, but feel the intense need to come out of my shell. Share myself and listen more intensely to others…I want to be a more active member of this wonderful support group. Hugs, Peggy “The only difference between a weed and a flower is judgment " - Author Unknown Re: [ ] Pain & Complaining Hi Peggy, After reading your email I could of erased your name and signed mine and sent it off. You feel like I have been feeling these past two weeks. I have no family around me(wish I did) but do have a supportive husband. I can be crying in pain and he will still find a way to make me laugh. For me laughter is sometimes the key. But then there are days that it hurts to laugh. I guess for my state of mind it is great. This is a wonderful group, I only joined yesterday but am excited about hearing from people who really do understand my, hurt and frustrations. I hope that you soon feel some relief. I am taking oxycocet for my pain and it really do work for me. Well it makes me not really care about the pain. I do just want to be painfree, I want to go for walks, exercise, do normal things. I am sure I will and soon. Please keep in touch. Gentle hugs, Corinne Peggy Brecheisen wrote: > > I don't post very often, but I am a loyal reader. You all teach me so > much every single day, some days I would be lost without reading this > list. > > > I just want to say, I hurt today! I am mad that the Rheumy wants me off > of prednisone. I understand why she does, but I am still mad! I am > mad! I am mad! I needed to share it with people who understand and > won't judge me. > > And I hurt, darn it. I am down to 1½ mg and I am proud of myself but I > hurt. > > And I am tired of complaining. Yes, complaining. Sometimes, I feel > like everyone around me wants me to say I am good, so I say I am ok. I > am not ok, darn it...I hurt, but you don't understand what it feels like > to hurt like I hurt. > > I feel selfish that I can't be like I once was, but I can't change now > or I would. I hurt; did anybody hear me say I hurt...? No, nobody knows > how bad I hurt because I don't complain out loud anymore because I am > tired dealing with you worrying about me hurting. > > I am frustrated, I hurt, I am mad and I understand in this group I am > NOT ALONE. > > Thanks for listening. God Bless & Goodnight. > > Take care, Peggy > > > " The only difference between a weed and a flower is judgment " > - Author Unknown > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 Thanks! " The only difference between a weed and a flower is judgment " - Author Unknown [ ] Re: Pain & Complaining In a message dated 4/17/2005 7:21:02 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time, Peggy writes: I am frustrated, I hurt, I am mad and I understand in this group I am NOT ALONE. Peggy ... I am so sorry for how you are feeling and I soooooooooo " get " exactly how you feel!!! Take good care of you! Love and Prayers, Beth ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* RA, or any other health challenge, is NOT a show-stopper!!! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2005 Report Share Posted April 17, 2005 Thanks! " The only difference between a weed and a flower is judgment " - Author Unknown [ ] Re: Pain & Complaining In a message dated 4/17/2005 7:21:02 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time, Peggy writes: I am frustrated, I hurt, I am mad and I understand in this group I am NOT ALONE. Peggy ... I am so sorry for how you are feeling and I soooooooooo " get " exactly how you feel!!! Take good care of you! Love and Prayers, Beth ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* RA, or any other health challenge, is NOT a show-stopper!!! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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