no girl ever wants me

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1.is that true?

yes it is

2.can you absolutly know that it is true?

no (god dammit)

3.how do you react to this thought?

i hate myself, i go down on myself, i view myself as the rejected

guy, i feel very insecure, i imagen how must girls view me for them

to turn their backs that quickly to me, im conflicted to the one i

see in the mirror, which is a good looking and attractive guy, and

the respons's i get, i try to explain this to myself.. and think that

im probebly not any girl's taste.

i feel lonely and rejected, a small and insignificant object in the

world which no one cares or wants to care about.

im really depressed and can't concentrate on anything, usualy am

concentrated on the last girl who rejected me as if im inlove with

her or something..

in short.. i feel like shit.

4.who would you be without this story in your life?

i honestly dont know.

more relaxed i imagen, less panicing, if a girl were to reject me she

wouldn't symbolize the whole female gender on earth, it would have

been only this girl, i'd think it's about her and not about me, i'd

be lighter and more flowing and connceted to the present, less

invested in my drama and life's story.

T.A: no me ever wants me

less true, i do want me many times.. i do like myself very much.

ocasionaly there are thoughts that rejects me..

T.A: no me ever wants a girl

ok.. it might say i dont actually interested in the girl, but only in

what she can give me.. which in my case it's usualy an aproaval.

T.A: all girls allways wants me

well.. they sure have a systematic way of hiding it then..

or maybe they want me .. but think they dont?

i dont get this turnaround..

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" without people's aproaval everything i know about myself is

meaningless "

1.is that true?

maybe

3.how do you react to this concept?

i feel like i live in a virtual world, were i know everything

mentaly, and im capable and beautiful and talented and productive but

no one is paying attention, and no one see's it, and no one cares, as

if all the things i admire about myself are not big of a deal.

i feel i dont live up to my potential.

i try dessperatly to catch their attention and gain their love, and

try stronger and stronger, shouting more and more loudly, begging for

attention, " see how smart i am!! " " see how talented i am!! " , and when

not getting the aproaval i drop tired.. depressed, mentaly in their

world, feeling lonely, viewing them getting along somehow with one

another.. leaving me outside of it all.

when believing this concept, i feel meaningless, not alive, dead.

4.who would you be without this concept?

i'd be like a little child, focusing on this moment only, unaware of

anybody.. not caring about anybody's opnion, appriciating my own

world, unaware of any other world, not dreaming of " one day when

everybody will understand how worthy i am.. " , not living for this

promiss, not living for an objective.. that would be something ..

much different.. i'v no idea if good or bad..

T.A: without people's aproaval everything i know about myself is

meaningfull

T.A: without my aproaval everything i know about myself is meaningless

true.

even if people say words or make dids that resemble an aproaval, i

won't feel aproved unless ill finaly give it to myself.

T.A: without my aproaval everything people know about themselves is

meaningless.

it is only me who is telling the story of who they are, and how much

power they have.. this is my world.. and without mystoey about them..

they are nothing.

allthough the story is being told automaticly in my head.. so far.