Guest guest Posted October 4, 2008 Report Share Posted October 4, 2008 lets use it to do the work! i talked with some girl on msn, she looked so cute in the picture, and she wasn't very responsive, she was nice.. but i could feel she's not anyway in the direction of taking the conversation forward to the phone or meeting .. she answered short answers as if the conversation isn't that interesting for her. at the end i thought what do i have to lose.. asked if she'd want to talk on the phone and ofcours said no. im really pissed off.. donno why.. at myself.. at her.. just because i saw a cute picture of a girl i couldn't be myself.. i acted all nervous. im trying to think of the thoughts i should investigate .. i donno which.. she should have liked me is this true? yes what is the reality of this? that she doesn't like me. so it's not true. how do you react this thought? im mad about myself, stressed, i feel i need her, anger, needing of approval, thinking there's something wrong with me, judging myself and my behavior, feeling stupid and embarrassed, i feel i need to make her understand im better than this, i need a girl's approval, any girl!, i feel inferior to her, small, weak, horny. who's business is it who do you like? mine who's business is it who she likes? hers so who's business are you with this thought? hers. who would you be without this thought? i wouldn't attach to an outcome, i wouldn't care what she thinks, i would notice sooner that we lack of chemistry and end the conversation myself. T.A: she should not have liked me 1. cause she didn't. 2. cause it refers me to the work and to myself and the places i need help with. 3. we'r not a match. T.A: i should have liked me 1. the truth is that i didn't like myself at all at that conversation.. didn't like who i was there.. it was not me. 2. i was all obsessed with her and trying making her respond.. instead of concentrating with my own fun and interest. T.A: i should have liked her 1. yes, i didn't like her.. i expected some other personality from the picture i saw .. i imagined a different chemistry and different responses from her. good. i need to find a girl is that true? yes can you absolutely know this is what you need? no i cant know that how do you react this thought? im obsessed, my behavior is all weird, im stressed, and felling lack of.. losing myself in that search. who would you be without this belief? complete where i am, not searching, relax, present, a whole, happy. T.A: i need not to find a girl 1. this is reality. totaly. T.A: i need to find myself hallelujah. T.A: a girl needs to find me goodluck for her. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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