To Sylvia

[Guest guest]

You sound like you have come a long way and that is wonderful.

I did not know that my nada had BPD till shortly before she died so

I had to, and still have to, deal with alot of that stuff. I feel

like I have come a long way in a year and half. until I starting

dealing with all the feeling over nada I did not deal with all the

crap with my FOO. It has been a heck of ride in a short time, but I

would not go back for a second. I think because I starting dealing

with it after her death it was somehow final. There was no more

damage that woman could cause me. Not possible after death. I had to

deal with the past damage and how I live my present. It is odd, I

was thinkng today that it was a good thing for me to have gone to

Florida to see the codependent sister. I got to see how far I have

come from those days and those people. I sadly got to see all the

damage my sister has never dealt with and probably never will. How

bad she really feels about herself thanks to nada. I felt like I was

looking through the glass at a science expermiment gone wrong. I was

no longer a part of that and I was glad, yet sad for them. I noticed

they did not even try to pull me in on it. They weren't rude about

it but their dynamics functioned automatically. I also think they,

on a deeper level, knew I didn't belong in that place anymore. they

were okay with that. I will see my sister once or twice a year for 3

days only. I will talk to her on the phoone a couple times a month.

But, my boundries have been set and I think part of them somehow

knows this, and if the are crossed, I will quickly put them back on

there side.