From squarehead ken to Tawney, and all my other sisters..not so good

[Guest guest]

Greetings to all of my friends here. I am sorry I have

not posted in a long time. I have had the greatest

accomplishment,followed by the biggest let down I have

had in many years: Let me explain.

I guess I REALLY NEED your support right now.

I am an artist and a writer(as you all know).

Recently, I submitted a poem th the International

Library of Poetry.What happened next just blew me

away! They wrote back to me, and told me that of all

the thouseands of poems that are submitted to them,

mine was the finest they ever read. They published a

new book called " Invoking The Muse " ....and, as you

open the book, the very first poem you read, the very

first paage....is mine! They sent me an " award " , a

paper that says that I recxieved the editors pick of

the year, congratulating me on my artistic

ability.Then they sent to me, in the mail, an

invitation to attend the big gala affair they are

holding at Disnay World, in Orlando, Florida.They told

me how I would get the chance to read my poem in front

of this huge audience, and would probably win the

grand prize ov 20,000 dollars, and that they were

going to give me this big silver bowl, on a cherrywood

base, inscribed with all this praise, and all.

Then came the let down: I had to pay to register,

for my wife and I. It costs 1100 dollars. Then, on top

of that, I had to pay my way my own transportation

down there,my own lodging,my own food, my own way INTO

Disney!

I called them on the telephone, and they said if I

didn't show up, I recieved nothing. I e-mailed them,

explaining I was disabled, living on a fixed income,

with not one spare dollar left for anything....They

never even bothered to e-mail me back. What really

slays me is when a person opens a book, contemplating

buying it, the first few pages the person reads

determines whether or not they buy it...and THE VERY

FIRST PAGE IN THE BOOK IS MINE!

It hurts me deeply to know that they scammed

me.They used me. Yes, so my poetry is beautiful, but

it is usually written as gifts for people,gifts from

my heart, and they used my poem just to sell more

books!I have no way to register,no way to get there,

no way to stay there...and these people must surely be

cold, to not even e-mail me back, when I explained my

situation to them.

My only consolation is that all YOU people care...I

guess God didn't want me to go. There has to be a

reason why that I don't understand. So, I have

deccided to share with YOU, all the people who have

said they care for me, what this poem was.I am NOT

like other men. I am sensitive, and caring, and feel

love....I also am deeply hurt by these " people " ....and

any words of support you can offer would be greatly

appreciated,becayse I am really feeling lower than low

right now....so low, I haven't even got on this ol'

computer. So...Here is the poem that was acclaimed,

and given first page...big deal!

*** The love you have inside you

was not love put there to stay,

for, love isn't even friendship....

until you give it away.

'Tis better to give your love away,

just to watch it fall.....

than to know you had the chance to give..

and didn't try at all.***

sen

from the new book " Invoking The Muse "

I am really feeling down and badly...any

words you could give me would help...I just don't

understand how people can be so mean, and so uncaring.

Sometimes, I feel like I just don't belong in this

world, I just don't " fit in " What good am I ? Why is

so much of the world only concerned with how much

money they can make, even if it hurts someone? I just

don't understand!What's wrong with me, that I am not

the same way? Am I flawed? I gotta go, I can't see

thru the tears(guess I'm just a wimp),and I'm getting

the keys all wet. I hope you all liked the poem. I

give it to you all, from my heart. love, ken

lately, so just

> worried about

> you. I hope things are going alright your way, Tawny

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