Guest guest Posted March 8, 2006 Report Share Posted March 8, 2006 As I sit here tonight, reading what other's have posted today, I started thinking about my situation, my chronic back pain, and my clinical depression and the fact that the pain gets worse every day. It just, well it just makes me mad. Mad that I can't do normal things with my husband. Mad because I can't keep up anymore, mad that I wear out so fast. A couple weekends ago, hubby and I went to the flea market, well I was only able to walk around for about 20 mins, and that was it for the day. I just couldn't take one more step. That's pretty pathetic for a 45 year old. I can barely go to the grocery store anymore without getting tired. Life for me, mostly consists of being home, doing little chores here, resting in bed a lot, taking care of my dog and parrot, which bring me great joy. My animals and my husband keep me going, keep me sane. Sometimes I feel useless, worthless. Because I can't do what a normal person can do. I wish I could get out of this way of thinking. I cry, when I'm by myself a lot. It helps, but obviously doesn't solve the problem. Thank goodness I have this group to come to and cry and vent, without it I would be lost. Thanks for listening and understanding and allowing me just to get it off my chest. Leigh Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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