Re: Going through a rough time emotionally, stress is horrible, pain levels are high

[Guest guest]

Hi Penny

I can relate to your fear of the future and that the stress of not

knowing makes the pain worse. I've been experiencing that for over

a year now and I haven't figured out how to not do it. I worry all

the time if I'm going to be able to make ends meet being on a fixed

monthly income. I can't work because of my illness and the Dr's

don't think that I will be able to. Right now I have medical bills

up the waazooh that I can't pay and they will probably go to

collections. Oh well. There's nothing that I can do about it. By

the time I get done paying for all the neccessary bills: house,

utilities, phone, car insurance, car payment, health insurance, co-

pays for meds and Dr's, groceries and gas there's nothing left. I

don't have a solution yet to not worrying. I guess it's my nature

and I haven't figured out how to live with it. I keep trying to not

worrry and just let things go, but it doesn't work. I get depressed

over it and at times feel like just giving up so I don't have to

deal with everything. So far I haven't succumbed to the

depression.

Hugs

Diane - Minnesota

>

> Hi!

> My pain symptoms have been far worse lately for two reasons: fear

of

> the future,concerning my health, and stress over family members.

>

> First: Fear of the future...that is a huge one for me because my

> fear is making my pain worse, which is making my fear worse.

>

> Second: Stress, I have been having troubles with my relationship

> with my mom, mostly patched over but still on my mind and just

this

> past week some problems concerning my relationship with my 28 year

> old married son have surfaced. It is all far too complicated for

me

> to go into, but he has basically stated that in many ways, I was

not

> a good parent to him and this breaks my heart because I come from

a

> background where I was sexually, emotionally and physically abused

> and for him to discard my parenting efforts has caused me

> unbelievable personal pain. I will be reading posts, but for

> awhile, I probably will not be posting much.

>

> Please do not take my lack of posts as that I do not care.

> Sincerely, Penny

>