T is too needy

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T is too needy

1, yes

proof,

he looks at me with that look of adoring on his face,

he got upset when i told him he couldn't come out with me the other

night

he holds me and hugs me like a little girl when i see him.

he doesn't say no as much as i'd like

2, No he seems pretty autonomous alot of the time

3, i turn me off, i look down on him, i feel responsible for his

feelings, i gt afraid i'm gonna be a bitch and hurt him, i don't want

to kiss him, i kinda avoid him abit when i'm with him, i hold my love

back for giving him the wrong impression, i'm scared to be expressive

when he's not too needy because i think it will give him the wrong

impression.

I sign when he sends me a text or emails me, I feel overwhelmed, I

feel out of control and overwhelmed. In my mind i'm like yeh yeh yeh

just wait til you see how nasty i can be. I don't ask him to back off

because i might hurt him. when he says nice things to me , i just

avoid saying anything nice back, i just laugh.

when i believe that thought i stop myself from possibly having a

great relationship with someone , i feel burdened, i turn myself off.

i don't speak my truth for fear of hurting him.

i get to avoid feeling the burden that his affections might bring

me , i get to be right that i'm unlovable because i see his need as

pathetic, i see him as abit stupid if he loves me. i tell myself he's

not the right man for me if he has no backbone, i get to move away

and avoid someone telling me how great i am .i get to avoid

commitment . i get to uphold my story that there are no good men out

there..

without this thought the worst thing that could happen is that i

would feel responsible for him and he would keep being clingy and i

would feel suffocated.

and i'm already having those thoughts and feeelings with that

thought !

i'm in his business

4, I would be enjoying his company more, listening to what he says,

noticing my attraction for him, not scared of telling him i don't

like the way he kisses could he please do it more like this, i would

feel peaceful and calm in his presence, noticing that he likes to

touch me and smaile at me, noticing that he's enjoying his story of

me. i would feel free to be do and say what i want. I would be quiet

and let him speak when he wanted. I would say i want to go play with

my friends and not feel guilty. I might ask him what he's thinking

when he gives me the look and be open to hearing the answer. I would

enjoy the attention he gives me and move away when i don't want it.

I wouldn't feel responsible for him.

I would allow myself to hang out with someone who obviously digs me,

I would be open with my affections when i feel that way and notice

that when i'm not with him my mind is quiet and in my business and

notice that it feels clearer for me than being crazy in love with him

and thinking about him all day whereby i don't get my own life

together.

I would say wow this guys really see's how amazing i am .. he's got

it going on !

T.A T is not too needy

1, somedays he doesn't call me

2, he doesn't always reply to my emails or text messages

3, he's told me he's happy to back off if i need space.

4, he didn't come out when i invited him the other day.

5, he doesn't cancel his appointments to be with me .

6, he doesn't call me 50 times a day

7, he hasn't made any demands of me

T.A I'm too needy

1, truer especially when i think he's being to needy i'm needing him

to back off

2, i want a man to be affectionate, autonomys, masculine yet in touch

with his feminine, not make me insecure but not be too demanding, be

affectionate but not too much, .. the list goes on..

3, i definately felt too needy with shalimar, in fact this is a

lesson in humility.

4, i need him to blow hot when i want and cold when i don't want

5, yes when i assume he should know how i want to be kissed and i

haven't told him .

6, when i get down on myself for still having feelings for shali and

beating myself up.

7, when i get pissed off for wanting affection from a man

8, when i tell myself i'm an idiot for not wanting to be with T

because he's so sweet and would make a nice boyfriend.

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