Guest guest Posted March 5, 2011 Report Share Posted March 5, 2011 I was diagnosed two years ago with NASH then, sort of accidently, they discovered I had fourth stage cirrhosis. I feel like I'm falling apart. I can't stop crying and life, in general, sucks. It has also caused a severe crisis of faith, which I've never before experienced. This is unusual for me, as I am usually a happy, " God " kind of gal. Statistics tell me that I have 80% of dying in the next three years. I am SO not ready for that. Any suggestions on how to handle this mess? Kate Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 5, 2011 Report Share Posted March 5, 2011 Hi Kate: I'm Jackie. Wish I could give you a big hug right now. The best I can do is one of these: (((Kate))) My husband, was also diagnosed with NASH. He's diabetic and had fatty liver, which led to cirrhosis, which led to 3 cancerous tumors in the right lobe of his liver. I am about to become your new best friend, if you will allow. Stay with me while I tell you of our journey. In January of 2009 he had an ultrasound of his liver, which led to an MRI and the discovery of the tumors. In February of 2009 he had a biopsy. We waited a week and went to the dr for the results. The dr said his tumor marker test looked normal and the biopsy result was inconclusive.  He said they had sent the biopsy to another center for a 2nd look but everything would probably come out ok. We left there happy, and I drove to see my husband's aunt to tell her the " good news. " I didn't want to explain over the phone, as she is hard of hearing, and it was a beautiful day for a drive. When I got there I called my husband to tell him that I had arrived safely and he told me he just got off the phone with the dr. The 2nd look at the biopsy showed cancer. It was like a cruel joke. I drove home frantically and went over to church to see our pastor. He came to the house and sat down with us and told us that we had to stand shoulder to shoulder thru this crisis and not hide our feelings from each other. When was weak, I would be strong, and vice- versa. Do you have family who you are close with?  Maybe even some close friends? Don't hide--reach out and tell people when you are scared, just like you did here. We are here to help and encourage you. We had a long and perilous journey with this disease, but a happy ending. received a liver transplant on May 26, 2010 and has a 2nd chance at life. We never gave up hope, and my message to you is to not give up hope either. I am writing a book about our experience. It will be called " The Mustard Seed " . If you have faith as tiny as a mustard seed you can move a mountain. We did. Stay with this group and you will learn much. Share what you learn with your loved ones who will be able to help you in your fight against this disease. We can help you to navigate the medical community since many of us have experience with what we have gone/are going thru. Hope I have given you some encouragement today. You can email me at jckellermann@... and I will give you my phone number if you would like to talk personally. Keeping you in prayer. Jackie Subject: Questions To: livercirrhosissupport Date: Saturday, March 5, 2011, 4:34 AM  I was diagnosed two years ago with NASH then, sort of accidently, they discovered I had fourth stage cirrhosis. I feel like I'm falling apart. I can't stop crying and life, in general, sucks. It has also caused a severe crisis of faith, which I've never before experienced. This is unusual for me, as I am usually a happy, " God " kind of gal. Statistics tell me that I have 80% of dying in the next three years. I am SO not ready for that. Any suggestions on how to handle this mess? Kate Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 5, 2011 Report Share Posted March 5, 2011 Kate, I would like to know what " statistics " you have seen that tell you this? Usually statistics for liver disease patients are median survival type. In other words, the disease is so unpredictable that the experts say things like 50% three year median survival, which means 50% percent die before three years and the other 50% do not, and then another statistic has to be used for this who survive past the three year mark. I would be very very Leary about believeing statistics, because the true ones always give you the possibility of surviving, thready reflecting reality. Love, Bobby PS, sometime I get in a panic over the very same thing. Please get ahold of me on Yahoo chat. ________________________________ To: livercirrhosissupport Sent: Sat, March 5, 2011 2:34:35 AM Subject: Questions I was diagnosed two years ago with NASH then, sort of accidently, they discovered I had fourth stage cirrhosis. I feel like I'm falling apart. I can't stop crying and life, in general, sucks. It has also caused a severe crisis of faith, which I've never before experienced. This is unusual for me, as I am usually a happy, " God " kind of gal. Statistics tell me that I have 80% of dying in the next three years. I am SO not ready for that. Any suggestions on how to handle this mess? Kate Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 5, 2011 Report Share Posted March 5, 2011  Kate,my husband was diagnosed with end stage liver failure due to NASH 5 1/2 years ago. He's had many many esoughogeal varice  bandings and other complications from the disease. However he does have compensated sustained liver function. His hepotologist says he's doing well and we are now down to just 2 visits a year with him. Chin up girl.. I too thought it was a death sentence when we first were told.We too talked about his impending death and I cried so much in the beginning. This forum was and is a life saver for me. I found there is life after diagnosis! Talk with us here. There's tons of information here and even more support for you! We're family...and you will feel our love!                                                                            Love,Jill  We don't remember days, we remember moments. Life is not measured by the breaths we take,but by the moments that take our breath away. ________________________________ To: livercirrhosissupport Sent: Sat, March 5, 2011 9:05:55 PM Subject: Re: Questions  Kate, I would like to know what " statistics " you have seen that tell you this? Usually statistics for liver disease patients are median survival type. In other words, the disease is so unpredictable that the experts say things like 50% three year median survival, which means 50% percent die before three years and the other 50% do not, and then another statistic has to be used for this who survive past the three year mark. I would be very very Leary about believeing statistics, because the true ones always give you the possibility of surviving, thready reflecting reality. Love, Bobby PS, sometime I get in a panic over the very same thing. Please get ahold of me on Yahoo chat. ________________________________ To: livercirrhosissupport Sent: Sat, March 5, 2011 2:34:35 AM Subject: Questions I was diagnosed two years ago with NASH then, sort of accidently, they discovered I had fourth stage cirrhosis. I feel like I'm falling apart. I can't stop crying and life, in general, sucks. It has also caused a severe crisis of faith, which I've never before experienced. This is unusual for me, as I am usually a happy, " God " kind of gal. Statistics tell me that I have 80% of dying in the next three years. I am SO not ready for that. Any suggestions on how to handle this mess? Kate Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 12, 2011 Report Share Posted August 12, 2011 Hi: I'm Jackie. My husband had a liver transplant May 26th 2010. I can identify with all of the things you are describing. The bloated belly is called ascites and they do a procedure called paracentesis where they drain the fluid off the belly. The slow movements and far away look you describe sounds to me like hepatic encephalopathy, otherwise referred to as elevated ammonia. For this they usually prescribe lactulose, a syrupy liquid which my husband and I jokingly referred to as " go-jo. "  (when he takes it, you'll know why) It would be wise to take him to the e.r. as soon as you can. The elevated ammonia needs prompt attention, and so does the ascites. Please stay in touch with this group. Our " family " here can keep you well informed and provide love, support and comfort. Please let us know how things are going. Jackie From: f_fwb <no_reply > To: livercirrhosissupport Sent: Saturday, August 13, 2011 12:40 AM Subject: Questions  Hello to all. I have questions I can't find answers to by reading about cirrhosis on the Internet. My active, self-employed 72 yr old husband was diagnosed just over a year ago, but was not told to come back for regular checkups, etc. Neither the primary doctor or the gastroenterogist seemed willing to give us the time to ask. We have an appointment with a liver specialist on Aug 22, but I am concerned my husband will get worse before then, if I don't get answers to something I may need to know before then. He has appeared to have no symptoms, until recently when I noticed he seemed to pay more attention to something in the room than his dinner plate. He started tiring easily, and his nights of insomnia suddenly went from 1 every 3 months to 2-3 per week. The part that started my worrying me was his feet started swelling about a month ago, then I realized his stomach had been gradually swelling for longer than that, and we just thought he was gaining weight. Now, he has no naval indention, and he looks like he is 9 months pregnant. Two weeks ago, he started walking and talking as if in slow motion, and he has a different look in his eyes. He has trouble focusing even with his glasses, but the look in his eyes is one I can't describe, it is as if he is drugged. He had not changed or added medication up to this point. Is any of this familar? Is it normal? That far-a-way look in his eyes concerns me that I should consider not waiting until the 22nd, but seek medical attention by taking him to an ER if he gets worse. The primary doctor did not give his eyes any attention when I pointed this out to him this past Monday. He was seeing the doctor for what was diagnosed as bursitis of the elbow, it was drained, and had no infection. He had not injured his elbow, so could it be related to the other swellings? Thank you for any advice, we have basically lived a normal life in the year since he was diagnosed, and were not prepared for this sudden turn of events. Fran Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 13, 2011 Report Share Posted August 13, 2011 hi, fran i am beverly,i was diagnosed almost 3yrs it will be in oct.it seems like you regular dr should have sent him to the liver dr. when he was diagnosed.i am als on the go-jo syrup.and i take 2 xifan aday for my zumbieness it helps to.they have not had to drain my belly yet but it sure looks like it needs it.but i take alot of dieurtics for the fluid.i am with jackie if i hadn't found this group i think i would have lost it.this disease is so unpredictable one day i am ok the next i am not.i have been in the & out of the hospital about 15 times in less then 3 yrs.if not for this group and learning from others i would be lost.take care and keep in touch even if it is just to vent frustrations.  god bless bev,tx To: " livercirrhosissupport " <livercirrhosissupport > Sent: Friday, August 12, 2011 10:10 PM Subject: Re: Questions  Hi: I'm Jackie. My husband had a liver transplant May 26th 2010. I can identify with all of the things you are describing. The bloated belly is called ascites and they do a procedure called paracentesis where they drain the fluid off the belly. The slow movements and far away look you describe sounds to me like hepatic encephalopathy, otherwise referred to as elevated ammonia. For this they usually prescribe lactulose, a syrupy liquid which my husband and I jokingly referred to as " go-jo. "  (when he takes it, you'll know why) It would be wise to take him to the e.r. as soon as you can. The elevated ammonia needs prompt attention, and so does the ascites. Please stay in touch with this group. Our " family " here can keep you well informed and provide love, support and comfort. Please let us know how things are going. Jackie From: f_fwb <no_reply > To: livercirrhosissupport Sent: Saturday, August 13, 2011 12:40 AM Subject: Questions  Hello to all. I have questions I can't find answers to by reading about cirrhosis on the Internet. My active, self-employed 72 yr old husband was diagnosed just over a year ago, but was not told to come back for regular checkups, etc. Neither the primary doctor or the gastroenterogist seemed willing to give us the time to ask. We have an appointment with a liver specialist on Aug 22, but I am concerned my husband will get worse before then, if I don't get answers to something I may need to know before then. He has appeared to have no symptoms, until recently when I noticed he seemed to pay more attention to something in the room than his dinner plate. He started tiring easily, and his nights of insomnia suddenly went from 1 every 3 months to 2-3 per week. The part that started my worrying me was his feet started swelling about a month ago, then I realized his stomach had been gradually swelling for longer than that, and we just thought he was gaining weight. Now, he has no naval indention, and he looks like he is 9 months pregnant. Two weeks ago, he started walking and talking as if in slow motion, and he has a different look in his eyes. He has trouble focusing even with his glasses, but the look in his eyes is one I can't describe, it is as if he is drugged. He had not changed or added medication up to this point. Is any of this familar? Is it normal? That far-a-way look in his eyes concerns me that I should consider not waiting until the 22nd, but seek medical attention by taking him to an ER if he gets worse. The primary doctor did not give his eyes any attention when I pointed this out to him this past Monday. He was seeing the doctor for what was diagnosed as bursitis of the elbow, it was drained, and had no infection. He had not injured his elbow, so could it be related to the other swellings? Thank you for any advice, we have basically lived a normal life in the year since he was diagnosed, and were not prepared for this sudden turn of events. Fran Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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