Question for some former caregivers

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Hi All: Been following the posts and thinking of you all. Hoping and praying

this new year will bring good things for all. My husband will be 8 months

post-transplant on the 26th of this month. He's doing well and has now

" graduated " to seeing the transplant drs every 3 months instead of once a month

and getting bloodwork done once a week instead of twice a week. That should

make us happy, right? It does, but I have a question for some of you who have

been caregivers. Do you ever get these mental images in your head of when your

loved one was so very sick, and you just can't seem to get it out of your mind?

This happens to me now and then and I get so very sad. This morning I looked

over at my husband sleeping and remembered last year at this time when I would

spend entire days on end sitting on the bed beside him, and being so thrilled

when he would eat 2 bites of food. I get a mental picture of this and then I

burst out crying and he can't figure out what's wrong with me. I don't want him

to feel guilty for having me go thru all that. I can't talk to my friends about

it because they haven't been thru it and are totally clueless. Just puttin it

out there. Maybe someone on this group will understand. Hope I haven't upset

anyone. You are all so very dear to me. Love, Jackie