Guest guest Posted November 10, 2010 Report Share Posted November 10, 2010 It's what we're all here for, ! ~Meghan > > > > I did something totally immoral this week just to escape a trigger sound. I can't even say what it was, but someone who I work with was making a trigger sound all day, every day. I hardly know this person as they just moved here to my area. I hate confrontation and am so afraid of anyone thinking I'm evil or finding out I have this disorder. And I couldn't live through another day hearing this sound. There was no escape. So I prevented him from making the sound ever again by stealing the thing he was using to make the noise. It was so unlike me. And though it didn't hurt him, it did invade his space and was unfair to this person. I felt horrible afterward. But it was too late. > > > > I've told people and they never understand and just respond like everyone by saying, " just don't let the noises bother you. " Wow, after years and years of therapy, doctor visits with facet of the medical profession, thousands of dollars on medical bills and every medication imaginable... if I only I had known!! Sorry for the sarcasm. > > > > I need to vent today to say -- I'm sick of 4S controlling me. I'm sick of the fear and the avoidance and am exhausted from all the bizarre (and now even immoral) behaviors I have to practice to find any semblance of relief from what to others are perfectly normal sounds. > > > > Thanks for listening. > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 11, 2010 Report Share Posted November 11, 2010 I don't think what you did was immoral. I think most of us would at the very least be extremely tempted to do the same thing!! > > > > > > I did something totally immoral this week just to escape a trigger sound. I can't even say what it was, but someone who I work with was making a trigger sound all day, every day. I hardly know this person as they just moved here to my area. I hate confrontation and am so afraid of anyone thinking I'm evil or finding out I have this disorder. And I couldn't live through another day hearing this sound. There was no escape. So I prevented him from making the sound ever again by stealing the thing he was using to make the noise. It was so unlike me. And though it didn't hurt him, it did invade his space and was unfair to this person. I felt horrible afterward. But it was too late. > > > > > > I've told people and they never understand and just respond like everyone by saying, " just don't let the noises bother you. " Wow, after years and years of therapy, doctor visits with facet of the medical profession, thousands of dollars on medical bills and every medication imaginable... if I only I had known!! Sorry for the sarcasm. > > > > > > I need to vent today to say -- I'm sick of 4S controlling me. I'm sick of the fear and the avoidance and am exhausted from all the bizarre (and now even immoral) behaviors I have to practice to find any semblance of relief from what to others are perfectly normal sounds. > > > > > > Thanks for listening. > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 11, 2010 Report Share Posted November 11, 2010 Re the comment about going into the utility room and cutting the wire on the fan, I would have done exactly the same thing!! Thank goodness you did not hurt yourself though from cutting the wire. > > > > > > I did something totally immoral this week just to escape a trigger sound. I can't even say what it was, but someone who I work with was making a trigger sound all day, every day. I hardly know this person as they just moved here to my area. I hate confrontation and am so afraid of anyone thinking I'm evil or finding out I have this disorder. And I couldn't live through another day hearing this sound. There was no escape. So I prevented him from making the sound ever again by stealing the thing he was using to make the noise. It was so unlike me. And though it didn't hurt him, it did invade his space and was unfair to this person. I felt horrible afterward. But it was too late. > > > > > > I've told people and they never understand and just respond like everyone by saying, " just don't let the noises bother you. " Wow, after years and years of therapy, doctor visits with facet of the medical profession, thousands of dollars on medical bills and every medication imaginable... if I only I had known!! Sorry for the sarcasm. > > > > > > I need to vent today to say -- I'm sick of 4S controlling me. I'm sick of the fear and the avoidance and am exhausted from all the bizarre (and now even immoral) behaviors I have to practice to find any semblance of relief from what to others are perfectly normal sounds. > > > > > > Thanks for listening. > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 11, 2010 Report Share Posted November 11, 2010 I sometimes steal my family's flip flops if they are like lying around or anything and replace them with quieter shoes so that if they are more likely to chose the less noisy option > > i can relate, as i was sitting in my apartment on the 3rd floor where there > is a utility room of some kind on the other side of my living room wall > which i normally like, there is a machine sound but it's constant and drowns > out any other noise but on occasion, it starts REVVING and i go insane. i > reported it to the manager who said he heard it and 'maintenance is aware > of it'..............i said 'i cannot concentrate, i am pacing and someone > needs to make it stop'....manger is very nice, young guy, he told me he > thought it was a fan motor going out in the room where we take the trash so i > told him to 'put it out of it's misery, cut the wire, make it stop'...... he > said he checked it out but at 5p.m., he is gone for the day and the noise > has me in such a rage that i'm cussing and pacing and then, kind of like i > was possessed, i grabbed some wire cutters and a flashlight and not even > knowing if there are cameras in the hall, i went into that room, saw that > there was a metal cover over the fan that was painted on and would have cracked > all the paint if i'd taken it off so i shined the light inside and saw two > wires, one had been cut, probably by my manager so i pulled the other one > through the fan cover and 'snip'................it sparked and i thought, > oh my god, the fan stopped, THANK GOD and i hurried back home. i was so > relieved that the noise stopped but then i thought, did i just shut off the > fans in the whole building??? is a fire going to start? is someone going > to knock on my door and arrest me? it's pretty funny now that i think back > but i could relate to the person who did what she had to do to make the > noise stop. the next day, the fan was going again and not revving. i'm > pretty sure my manager know's what happened and he probably thinks it's funny. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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