Re: Empathy & Understanding from Doctors

[Guest guest]

Hi Debbie:

It's understandable. I'm sorry you're going through it. I didn't

have the problem of working anymore because right after I was in the

hospital the first time, my boss hacked into my computer, stole all

the projects I was working on, and then fired me. Then, refused to

pay me and I was getting too sick to even think about a lawsuit.

It's hard to lose a relationship with things that are important to

us, even if it is not a person, per se. My lifelong dream was to go

to law school and then some things happened that put it on hold.

Then, I finally started the process only to be knocked down again.

I don't understand why people can't comprehend loss of any type. I

didn't really become depressed because everyone told me I was an

idiot loser who should do it anyway. So, when all this happened, I

just assumed they were right.

Maybe you and I can beat this and finish our dreams. We can be

partners so hopefully we won't both have flare days simultaneously.

Take care and know someone has been there and cares,

Star

[Guest guest]

Star,

Thanks for the encouragement.

I have been reading your posts today and realize you aren't feeling well at all.

I do hope you feel better soon.

Debbie

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> Date: 2004/03/22 Mon PM 01:41:38 EST

> To: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group

> Subject: Re: Empathy & Understanding from Doctors

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[Guest guest]

Star,

Thanks for the encouragement.

I have been reading your posts today and realize you aren't feeling well at all.

I do hope you feel better soon.

Debbie

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> Date: 2004/03/22 Mon PM 01:41:38 EST

> To: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group

> Subject: Re: Empathy & Understanding from Doctors

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[Guest guest]

My lifelong dream was to go

> to law school and then some things happened that put it on hold.

> Then, I finally started the process only to be knocked down again.

> I don't understand why people can't comprehend loss of any type. I

> didn't really become depressed because everyone told me I was an

> idiot loser who should do it anyway. So, when all this happened, I

> just assumed they were right.

>

> Maybe you and I can beat this and finish our dreams. We can be

> partners so hopefully we won't both have flare days simultaneously.

>

> Take care and know someone has been there and cares,

> Star

I'm in Theology school, getting my Master's. I've had to cut down on

the number of classes I take and my ex-rheumatologist (urinal boy)

told me that I could never go to school full time.

Something he said actually made sense (!): he said that this is a

pain disease. Now, why have I been seeing him? Why not go to a

profession that specializes in pain disease?

The idea that I'm seeing my life just fade away is making me cry.

I'm only 39, but feel like 70 or so. The work I do is medical and

very physical and I'm not sure how long I can do it, but at this

point I'm not going on disability; well...as of 6:55 PM. I think we

all know how our plans can change.

I'm not giving up on my dream of teaching Theology without a fight.

It took me 20 years to have the guts to do it and I'm not willing to

let the Fibro or some dumb**s doctor stand in my way. I don't care

if the pain clinic sticks Duragesic patches all over my body until I

look like an Easter egg (all of my pain receptors will make it so I

don't even get a buzz), but I'm moving on with my plans.

Thanks for the help today!

Be Blessed!

Kathy T.