Negative Feelings

[Guest guest]

I joined this group about a week ago and have been reading the msgs.

Madge's recent msg regarding having negative feeling hit me the wrong

way and upset me. It's great if she can always have a positive

attitude. There are some of us who have recently been diagnosed who

don't have a positive attitude, but rather one of being overwhelmed,

hurt, miserable, etc. I, for one, have been battling heart disease

and Idiopathic Sensory Peripheral Neuropathy on a day to day basis.

I

take 19 pills a day which include pain meds 24 hours a day. I can

barely deal with my pain and keep a positive attitude and I have a

lot

to be thankful for - a wonderful, supporting understanding husband

and

three grown children and 4 grandchildren. I do as much as I can, as

much as my constant pain allows me to and then - I get the dx of

Diabetes. It isn't bad yet so I can probably control by diet.

Exercise is extremely difficult, I cannot walk well. Yes, I am angry

at my dx and I'm not adjusting to it well. I have a very hard time

making changes in my life. I am overweight, but not obese. I love

food. First I was told to cut the fat and cholesterol, (although my

cholesterol was never high to begin with) so I went with pasta's and

chicken, fish and lean pork. Now I have to cut the pasta and bread

and all the other good stuff I love and there's not much left. I'm

glad Madge is a positive thinker - good for her. Me - I'm damn mad

right now in trying to deal with this - so don't tell me how I should

think. I am an individual and I will deal with this in my own way. I

thought this site was for support not for telling me how I should

think and feel.

Phyllis