I need help, we all need help

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First of all I've been lurking around here for a while now. Just reading, and

agreeing on almost everything. Like pretty much everyone else here, this all

started when I was young. It wasn't sound at first. At dinner, I used to have to

breath on a bite of food before I ate it. Because I just had to get everyone

else's breath off of it before I put it in my mouth. I can't really recall when

the sound started, but i'm sure it was shortly after that. It didn't take long

for me to grow out of the breathing on my food thing. I always thought I would

grow out of the sound stuff too. But no, just got worse and worse. It's fine

when I just meet someone, however, the more time I spend around them, the more I

notice their disgusting noises. How can people be so sickening? I know it's not

their fault, just makes me feel better to say something mean about it. Know what

I mean? Yea, it's kinda childish but u gotta do what u gotta do to get through.

Like the mimicking.....yea I do that too. I've also noticed the sounds are

heightened when i'm really hungry or tired. Gosh, I can be so mean at those

times. I've come to feel like I am an intolerable person to be around. Just

can't help it. My daughter is just now starting to get deep down into my

eardrums. She's 7, and I don't wanna be upset around her when she makes trigger

sounds. How can I be a good mother if I can't tolerate the little things that

don't matter to other people? I can't put her through this. Sometimes I catch

her saying something about someone eating. Or she will complain about me

breathing on her when she sits in my lap or next to me. I hope that she doesn't

get this as bad as we have it. Somehow I know that will not be the case, unless

there is help somewhere. Is there anyone out there that will take us seriously?

How can we get the word out to large masses? There has to be thousands, if not

millions of people out there that have this condition. Just sitting there and

suffering day after day. I want more people to know about this. I don't want to

be ridiculed or made fun of because I tell someone their sounds are bothering

me. I don't want someone to feel sorry for me either. I just want help.