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Dear Bonnie, the American association for the study of liver diseases

(http://www.aasld.org/Pages/Default.aspx)

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says that at the first sign of decompensation, (the first major development of

complications), OR MELD of 10 or higher needs to be evaluated for placement on

the list. This is done by hepatologists at a TRANSPLANT hospital, and NO one

else. You may hear all kinds of stories,and in Dallas you might need a MELD of

25-30, Where here in Denver, 20 will get you there... it all varies. But only

trust a hepatologist at a Transplant center. Keep in mind- the AASLD guidlines

are just guidlines, not hard fast rules. Love, Bobby

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Thu, August 26, 2010 2:49:12 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Jackie, You know I have POA for my mom, but I really never thought about it for

my husband. You are right, because should his ammonia levels make him confused

to the point you are talking about, I will need it. His liver specialist said if

he is sleeping all the time and i cant wake him up, thats when I need to take

him to the hospital. In anyone's experience with a MELD score? The doc said

that 14 was very close to needing a transplant, but at 16 he will need to be on

the list. So he cannot get on the list. Plus where he has Hep C. I dont think

he's eligible. On top of that he applied for social security and right now only

has limited medical coverage through the county. we got a phone call from his

primary physician who made us go in first thing in the morning to discuss the

low WBC and platelets and his high ammonia levels, so we were told to go to the

ER for evaluation or to drain the acites. When i brought him to the hospital

with lab results in hand, the doctor walked in, said, " numbers mean nothing "

this man did not know my husbands baseline (he was falling asleep on the bed at

the ER) then he sends in the receptionist and tells us we need to give 200

dollars to finish the visit. I asked for what, they said they it would cost a

very high amount to treat him " i asked well are u going to admit him for 200

dollars? she said i dont know maam. i was very angry, she handed him lactulose

Rx and we left. frustrating. that was a few weeks ago. He is sleeping,

complains of having no energy. If he has a MELD score of 14, how bad is that?

when he walks his right leg swells up so bad. If he doesnt get a transplant,

what is the usual progression? will he live for another 5 years? Or is it all

subjective? I feel so bad for him, oh, he hasnt lost any weight. He is 305

pounds and 6'1 " . thanks, Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Wed, August 25, 2010 9:24:13 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Hi Bonnie: I'm Jackie. My husband had a liver transplant on May 26th and he

was quite sick before he was transplanted. His cirrhosis came from

non-alcoholic fatty liver disease, which progressed to 3 cancerous tumors in the

right lobe of his liver. His meld score was in the 30's when he was

transplanted. We went thru a handful of months of decompensated liver disease

after he was injected with chemo to kill off the liver tumors. He had many of

the symptoms you talk about, like elevated ammonia. We were able to control the

ammonia levels with lactulose and xifaxin. He also had fluid building up in his

abdomen (ascites) which we also managed by having the fluid drained off once

every 2 weeks. It's a proceedure called paracentesis. He was tired all the

time and lost over 60 lbs due to the diaharria from lactulose and loss of

appetite. He lost muscle mass and became very weak. There is hope, as he has

had his transplant and is doing

much better now, gaining weight and muscle mass. He's eating like a teenager!

(LOL) You need to know the side effects of this disease and how to manage

them. You will learn much on this forum, as I did. It sounds like you are

doing a good job being an advocate for your husband and learning all you can.

One thing I would suggest is that as soon as possible you get a legal and

medical power of attorney for your husband. That way you will be able to make

decisions in his best interest when he is unable to speak for himself, for

instance, when his ammonia levels are up. I'll tell you a quick story of what

happened to me. The first time my husband had a problem with his ammonia level

I called for an ambulance. They came and took him to the hospital where he was

admitted for 3 days. Once I got him home, a week later his ammonia was up again

and I called the ambulance. They came in to take him and remembered being here

last week. They

asked him if he wanted to go to the hospital and he told them he was all right.

All he wanted to do was sleep and not take his lactulose or pills. To my

horror, the paramedic said they couldn't take him to the hospital unless he was

willing to go. I explained to them that he was not capable of making that

decision because of his ammonia level, and if he continued to lay there and

sleep and not get his medicine or treatment to lower the ammonia that he would

go into a coma and die. The paramedic said to me " maybe he wants to let nature

take it's course. " I was horrified! And I finally convinced this policeman who

was with them that he needed to go to the hospital. After that episode I had a

lawyer come to the house so that we could sign papers to be each other's power

of attorney. Enough said on the importance of that. Please keep us posted on

your progress. Hoping your husband gets his new liver real soon. Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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Is this doc at a transplant center? if not, dont believe him. If he is, you

might want to ask why the AASLD recommendations are for 10 and over, and why

your loved one cant get on at 10? There is ample evidence that the earlier the

transplantation, the better the outcome. Love, Bobby

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Thu, August 26, 2010 5:54:04 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Mike, thanks for the info. He is not on transplant list yet. His MELD rate is

14, doc says 16 is when u get on the list. He is very tired, sleeping a lot. He

also has Hep C. He applied for ss. But he seems like he is just kinda giving

up. Laying around on the couch, then to the bed, I heard that if he has Hep C

the cirrohsis will progress quicker. Is that true. Im trying to get as much

info as possible, like what to expect and how long does this go on.? Thanks.

Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Wed, August 25, 2010 10:41:46 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Bonnie,

He will remain tired and sleep most the time. He will if not already have major

mood swings, he might jerk and twitch when sleeping. He will be confused alot,

make sure he keeps up the lactuloce, this will keep him focused. He will be

taking a crud load of meds.,

Is he already on the transplant list? You need to stay strong stay in there with

him. After he recieves his transplant everything will return to normal or you

will see a new man. I had the transplant 4 years ago and I am doing very well.

If you have any questions what so ever please ask. Thats what we are here for.

Best of luck

Mike

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 8:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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Hi Bonnie:  Insurance from social security is Medicare and they do pay for

transplant.  They pay 80% and you will need a prescription plan too for his

meds after transplant.  My husband has a program called Secure RX that covers

his meds, but right now we are in the " donut hole " where we have used up

benefits for the year.  My husband and twin sons belong to our local fire co. 

The fire co had a benefit breakfast for my husband and raised $6,000 which we

are using for his meds.  People want to help and are good.  Your first step is

to get your husband evaluated at a transplant center.  They will do lots of

tests and a lot of bloodwork.  He will have bloodwork repeated often, which

will determine his meld score.  Depending on how sick he gets, his meld score

will climb which will determine his placement on the list.  My husband went

from being on the in-active list to being #2 at Hershey Medical Center (in PA)

in two weeks.  During that time

he had 2 offers for livers.  One was un-usable and the other went to someone

ahead of him on the list.  He was called in a total of 5 times and on the 6th

call he got a liver.  That was on May 26th.  I am hoping and praying for your

husband, as miracles do happen.  Your anger and outrage is good.  Use it to be

pro-active and a good advocate for your husband.  Learn all you can and show

those drs how well informed you are.  I used to joke with the drs and tell them

that if they could give me a good reason why my husband couldn't get a liver

that I would crawl under the rock from whence I came and never bother them

again, but it would have to be a very good reason.  I'm not going away till he

gets a liver.  They must have thought 'oh, God!  Get that guy a liver so she

will go away!'  (LOL)  Hershey is the 2nd center we went to.  The 1st one, in

all fairness to them I shouldn't mention, but the head guy was mean.  He acted

like we had some

nerve being there.  Did you ever watch House, MD?  Well, I actually called

this guy Dr. House to his face!  I think he took it as a compliment.  (LOL) 

I know your main question is 'how long does he have?'  and no one except God

knows the answer to that, and your other question is 'what happens next?'  God

gives us the strength to deal with these things one step at a time.  You will

find new ways to care for him as he waits for a new liver.  That's how it

goes--one day at a time.  Stay with us and give us frequent updates.  We will

be able to help you in each step on this journey.  Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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Bonnie,

I was on the list with a Meld of 7. That was after I was hospitalized

with stomach bleeding which is probably why they put me on the list so

early.

Roni

> Mike, I didnt know that you could even get on the list with a MELD

> of 14, and

> did you have good insurance? were u tired a lot? thanks for the

> info. how did

> you feel when you were at a score of 13? was it like I described.

> He's so

> sleepy all day. Thanks for the encouragement. Bonnie

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Thu, August 26, 2010 9:32:58 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Bonnie,

> I had Hep C and and my score was a 13 and i was put on the list. My

> score was a

> 19 when I got my transplat. It took 9 months before I got my

> transplant and

> believe me I know I would not have lasted another week. I know its

> gonna be

> hard and I had awesome support from my wife. She made my interact

> with the

> family and made me get out and do things regardless what I did or

> said. But I

> was lucky I didnt have the ammonia and any of the other sicknesses.

> I did what

> the doctors told me to do, but I also went by my on body instincts.

> I ate what i

> wanted but no salt. I drank nothing but water and cranberry juice. I

> guess what

> i am saying is that there is gonna me alot of changes through this

> but keep it

> as normal as possible. Have both of you gone to the pre and post

> transplant

> classes. It was required before you got on the list. It is very

> helpful and

> there are people like myself that goes to these meetings that are

> there to try

> to help peolpe cope and

> understand what to expect before and after the transplant.

>

>

>

>

> Subject: Re: need to vent

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 8:00 PM

>

> Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate

> it.

> Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to

> the

> hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has

> cirhossis

> and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist

> said that

> even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

> platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots.

> He is

> using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the

> hospital

> and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He

> is so

> tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said

> that a med

> rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He

> has

> applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an

> ultrasound, all of

> the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we

> were very

> stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver

> transplant. Can

> someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i

> realize is

> different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He

> is 54 years

> old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the

> side effects,

> like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate.

> Thanks Bonnie

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

>

> > > >

> > > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont

> mind. i am

> > > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr.

> tommorrow want

> > > scan

> > > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2.

> he forgets i

> > > fed

> > > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his

> empty glass of

> > > in

> > > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was

> friday our

> > > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party

> he doesnt

> > > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what

> ever it is i

> > > am

> > > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be

> expected

> > > for a

> > > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is

> wearing me out

> > > ...hes

> > > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes

> in time

> > > out

> > > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i

> dont know.

> > > the

> > > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i

> have to cont.

> > > on i

> > > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be

> at the

> > > ocean

> > > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the

> walk with

> > > elsie and

> > > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am

> confused i am

> > > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live

> to far

> > > from

> > > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so

> messed

> > > up...what

> > > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and

> tell them

> > > all

> > > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and

> drive on

> > > soldier

> > > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are

> the cards

> > > dealt

> > > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am

> pissy i am sad

> > > i

> > > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone

> in my

> > > family

> > > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone.

> you all and

> > > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to

> that dont

> > > sugarcoat

> > > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just

> needed to

> > > get

> > > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week

> cause i

> > > dont

> > > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry

> with the sick

> > > ones

> > > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i

> wanna lay in

> > > the

> > > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand

> soaking up

> > > the

> > > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me.

> who wouldnt

> > > be

> > > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys

> world its

> > > me

> > > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that

> sounds

> > > selfish

> > > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe

> trying to tell

> > > me?

> > > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i

> am tired

> > > for

> > > > > crying out loud!!

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > > ------------------------------------

> > > > >

> > > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > > web address:

> > > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > > >

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I was Tired alot with a score of 13 and I also wanted to sleep. Yes, I had great

insurance through my job. I't kinda suxs though cause I was working overseas on

the oil rigs rotating 35 on and 35 off. I am in great shape again and have

regained about 90% of my muscle mass back but due to the extreme chemicals and

working conditions the doctors will not allow me to go back. I had some

complications about a year ago. I started rejecting 3 years after having the

transplant with a score of 11 and was put back on the transplant list. But with

will power and detremination I got myself back to a score of 4 which they say is

norm. He has to not let this control him. I have land and critters that need

taken care of and I made it a point to get up and feed them and climb on the

riding lawn mower a mow. We are all different but dont let him just lay down and

let this get the best of him. I live in Houston and if ever you need to talk and

ask questions please dont

hesitate. Oh, yeah. I was also apart of a support group where we would meet

twice a week and I didn't want to go but went and you would be amazed at the

help and support these group have. If you can find one please you and him go.

Mike

>

>

> Subject: Re: need to vent

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 8:00 PM

>

> Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate 

> it.

> Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to 

> the

> hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has 

> cirhossis

> and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist 

> said that

> even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

> platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. 

> He is

> using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the 

> hospital

> and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He 

> is so

> tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said 

> that a med

> rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He 

> has

> applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an 

> ultrasound, all of

> the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we 

> were very

> stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver 

> transplant. Can

> someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i 

> realize is

> different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He 

> is 54 years

> old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the 

> side effects,

> like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. 

> Thanks Bonnie

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

>

> > > >

> > > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont 

> mind. i am

> > > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. 

> tommorrow want

> > > scan

> > > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. 

> he forgets i

> > > fed

> > > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his 

> empty glass of

> > > in

> > > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was 

> friday our

> > > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party 

> he doesnt

> > > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what 

> ever it is i

> > > am

> > > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be 

> expected

> > > for a

> > > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is 

> wearing me out

> > > ...hes

> > > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes 

> in time

> > > out

> > > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i 

> dont know.

> > > the

> > > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i 

> have to cont.

> > > on i

> > > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be 

> at the

> > > ocean

> > > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the 

> walk with

> > > elsie and

> > > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am 

> confused i am

> > > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live 

> to far

> > > from

> > > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so 

> messed

> > > up...what

> > > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and 

> tell them

> > > all

> > > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and 

> drive on

> > > soldier

> > > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are 

> the cards

> > > dealt

> > > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am 

> pissy i am sad

> > > i

> > > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone 

> in my

> > > family

> > > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. 

> you all and

> > > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to 

> that dont

> > > sugarcoat

> > > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just 

> needed to

> > > get

> > > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week 

> cause i

> > > dont

> > > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry 

> with the sick

> > > ones

> > > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i 

> wanna lay in

> > > the

> > > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand 

> soaking up

> > > the

> > > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. 

> who wouldnt

> > > be

> > > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys 

> world its

> > > me

> > > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that 

> sounds

> > > selfish

> > > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe 

> trying to tell

> > > me?

> > > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i 

> am tired

> > > for

> > > > > crying out loud!!

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > > ------------------------------------

> > > > >

> > > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > > web address:

> > > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > > >

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Hi Bonnie,

I had Hepatitis C and had a transplant. I've done the treatment for the Hep C

since the transplant and am undetectable. When I was evaluated for a transplant

in August 2007, my Meld score was 22. I got on the list on December 5, 2007 and

my Meld was 21. I had my transplant on January 6, 2008 and my Meld score was

29. I was tired all of the time and would fall asleep at weird times. I had

fluid in the belly (ascites) which I had drained, edema in the legs and ankles,

varices in the esophogus and belly button which caused a hernia in my belly

button. My ammonia wasn't very high so I didn't have a lot of " craziness " . I

forgot things a lot, though. I had hypertension in the portal vein as well. I

really got sick about a month and a half before my transplant. I couldn't

hardly eat or drink. I drank Carnation Instant Breakfast when I could. I threw

up at least once a day, usually more than that. I was really weak and dizzy, I

could hardly walk around the house. Taking a shower made me nauseous and I

needed a stool to sit on to take a shower. A day before my transplant, the

doctors told me that I would need a live donor to donate part of their liver in

order for me to survive long enough to get a cadavre liver. With Hepatitis C a

live donor liver won't last long since the Hep C would damage it quickly, so a

second transplant would be needed. Luckily, the next day a match was found. I

was in the hospital for 2 weeks before my transplant since I wasn't stable

enough to go home. I spent 10 days in the hospital after the transplant. I'm

doing great now, so don't give up. He can get his life back. You need to get

him an appointment with a transplant hospital to be evaluated for a transplant.

Take care.

Penny

> > > > >

> > > > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i

am

> > > > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow

want

> > > > scan

> > > > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he

forgets i

> > > > fed

> > > > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass

of

> > > > in

> > > > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he

doesnt

> > > > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it

is i

> > > > am

> > > > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > > > for a

> > > > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > > > ...hes

> > > > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > > > out

> > > > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > > > the

> > > > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to

cont.

> > > > on i

> > > > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > > > ocean

> > > > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > > > elsie and

> > > > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > > > from

> > > > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > > > up...what

> > > > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell

them

> > > > all

> > > > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > > > soldier

> > > > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > > > dealt

> > > > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am

sad

> > > > i

> > > > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > > > family

> > > > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all

and

> > > > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > > > sugarcoat

> > > > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed

to

> > > > get

> > > > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > > > dont

> > > > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the

sick

> > > > ones

> > > > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay

in

> > > > the

> > > > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking

up

> > > > the

> > > > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who

wouldnt

> > > > be

> > > > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world

its

> > > > me

> > > > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > > > selfish

> > > > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to

tell

> > > > me?

> > > > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am

tired

> > > > for

> > > > > > crying out loud!!

> > > > > >

> > > > > >

> > > > > >

> > > > > > ------------------------------------

> > > > > >

> > > > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > > > web address:

> > > > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > > > >

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Thanks for that info Mike, we live in Texas also, near Mcallen, about 4 hours

away, I think. I made him get up and go see his brother and write up a power of

attorney for us today, but he was really dragging after that. I'm glad your

doing so good. How old are you? How old were you when you were at a MELD of

13? Thanks, Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 11:30:15 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

I was Tired alot with a score of 13 and I also wanted to sleep. Yes, I had great

insurance through my job. I't kinda suxs though cause I was working overseas on

the oil rigs rotating 35 on and 35 off. I am in great shape again and have

regained about 90% of my muscle mass back but due to the extreme chemicals and

working conditions the doctors will not allow me to go back. I had some

complications about a year ago. I started rejecting 3 years after having the

transplant with a score of 11 and was put back on the transplant list. But with

will power and detremination I got myself back to a score of 4 which they say is

norm. He has to not let this control him. I have land and critters that need

taken care of and I made it a point to get up and feed them and climb on the

riding lawn mower a mow. We are all different but dont let him just lay down and

let this get the best of him. I live in Houston and if ever you need to talk and

ask questions please dont

hesitate. Oh, yeah. I was also apart of a support group where we would meet

twice a week and I didn't want to go but went and you would be amazed at the

help and support these group have. If you can find one please you and him go.

Mike

>

>

> Subject: Re: need to vent

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 8:00 PM

>

> Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate

> it.

> Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to

> the

> hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has

> cirhossis

> and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist

> said that

> even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

> platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots.

> He is

> using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the

> hospital

> and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He

> is so

> tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said

> that a med

> rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He

> has

> applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an

> ultrasound, all of

> the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we

> were very

> stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver

> transplant. Can

> someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i

> realize is

> different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He

> is 54 years

> old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the

> side effects,

> like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate.

> Thanks Bonnie

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

>

> > > >

> > > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont

> mind. i am

> > > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr.

> tommorrow want

> > > scan

> > > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2.

> he forgets i

> > > fed

> > > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his

> empty glass of

> > > in

> > > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was

> friday our

> > > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party

> he doesnt

> > > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what

> ever it is i

> > > am

> > > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be

> expected

> > > for a

> > > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is

> wearing me out

> > > ...hes

> > > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes

> in time

> > > out

> > > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i

> dont know.

> > > the

> > > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i

> have to cont.

> > > on i

> > > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be

> at the

> > > ocean

> > > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the

> walk with

> > > elsie and

> > > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am

> confused i am

> > > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live

> to far

> > > from

> > > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so

> messed

> > > up...what

> > > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and

> tell them

> > > all

> > > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and

> drive on

> > > soldier

> > > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are

> the cards

> > > dealt

> > > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am

> pissy i am sad

> > > i

> > > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone

> in my

> > > family

> > > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone.

> you all and

> > > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to

> that dont

> > > sugarcoat

> > > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just

> needed to

> > > get

> > > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week

> cause i

> > > dont

> > > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry

> with the sick

> > > ones

> > > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i

> wanna lay in

> > > the

> > > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand

> soaking up

> > > the

> > > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me.

> who wouldnt

> > > be

> > > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys

> world its

> > > me

> > > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that

> sounds

> > > selfish

> > > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe

> trying to tell

> > > me?

> > > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i

> am tired

> > > for

> > > > > crying out loud!!

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > > ------------------------------------

> > > > >

> > > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > > web address:

> > > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > > >

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Awe thanks so much Jackie for your answers..very helpful. Just waiting to hear

if he will be approved with social security........apparently they have made

their decision, but need to " mail " it to us, and wont tell us over the phone.

His labs have been within ss guidelines for disability. He has an attorney so,

we shall see. I will definitely be checking this forum often as it really is

informative, with real live people who give great advice. thank you to you all.

Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:02:30 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Hi Bonnie: Insurance from social security is Medicare and they do pay for

transplant. They pay 80% and you will need a prescription plan too for his meds

after transplant. My husband has a program called Secure RX that covers his

meds, but right now we are in the " donut hole " where we have used up benefits

for the year. My husband and twin sons belong to our local fire co. The fire

co had a benefit breakfast for my husband and raised $6,000 which we are using

for his meds. People want to help and are good. Your first step is to get your

husband evaluated at a transplant center. They will do lots of tests and a lot

of bloodwork. He will have bloodwork repeated often, which will determine his

meld score. Depending on how sick he gets, his meld score will climb which will

determine his placement on the list. My husband went from being on the

in-active list to being #2 at Hershey Medical Center (in PA) in two weeks.

During that time

he had 2 offers for livers. One was un-usable and the other went to someone

ahead of him on the list. He was called in a total of 5 times and on the 6th

call he got a liver. That was on May 26th. I am hoping and praying for your

husband, as miracles do happen. Your anger and outrage is good. Use it to be

pro-active and a good advocate for your husband. Learn all you can and show

those drs how well informed you are. I used to joke with the drs and tell them

that if they could give me a good reason why my husband couldn't get a liver

that I would crawl under the rock from whence I came and never bother them

again, but it would have to be a very good reason. I'm not going away till he

gets a liver. They must have thought 'oh, God! Get that guy a liver so she

will go away!' (LOL) Hershey is the 2nd center we went to. The 1st one, in

all fairness to them I shouldn't mention, but the head guy was mean. He acted

like we had some

nerve being there. Did you ever watch House, MD? Well, I actually called this

guy Dr. House to his face! I think he took it as a compliment. (LOL) I know

your main question is 'how long does he have?' and no one except God knows the

answer to that, and your other question is 'what happens next?' God gives us

the strength to deal with these things one step at a time. You will find new

ways to care for him as he waits for a new liver. That's how it goes--one day

at a time. Stay with us and give us frequent updates. We will be able to help

you in each step on this journey. Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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Hi Bonnie:  We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who operated

on my husband.  I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best

place to learn, from real live people.  My husband got social security

disability after his open heart surgery in 2004.  He had lost his job in Sept.

of 2003 and was getting unemployment.  Ironically, his last unemployment check

came the day before his open heart surgery.  At that time he was 59 and I

figured if he applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting

it.  Who would hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems?  It took

awhile, and thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of.  Once he got

his disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled.  It sounds

like your husband may get disability.  I sure hope so.  Maybe it will be

retro-active like my husband's was.  You will be ok.  These things have a way

of working themselves out. 

My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement. 

He got a good report from the surgeons today.  His liver is functioning real

good and they even decreased some of the meds.  I'm keeping you and your

husband in my prayers.  Let me hear from you soon.  Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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Jackie thanks for the encouragement. To the lady who spoke about

Hepatatic Encephalopathy, My dad was an alcoholic, and one day he just started

taking apart the house, pulling out nails, tearing off the walls in his own

little world. that was 1983. She had him committed, he wasnt drinking, but his

ammonia levels were very high. He didnt even know she was there. But from what

i have learned from the people on this forum and from watching my own husbands

ammonia levels increase that he gets very tired and it can lead to longer and

longer sleeping, lethargy etc. Why dont you google " wet brain " . I bet that

would give you some info. Just a thought. Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who operated on

my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best place

to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003 and

was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the day

before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who would

hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds like

your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be retro-active

like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

themselves out.

My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement. He

got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real good

and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband in

my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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Bonnie,

Thank you, I have looked up " wet brain " , from my understanding it says

that a person becomes confused and slips into a coma, they don't violently

murder someone. Has anyone heard of someone killing another?  I need all

 the information I can find on the symptoms,etc of cirrhosis and hepatic

encephalopathy. What type of medical specialist deals with this illness?

Thank you, this communication is wonderful, god bless

Laurinda

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 8:44:00 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

 

Jackie thanks for the encouragement. To the lady who spoke about

Hepatatic Encephalopathy, My dad was an alcoholic, and one day he just started

taking apart the house, pulling out nails, tearing off the walls in his own

little world. that was 1983. She had him committed, he wasnt drinking, but his

ammonia levels were very high. He didnt even know she was there. But from what

i have learned from the people on this forum and from watching my own husbands

ammonia levels increase that he gets very tired and it can lead to longer and

longer sleeping, lethargy etc. Why dont you google " wet brain " . I bet that

would give you some info. Just a thought. Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who operated on

my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best place

to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003 and

was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the day

before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who would

hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds like

your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be retro-active

like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

themselves out.

My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement. He

got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real good

and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband in

my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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Jackie, thanks for telling me about the disability that is good to know. I am

glad he is doing better. The thing that my husband does is gets up in the

morning, does what he must do, because he tires so quickly. Also, if he stays

on his feet for more than an hour they just swell up, last time they swelled so

much he got admitted for sepsis and was in for four days on IV vancomycin etc

etc. I hope he gets up more though, he just lays around except for his

appointments. Anyway, Thanks Jackie for the info about SS. Thanks also for the

prayers. Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who operated on

my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best place

to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003 and

was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the day

before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who would

hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds like

your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be retro-active

like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

themselves out.

My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement. He

got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real good

and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband in

my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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Wet brain is also known as Wernike Korsikoff syndrome, and is NOT the same as

portal systemic encephalopathy. The chart in the following article does include

Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

Please read this article for the best information. Love, Bobby

http://www.merck.com/mmpe/sec03/ch022/ch022g.html

0 (subclinical)

Asymptomatic loss of cognitive abilities

None

1

Sleep disturbances

Impaired concentration

Depression, anxiety, or irritability

Monotone voice

Tremor

Poor handwriting

Constructional apraxia

2

Drowsiness

Disorientation

Poor short-term memory

Disinhibited behavior

Ataxia

Dysarthria

Asterixis

Automatisms (eg, yawning, blinking, sucking)

3

Somnolence

Confusion

Amnesia

Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

Nystagmus

Muscular rigidity

Hyperreflexia or hyporeflexia

4

Coma

Dilated pupils

Oculocephalic or oculovestibular reflexes

Decerebrate posturing

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 10:53:46 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Bonnie,

Thank you, I have looked up " wet brain " , from my understanding it says

that a person becomes confused and slips into a coma, they don't violently

murder someone. Has anyone heard of someone killing another? I need all

the information I can find on the symptoms,etc of cirrhosis and hepatic

encephalopathy. What type of medical specialist deals with this illness?

Thank you, this communication is wonderful, god bless

Laurinda

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 8:44:00 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Jackie thanks for the encouragement. To the lady who spoke about

Hepatatic Encephalopathy, My dad was an alcoholic, and one day he just started

taking apart the house, pulling out nails, tearing off the walls in his own

little world. that was 1983. She had him committed, he wasnt drinking, but his

ammonia levels were very high. He didnt even know she was there. But from what

i have learned from the people on this forum and from watching my own husbands

ammonia levels increase that he gets very tired and it can lead to longer and

longer sleeping, lethargy etc. Why dont you google " wet brain " . I bet that

would give you some info. Just a thought. Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who operated on

my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best place

to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003 and

was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the day

before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who would

hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds like

your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be retro-active

like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

themselves out.

My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement. He

got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real good

and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband in

my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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Thank you again for all of the information, I have received more in last 12

hours then

I have in 12 months.  I have researched myself but not always sure what I'm

looking at

since this disease is new too me.

This link you just sent said  " Agitation and mania can develop but are

uncommon "

this is

why I get confused.

Can you please tell me what type of medical specialist deals with this illness?

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 3:21:22 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

 

Wet brain is also known as Wernike Korsikoff syndrome, and is NOT the same as

portal systemic encephalopathy. The chart in the following article does include

Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

Please read this article for the best information. Love, Bobby

http://www.merck.com/mmpe/sec03/ch022/ch022g.html

0 (subclinical)

Asymptomatic loss of cognitive abilities

None

1

Sleep disturbances

Impaired concentration

Depression, anxiety, or irritability

Monotone voice

Tremor

Poor handwriting

Constructional apraxia

2

Drowsiness

Disorientation

Poor short-term memory

Disinhibited behavior

Ataxia

Dysarthria

Asterixis

Automatisms (eg, yawning, blinking, sucking)

3

Somnolence

Confusion

Amnesia

Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

Nystagmus

Muscular rigidity

Hyperreflexia or hyporeflexia

4

Coma

Dilated pupils

Oculocephalic or oculovestibular reflexes

Decerebrate posturing

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 10:53:46 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Bonnie,

Thank you, I have looked up " wet brain " , from my understanding it says

that a person becomes confused and slips into a coma, they don't violently

murder someone. Has anyone heard of someone killing another? I need all

the information I can find on the symptoms,etc of cirrhosis and hepatic

encephalopathy. What type of medical specialist deals with this illness?

Thank you, this communication is wonderful, god bless

Laurinda

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 8:44:00 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Jackie thanks for the encouragement. To the lady who spoke about

Hepatatic Encephalopathy, My dad was an alcoholic, and one day he just started

taking apart the house, pulling out nails, tearing off the walls in his own

little world. that was 1983. She had him committed, he wasnt drinking, but his

ammonia levels were very high. He didnt even know she was there. But from what

i have learned from the people on this forum and from watching my own husbands

ammonia levels increase that he gets very tired and it can lead to longer and

longer sleeping, lethargy etc. Why dont you google " wet brain " . I bet that

would give you some info. Just a thought. Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who operated on

my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best place

to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003 and

was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the day

before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who would

hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds like

your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be retro-active

like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

themselves out.

My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement. He

got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real good

and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband in

my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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hi bonnie and jackie.

my finacial counselor at my liver center gave me lots of good advice to you can

get help thru a group called nft for liver tps. at www.transplants.org and

bring up nft and you can call them and sign up for free and they will help you

raise money for medical and medicine after the tp.imy counselor there is kay

horne she is great and the whole staff are very helpful to raise funds.weather

you have ins. or not they can help. also your drs officxe may recomend someone

to that work with.my social worker also gives me lots of advice and help dealing

with some of the ups and downs.but i have found the web groups are much more

informative because they are people who have been though the same things. has

anyone out there every had to have a heart cath from the neck into the artery

with a stent thats what i now need they will due it on monday.

eelivercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 2:05:47 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Jackie, thanks for telling me about the disability that is good to know. I am

glad he is doing better. The thing that my husband does is gets up in the

morning, does what he must do, because he tires so quickly. Also, if he stays

on his feet for more than an hour they just swell up, last time they swelled so

much he got admitted for sepsis and was in for four days on IV vancomycin etc

etc. I hope he gets up more though, he just lays around except for his

appointments. Anyway, Thanks Jackie for the info about SS. Thanks also for the

prayers. Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who operated on

my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best place

to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003 and

was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the day

before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who would

hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds like

your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be retro-active

like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

themselves out.

My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement. He

got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real good

and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband in

my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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Wow,that neck cath is a new for me, I have had 17 or 19 groin caths kow

they do them in the arm sometimes. You might want to find a group which

specializes in cath procedures. I belong to a heart group but it is

basically for people who have had bypasses. If you can't find one, let me

know. Jan

On Sat, Aug 28, 2010 at 8:44 AM, Beverly Hurlock

wrote:

> hi bonnie and jackie.

>

> my finacial counselor at my liver center gave me lots of good advice to you

> can

> get help thru a group called nft for liver tps. at www.transplants.organd

> bring up nft and you can call them and sign up for free and they will help

> you

> raise money for medical and medicine after the tp.imy counselor there is

> kay

> horne she is great and the whole staff are very helpful to raise

> funds.weather

> you have ins. or not they can help. also your drs officxe may recomend

> someone

> to that work with.my social worker also gives me lots of advice and help

> dealing

> with some of the ups and downs.but i have found the web groups are much

> more

> informative because they are people who have been though the same things.

> has

> anyone out there every had to have a heart cath from the neck into the

> artery

> with a stent thats what i now need they will due it on monday.

>

> eelivercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 2:05:47 AM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

>

> Jackie, thanks for telling me about the disability that is good to know. I

> am

> glad he is doing better. The thing that my husband does is gets up in the

> morning, does what he must do, because he tires so quickly. Also, if he

> stays

> on his feet for more than an hour they just swell up, last time they

> swelled so

> much he got admitted for sepsis and was in for four days on IV vancomycin

> etc

> etc. I hope he gets up more though, he just lays around except for his

> appointments. Anyway, Thanks Jackie for the info about SS. Thanks also for

> the

> prayers. Bonnie

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who

> operated on

>

> my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best

> place

> to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

> after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003

> and

> was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the

> day

> before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

> applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who

> would

> hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

> thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

> disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds

> like

>

> your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be

> retro-active

>

> like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

> themselves out.

> My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement.

> He

> got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real

> good

> and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband

> in

> my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

>

>

>

>

> Subject: Re: need to vent

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

>

> Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

> Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

> hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has

> cirhossis

> and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said

> that

> even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

> platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

> using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the

> hospital

> and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

> tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

> rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

> applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all

> of

> the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were

> very

> stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant.

> Can

> someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize

> is

> different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54

> years

> old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side

> effects,

> like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks

> Bonnie

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

>

> > > >

> > > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i

> am

> > > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow

> want

> > > scan

> > > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he

> forgets i

> > > fed

> > > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass

> of

> > > in

> > > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he

> doesnt

> > > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it

> is i

> > > am

> > > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be

> expected

> > > for a

> > > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me

> out

> > > ...hes

> > > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in

> time

> > > out

> > > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont

> know.

> > > the

> > > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to

> cont.

> > > on i

> > > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > > ocean

> > > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > > elsie and

> > > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > > from

> > > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > > up...what

> > > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell

> them

> > > all

> > > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive

> on

> > > soldier

> > > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the

> cards

> > > dealt

> > > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am

> sad

> > > i

> > > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > > family

> > > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all

> and

> > > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > > sugarcoat

> > > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed

> to

> > > get

> > > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause

> i

> > > dont

> > > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the

> sick

> > > ones

> > > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay

> in

> > > the

> > > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking

> up

> > > the

> > > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who

> wouldnt

> > > be

> > > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world

> its

> > > me

> > > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > > selfish

> > > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to

> tell

> > > me?

> > > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am

> tired

> > > for

> > > > > crying out loud!!

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > > ------------------------------------

> > > > >

> > > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > > web address:

> > > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > > >

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Thank you Beverly, I will follow your advice. Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 10:44:48 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

hi bonnie and jackie.

my finacial counselor at my liver center gave me lots of good advice to you can

get help thru a group called nft for liver tps. at www.transplants.org and

bring up nft and you can call them and sign up for free and they will help you

raise money for medical and medicine after the tp.imy counselor there is kay

horne she is great and the whole staff are very helpful to raise funds.weather

you have ins. or not they can help. also your drs officxe may recomend someone

to that work with.my social worker also gives me lots of advice and help dealing

with some of the ups and downs.but i have found the web groups are much more

informative because they are people who have been though the same things. has

anyone out there every had to have a heart cath from the neck into the artery

with a stent thats what i now need they will due it on monday.

eelivercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 2:05:47 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Jackie, thanks for telling me about the disability that is good to know. I am

glad he is doing better. The thing that my husband does is gets up in the

morning, does what he must do, because he tires so quickly. Also, if he stays

on his feet for more than an hour they just swell up, last time they swelled so

much he got admitted for sepsis and was in for four days on IV vancomycin etc

etc. I hope he gets up more though, he just lays around except for his

appointments. Anyway, Thanks Jackie for the info about SS. Thanks also for the

prayers. Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who operated on

my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best place

to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003 and

was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the day

before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who would

hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds like

your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be retro-active

like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

themselves out.

My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement. He

got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real good

and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband in

my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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jan ,why did you have to have so many?they told me they have to go thru the neck

and place a stent in which is going to help the liver process the fluid build

up.they are going to do it at the hosp. cardio center so if something goes wrong

they can get me to the hosp right then.and this has just started because when i

went for evaluation my heart was in perfect shape which was good they said for

the tp now this.my liver dr said i am his problem child he can't understand some

of the problems i am having.and my husband is not very understanding and won't

learn more about this disease.my son takes me back and forth to the drs.they

won't let me drive because of my forgetfullness and dizzie spells.do they give

you heart medications after the cath. i hope its nothing that would keep me from

getting a tp.sometimes now i feel like just quiting my meds and just give up.but

then one of my online friends will give me a kick in butt to get me back on

track.yhanks for listening.

bev,tx

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 3:59:22 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Wow,that neck cath is a new for me, I have had 17 or 19 groin caths kow

they do them in the arm sometimes. You might want to find a group which

specializes in cath procedures. I belong to a heart group but it is

basically for people who have had bypasses. If you can't find one, let me

know. Jan

On Sat, Aug 28, 2010 at 8:44 AM, Beverly Hurlock

wrote:

> hi bonnie and jackie.

>

> my finacial counselor at my liver center gave me lots of good advice to you

> can

> get help thru a group called nft for liver tps. at www.transplants.organd

> bring up nft and you can call them and sign up for free and they will help

> you

> raise money for medical and medicine after the tp.imy counselor there is

> kay

> horne she is great and the whole staff are very helpful to raise

> funds.weather

> you have ins. or not they can help. also your drs officxe may recomend

> someone

> to that work with.my social worker also gives me lots of advice and help

> dealing

> with some of the ups and downs.but i have found the web groups are much

> more

> informative because they are people who have been though the same things.

> has

> anyone out there every had to have a heart cath from the neck into the

> artery

> with a stent thats what i now need they will due it on monday.

>

> eelivercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 2:05:47 AM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

>

> Jackie, thanks for telling me about the disability that is good to know. I

> am

> glad he is doing better. The thing that my husband does is gets up in the

> morning, does what he must do, because he tires so quickly. Also, if he

> stays

> on his feet for more than an hour they just swell up, last time they

> swelled so

> much he got admitted for sepsis and was in for four days on IV vancomycin

> etc

> etc. I hope he gets up more though, he just lays around except for his

> appointments. Anyway, Thanks Jackie for the info about SS. Thanks also for

> the

> prayers. Bonnie

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who

> operated on

>

> my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best

> place

> to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

> after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003

> and

> was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the

> day

> before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

> applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who

> would

> hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

> thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

> disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds

> like

>

> your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be

> retro-active

>

> like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

> themselves out.

> My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement.

> He

> got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real

> good

> and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband

> in

> my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

>

>

>

>

> Subject: Re: need to vent

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

>

> Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

> Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

> hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has

> cirhossis

> and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said

> that

> even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

> platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

> using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the

> hospital

> and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

> tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

> rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

> applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all

> of

> the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were

> very

> stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant.

> Can

> someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize

> is

> different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54

> years

> old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side

> effects,

> like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks

> Bonnie

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

>

> > > >

> > > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i

> am

> > > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow

> want

> > > scan

> > > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he

> forgets i

> > > fed

> > > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass

> of

> > > in

> > > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he

> doesnt

> > > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it

> is i

> > > am

> > > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be

> expected

> > > for a

> > > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me

> out

> > > ...hes

> > > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in

> time

> > > out

> > > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont

> know.

> > > the

> > > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to

> cont.

> > > on i

> > > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > > ocean

> > > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > > elsie and

> > > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > > from

> > > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > > up...what

> > > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell

> them

> > > all

> > > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive

> on

> > > soldier

> > > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the

> cards

> > > dealt

> > > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am

> sad

> > > i

> > > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > > family

> > > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all

> and

> > > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > > sugarcoat

> > > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed

> to

> > > get

> > > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause

> i

> > > dont

> > > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the

> sick

> > > ones

> > > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay

> in

> > > the

> > > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking

> up

> > > the

> > > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who

> wouldnt

> > > be

> > > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world

> its

> > > me

> > > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > > selfish

> > > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to

> tell

> > > me?

> > > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am

> tired

> > > for

> > > > > crying out loud!!

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > > ------------------------------------

> > > > >

> > > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > > web address:

> > > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > > >

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A hepatologist, and sometimes a gastrointerologist. Certainly temporary insanity

which has been used frivolously should be considered if the person has no other

criminal record, and if they do have biopsy confirmed cirrhosis. Love, Bobby

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 8:09:22 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Thank you again for all of the information, I have received more in last 12

hours then

I have in 12 months. I have researched myself but not always sure what I'm

looking at

since this disease is new too me.

This link you just sent said " Agitation and mania can develop but are uncommon "

this is

why I get confused.

Can you please tell me what type of medical specialist deals with this illness?

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 3:21:22 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Wet brain is also known as Wernike Korsikoff syndrome, and is NOT the same as

portal systemic encephalopathy. The chart in the following article does include

Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

Please read this article for the best information. Love, Bobby

http://www.merck.com/mmpe/sec03/ch022/ch022g.html

0 (subclinical)

Asymptomatic loss of cognitive abilities

None

1

Sleep disturbances

Impaired concentration

Depression, anxiety, or irritability

Monotone voice

Tremor

Poor handwriting

Constructional apraxia

2

Drowsiness

Disorientation

Poor short-term memory

Disinhibited behavior

Ataxia

Dysarthria

Asterixis

Automatisms (eg, yawning, blinking, sucking)

3

Somnolence

Confusion

Amnesia

Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

Nystagmus

Muscular rigidity

Hyperreflexia or hyporeflexia

4

Coma

Dilated pupils

Oculocephalic or oculovestibular reflexes

Decerebrate posturing

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 10:53:46 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Bonnie,

Thank you, I have looked up " wet brain " , from my understanding it says

that a person becomes confused and slips into a coma, they don't violently

murder someone. Has anyone heard of someone killing another? I need all

the information I can find on the symptoms,etc of cirrhosis and hepatic

encephalopathy. What type of medical specialist deals with this illness?

Thank you, this communication is wonderful, god bless

Laurinda

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To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 8:44:00 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Jackie thanks for the encouragement. To the lady who spoke about

Hepatatic Encephalopathy, My dad was an alcoholic, and one day he just started

taking apart the house, pulling out nails, tearing off the walls in his own

little world. that was 1983. She had him committed, he wasnt drinking, but his

ammonia levels were very high. He didnt even know she was there. But from what

i have learned from the people on this forum and from watching my own husbands

ammonia levels increase that he gets very tired and it can lead to longer and

longer sleeping, lethargy etc. Why dont you google " wet brain " . I bet that

would give you some info. Just a thought. Bonnie

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To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who operated on

my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best place

to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003 and

was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the day

before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who would

hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds like

your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be retro-active

like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

themselves out.

My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement. He

got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real good

and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband in

my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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Beverly, I can't tell you from experience what they will do after your cath

procedure. Mine were all for the arteries, blocked. I have 7 stents in my

heart one in my left shoulder, scapular artery and one in my right iliac

crossing over the aorta.I take blood pressure meds, placque reducing meds,

angina meds, blood thinners meds, meds to stop blood clots and lots of other

meds for other conditions, some cause by other meds, like my gout.

My doctor has never done an angiogram and angioplasty on the same day. My

kidneys are deteriorating and so don't want to have that dye in there to

long, so for each stent, I have had two procedures, except for the time they

put in two stents the same day, and I have also had a couple angiograms

which showed no blockages. That is when he gave me the xanax. Also had

one before my triple bypass. I have also had a problem with scar tissue

build up around the stents. A little is good as it keeps the stent where it

belongs, but my family has trouble with too much. So then they had to go in

and cut it out. Grew back so he put in another stent between two others,

been fine for years now. They just add up. I just thank God they are

available, or I would be dead.

I would imagine they will have you flat in bed until they know they aren't

going to have a problem with bleeding. They used to use some different

things which required at least 4 hours of being prone, but now they have

plugs they can put in (at least in the arteries) and it takes a lot less

time . You will probably be asked to watch the area where they entered for

a couple of days to make sure it doesn't start bleeding. None of mine

have. The meds I am taking were all prescribed prior to the caths. Some

have changed over the years because they didn't work too well, and others

had side effects I and..or my dr. didn't want to put up with. I wouldn't

expect they woudld give you meds just because you have the cath, but then

your will be quite different than mine.

God bless your son and give your husband a kick where it hurts. A lot of

Men won't believe they need drs., and don't think we do either. I have

spine problems and fibromyalgia, and a blaring tv is actually painful in my

neck and spine, but Ed wouldn't believve me until another man told him it

was possible to have pain from loud sound waves. I ordered him a headphone

set and he is using it tonight for the first time. Thank God, he likes it

or I might have been driven to drastic measures. lol He had a fairly

serious heart attack about a year ago digging up our drain field. he was 76

at the time. He didn't even know it. Told him to hire it done, he had the

money, but insisted on doing it himself. When he had his second attack, he

called me from work, I told him to call 911, but he said he would drive home

himself as soon as he put his tools away. Then when I told him I wasn't

driving him 150 miles to Phoenix to the VA, he said he would drive himself.

I called 911. Stubborn, Man That is when they told him about the first

attack. Now he is upset with me because I broke my left wrist, going for

therpy, but very restricted in movement. He takes me to therapy, but

expects me to do things which it just won[t do yet. Sorry for the

long post, but it is helping me learn to type with both hands on my new

netbook. Love it. Jan

On Sat, Aug 28, 2010 at 6:05 PM, Beverly Hurlock

wrote:

> jan ,why did you have to have so many?they told me they have to go thru the

> neck

> and place a stent in which is going to help the liver process the fluid

> build

> up.they are going to do it at the hosp. cardio center so if something goes

> wrong

> they can get me to the hosp right then.and this has just started because

> when i

> went for evaluation my heart was in perfect shape which was good they said

> for

> the tp now this.my liver dr said i am his problem child he can't understand

> some

> of the problems i am having.and my husband is not very understanding and

> won't

> learn more about this disease.my son takes me back and forth to the

> drs.they

> won't let me drive because of my forgetfullness and dizzie spells.do they

> give

> you heart medications after the cath. i hope its nothing that would keep me

> from

> getting a tp.sometimes now i feel like just quiting my meds and just give

> up.but

> then one of my online friends will give me a kick in butt to get me back on

> track.yhanks for listening.

>

> bev,tx

>

>

>

>

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 3:59:22 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

>

> Wow,that neck cath is a new for me, I have had 17 or 19 groin caths kow

> they do them in the arm sometimes. You might want to find a group which

> specializes in cath procedures. I belong to a heart group but it is

> basically for people who have had bypasses. If you can't find one, let me

> know. Jan

>

> On Sat, Aug 28, 2010 at 8:44 AM, Beverly Hurlock

> wrote:

>

> > hi bonnie and jackie.

> >

> > my finacial counselor at my liver center gave me lots of good advice to

> you

> > can

> > get help thru a group called nft for liver tps. at

> www.transplants.organd

> > bring up nft and you can call them and sign up for free and they will

> help

> > you

> > raise money for medical and medicine after the tp.imy counselor there is

> > kay

> > horne she is great and the whole staff are very helpful to raise

> > funds.weather

> > you have ins. or not they can help. also your drs officxe may recomend

> > someone

> > to that work with.my social worker also gives me lots of advice and help

> > dealing

> > with some of the ups and downs.but i have found the web groups are much

> > more

> > informative because they are people who have been though the same things.

> > has

> > anyone out there every had to have a heart cath from the neck into the

> > artery

> > with a stent thats what i now need they will due it on monday.

> >

> > eelivercirrhosissupport

> > Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 2:05:47 AM

> > Subject: Re: need to vent

> >

> >

> > Jackie, thanks for telling me about the disability that is good to know.

> I

> > am

> > glad he is doing better. The thing that my husband does is gets up in

> the

> > morning, does what he must do, because he tires so quickly. Also, if he

> > stays

> > on his feet for more than an hour they just swell up, last time they

> > swelled so

> > much he got admitted for sepsis and was in for four days on IV vancomycin

> > etc

> > etc. I hope he gets up more though, he just lays around except for his

> > appointments. Anyway, Thanks Jackie for the info about SS. Thanks also

> for

> > the

> > prayers. Bonnie

> >

> > ________________________________

> >

> > To: livercirrhosissupport

> > Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

> > Subject: Re: need to vent

> >

> > Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who

> > operated on

> >

> > my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best

> > place

> > to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security

> disability

> > after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of

> 2003

> > and

> > was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came

> the

> > day

> > before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if

> he

> > applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who

> > would

> > hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile,

> and

> > thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

> > disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It

> sounds

> > like

> >

> > your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be

> > retro-active

> >

> > like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of

> working

> > themselves out.

> > My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy

> retirement.

> > He

> > got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real

> > good

> > and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your

> husband

> > in

> > my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

> >

> >

> >

> >

> > Subject: Re: need to vent

> > To: livercirrhosissupport

> > Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

> >

> > Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

> > Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

> > hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has

> > cirhossis

> > and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said

> > that

> > even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

> > platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

> > using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the

> > hospital

> > and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

> > tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a

> med

> > rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

> > applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all

> > of

> > the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were

> > very

> > stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant.

> > Can

> > someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i

> realize

> > is

> > different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54

> > years

> > old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side

> > effects,

> > like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks

> > Bonnie

> >

> > ________________________________

> >

> > To: livercirrhosissupport

> > Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

> > Subject: Re: need to vent

> >

> > yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> >

> > > > >

> > > > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind.

> i

> > am

> > > > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow

> > want

> > > > scan

> > > > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he

> > forgets i

> > > > fed

> > > > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty

> glass

> > of

> > > > in

> > > > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he

> > doesnt

> > > > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever

> it

> > is i

> > > > am

> > > > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be

> > expected

> > > > for a

> > > > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me

> > out

> > > > ...hes

> > > > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in

> > time

> > > > out

> > > > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont

> > know.

> > > > the

> > > > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to

> > cont.

> > > > on i

> > > > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at

> the

> > > > ocean

> > > > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk

> with

> > > > elsie and

> > > > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i

> am

> > > > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to

> far

> > > > from

> > > > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > > > up...what

> > > > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell

> > them

> > > > all

> > > > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive

> > on

> > > > soldier

> > > > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the

> > cards

> > > > dealt

> > > > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i

> am

> > sad

> > > > i

> > > > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in

> my

> > > > family

> > > > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all

> > and

> > > > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that

> dont

> > > > sugarcoat

> > > > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just

> needed

> > to

> > > > get

> > > > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week

> cause

> > i

> > > > dont

> > > > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the

> > sick

> > > > ones

> > > > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna

> lay

> > in

> > > > the

> > > > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand

> soaking

> > up

> > > > the

> > > > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who

> > wouldnt

> > > > be

> > > > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world

> > its

> > > > me

> > > > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that

> sounds

> > > > selfish

> > > > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to

> > tell

> > > > me?

> > > > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am

> > tired

> > > > for

> > > > > > crying out loud!!

> > > > > >

> > > > > >

> > > > > >

> > > > > > ------------------------------------

> > > > > >

> > > > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > > > web address:

> > > > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > > > >

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Bobby,

Thank you.  My concern is the temporary insanity, can that really be caused

by Cirrhosis?  What is GFR?  Are there any other forms of testing? His

symptoms

 in 2003 was severe ascites and edema, no jaundice or itching. He had chronic

alcoholism from age 8 to 43.  He does self induced daily vomiting, even

today.

Two days prior to the murder he was normal then the day before he starting

talking strange,etc.  

The attorneys want to claim guilty except insane because of " Bipolar " not the

Cirrhosis.

Are these two often compared? This means he will be sent to the mental hospital

and

have the potential of being released for cold blooded murder. At this point this

is my

major concern as he also attempted to murder me at that same time.  Just so you

know

a little more the person he murdered was my 83 yr helpless father.

Thank you again so much for all your information, I can't tell you how helpful

it is and

how grateful I am.

Oh I forgot can daily smoking marijuana be harmful to someone with Cirrhosis?

Can that cause

further symptoms. I would assume it does.  He replaced the alcohol with this

drug, he needed

the daily high.

God Bless,

Laurinda

 

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 7:05:42 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

 

A hepatologist, and sometimes a gastrointerologist. Certainly temporary insanity

which has been used frivolously should be considered if the person has no other

criminal record, and if they do have biopsy confirmed cirrhosis. Love, Bobby

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To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 8:09:22 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Thank you again for all of the information, I have received more in last 12

hours then

I have in 12 months. I have researched myself but not always sure what I'm

looking at

since this disease is new too me.

This link you just sent said " Agitation and mania can develop but are uncommon "

this is

why I get confused.

Can you please tell me what type of medical specialist deals with this illness?

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 3:21:22 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Wet brain is also known as Wernike Korsikoff syndrome, and is NOT the same as

portal systemic encephalopathy. The chart in the following article does include

Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

Please read this article for the best information. Love, Bobby

http://www.merck.com/mmpe/sec03/ch022/ch022g.html

0 (subclinical)

Asymptomatic loss of cognitive abilities

None

1

Sleep disturbances

Impaired concentration

Depression, anxiety, or irritability

Monotone voice

Tremor

Poor handwriting

Constructional apraxia

2

Drowsiness

Disorientation

Poor short-term memory

Disinhibited behavior

Ataxia

Dysarthria

Asterixis

Automatisms (eg, yawning, blinking, sucking)

3

Somnolence

Confusion

Amnesia

Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

Nystagmus

Muscular rigidity

Hyperreflexia or hyporeflexia

4

Coma

Dilated pupils

Oculocephalic or oculovestibular reflexes

Decerebrate posturing

________________________________

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Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 10:53:46 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Bonnie,

Thank you, I have looked up " wet brain " , from my understanding it says

that a person becomes confused and slips into a coma, they don't violently

murder someone. Has anyone heard of someone killing another? I need all

the information I can find on the symptoms,etc of cirrhosis and hepatic

encephalopathy. What type of medical specialist deals with this illness?

Thank you, this communication is wonderful, god bless

Laurinda

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 8:44:00 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Jackie thanks for the encouragement. To the lady who spoke about

Hepatatic Encephalopathy, My dad was an alcoholic, and one day he just started

taking apart the house, pulling out nails, tearing off the walls in his own

little world. that was 1983. She had him committed, he wasnt drinking, but his

ammonia levels were very high. He didnt even know she was there. But from what

i have learned from the people on this forum and from watching my own husbands

ammonia levels increase that he gets very tired and it can lead to longer and

longer sleeping, lethargy etc. Why dont you google " wet brain " . I bet that

would give you some info. Just a thought. Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who operated on

my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best place

to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003 and

was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the day

before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who would

hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds like

your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be retro-active

like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

themselves out.

My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement. He

got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real good

and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband in

my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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Yes. The answer is yes. Temporary insanity can be caused by cirrhosis. Gfr

stands for Glomerular filtration rate, and

is the best overall index of kidney function.

The question is does the person have any other criminal history or prior history

of violence, etc.

Because there is no telling what he thought he was doing, or what he was

thinking when he did this.

I once found my own loved one talking to me on the television remote control

when I walked in to her room at the nursing home. Her cell phone was right there

on a necklace, within reach, but she was completely un aware, and thought the

remote was the phone.

Love, Bobby

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sun, August 29, 2010 8:12:07 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Bobby,

Thank you. My concern is the temporary insanity, can that really be caused

by Cirrhosis? What is GFR? Are there any other forms of testing? His symptoms

in 2003 was severe ascites and edema, no jaundice or itching. He had chronic

alcoholism from age 8 to 43. He does self induced daily vomiting, even today.

Two days prior to the murder he was normal then the day before he starting

talking strange,etc.

The attorneys want to claim guilty except insane because of " Bipolar " not the

Cirrhosis.

Are these two often compared? This means he will be sent to the mental hospital

and

have the potential of being released for cold blooded murder. At this point this

is my

major concern as he also attempted to murder me at that same time. Just so you

know

a little more the person he murdered was my 83 yr helpless father.

Thank you again so much for all your information, I can't tell you how helpful

it is and

how grateful I am.

Oh I forgot can daily smoking marijuana be harmful to someone with Cirrhosis?

Can that cause

further symptoms. I would assume it does. He replaced the alcohol with this

drug, he needed

the daily high.

God Bless,

Laurinda

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 7:05:42 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

A hepatologist, and sometimes a gastrointerologist. Certainly temporary insanity

which has been used frivolously should be considered if the person has no other

criminal record, and if they do have biopsy confirmed cirrhosis. Love, Bobby

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 8:09:22 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Thank you again for all of the information, I have received more in last 12

hours then

I have in 12 months. I have researched myself but not always sure what I'm

looking at

since this disease is new too me.

This link you just sent said " Agitation and mania can develop but are uncommon "

this is

why I get confused.

Can you please tell me what type of medical specialist deals with this illness?

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 3:21:22 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Wet brain is also known as Wernike Korsikoff syndrome, and is NOT the same as

portal systemic encephalopathy. The chart in the following article does include

Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

Please read this article for the best information. Love, Bobby

http://www.merck.com/mmpe/sec03/ch022/ch022g.html

0 (subclinical)

Asymptomatic loss of cognitive abilities

None

1

Sleep disturbances

Impaired concentration

Depression, anxiety, or irritability

Monotone voice

Tremor

Poor handwriting

Constructional apraxia

2

Drowsiness

Disorientation

Poor short-term memory

Disinhibited behavior

Ataxia

Dysarthria

Asterixis

Automatisms (eg, yawning, blinking, sucking)

3

Somnolence

Confusion

Amnesia

Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

Nystagmus

Muscular rigidity

Hyperreflexia or hyporeflexia

4

Coma

Dilated pupils

Oculocephalic or oculovestibular reflexes

Decerebrate posturing

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 10:53:46 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Bonnie,

Thank you, I have looked up " wet brain " , from my understanding it says

that a person becomes confused and slips into a coma, they don't violently

murder someone. Has anyone heard of someone killing another? I need all

the information I can find on the symptoms,etc of cirrhosis and hepatic

encephalopathy. What type of medical specialist deals with this illness?

Thank you, this communication is wonderful, god bless

Laurinda

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 8:44:00 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Jackie thanks for the encouragement. To the lady who spoke about

Hepatatic Encephalopathy, My dad was an alcoholic, and one day he just started

taking apart the house, pulling out nails, tearing off the walls in his own

little world. that was 1983. She had him committed, he wasnt drinking, but his

ammonia levels were very high. He didnt even know she was there. But from what

i have learned from the people on this forum and from watching my own husbands

ammonia levels increase that he gets very tired and it can lead to longer and

longer sleeping, lethargy etc. Why dont you google " wet brain " . I bet that

would give you some info. Just a thought. Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who operated on

my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best place

to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003 and

was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the day

before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who would

hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds like

your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be retro-active

like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

themselves out.

My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement. He

got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real good

and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband in

my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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Bobby,

He has no previous criminal history to my knowledge, however does have previous

violence including

acts of anger/temper, domestic, etc., previous arrests.  I'm being told these

arrests are too old, prior to 2003, murder

occurred in 2009.  He definitely has a history. I met him in 2005, no

indication

of having any psychosis. No prior mental health

issues or treatment. Was receiving disability income for the cirrhosis.

What about illegal drugs like marijuana smoking added to having Cirrhosis?  No

prescribed meds taken.

Thanks again,

Blessings,

Laurinda

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sun, August 29, 2010 4:52:30 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

 

Yes. The answer is yes. Temporary insanity can be caused by cirrhosis. Gfr

stands for Glomerular filtration rate, and

is the best overall index of kidney function.

The question is does the person have any other criminal history or prior history

of violence, etc.

Because there is no telling what he thought he was doing, or what he was

thinking when he did this.

I once found my own loved one talking to me on the television remote control

when I walked in to her room at the nursing home. Her cell phone was right there

on a necklace, within reach, but she was completely un aware, and thought the

remote was the phone.

Love, Bobby

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sun, August 29, 2010 8:12:07 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Bobby,

Thank you. My concern is the temporary insanity, can that really be caused

by Cirrhosis? What is GFR? Are there any other forms of testing? His symptoms

in 2003 was severe ascites and edema, no jaundice or itching. He had chronic

alcoholism from age 8 to 43. He does self induced daily vomiting, even today.

Two days prior to the murder he was normal then the day before he starting

talking strange,etc.

The attorneys want to claim guilty except insane because of " Bipolar " not the

Cirrhosis.

Are these two often compared? This means he will be sent to the mental hospital

and

have the potential of being released for cold blooded murder. At this point this

is my

major concern as he also attempted to murder me at that same time. Just so you

know

a little more the person he murdered was my 83 yr helpless father.

Thank you again so much for all your information, I can't tell you how helpful

it is and

how grateful I am.

Oh I forgot can daily smoking marijuana be harmful to someone with Cirrhosis?

Can that cause

further symptoms. I would assume it does. He replaced the alcohol with this

drug, he needed

the daily high.

God Bless,

Laurinda

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 7:05:42 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

A hepatologist, and sometimes a gastrointerologist. Certainly temporary insanity

which has been used frivolously should be considered if the person has no other

criminal record, and if they do have biopsy confirmed cirrhosis. Love, Bobby

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 8:09:22 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Thank you again for all of the information, I have received more in last 12

hours then

I have in 12 months. I have researched myself but not always sure what I'm

looking at

since this disease is new too me.

This link you just sent said " Agitation and mania can develop but are uncommon "

this is

why I get confused.

Can you please tell me what type of medical specialist deals with this illness?

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 3:21:22 AM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Wet brain is also known as Wernike Korsikoff syndrome, and is NOT the same as

portal systemic encephalopathy. The chart in the following article does include

Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

Please read this article for the best information. Love, Bobby

http://www.merck.com/mmpe/sec03/ch022/ch022g.html

0 (subclinical)

Asymptomatic loss of cognitive abilities

None

1

Sleep disturbances

Impaired concentration

Depression, anxiety, or irritability

Monotone voice

Tremor

Poor handwriting

Constructional apraxia

2

Drowsiness

Disorientation

Poor short-term memory

Disinhibited behavior

Ataxia

Dysarthria

Asterixis

Automatisms (eg, yawning, blinking, sucking)

3

Somnolence

Confusion

Amnesia

Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

Nystagmus

Muscular rigidity

Hyperreflexia or hyporeflexia

4

Coma

Dilated pupils

Oculocephalic or oculovestibular reflexes

Decerebrate posturing

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 10:53:46 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Bonnie,

Thank you, I have looked up " wet brain " , from my understanding it says

that a person becomes confused and slips into a coma, they don't violently

murder someone. Has anyone heard of someone killing another? I need all

the information I can find on the symptoms,etc of cirrhosis and hepatic

encephalopathy. What type of medical specialist deals with this illness?

Thank you, this communication is wonderful, god bless

Laurinda

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 8:44:00 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Jackie thanks for the encouragement. To the lady who spoke about

Hepatatic Encephalopathy, My dad was an alcoholic, and one day he just started

taking apart the house, pulling out nails, tearing off the walls in his own

little world. that was 1983. She had him committed, he wasnt drinking, but his

ammonia levels were very high. He didnt even know she was there. But from what

i have learned from the people on this forum and from watching my own husbands

ammonia levels increase that he gets very tired and it can lead to longer and

longer sleeping, lethargy etc. Why dont you google " wet brain " . I bet that

would give you some info. Just a thought. Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who operated on

my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best place

to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003 and

was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the day

before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who would

hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds like

your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be retro-active

like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

themselves out.

My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement. He

got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real good

and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband in

my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

Subject: Re: need to vent

To: livercirrhosissupport

Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has cirhossis

and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said that

even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the hospital

and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all of

the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were very

stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant. Can

someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize is

different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54 years

old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side effects,

like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks Bonnie

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

> > >

> > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i am

> > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow want

> > scan

> > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he forgets i

> > fed

> > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass of

> > in

> > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he doesnt

> > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it is i

> > am

> > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be expected

> > for a

> > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me out

> > ...hes

> > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in time

> > out

> > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont know.

> > the

> > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to cont.

> > on i

> > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > ocean

> > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > elsie and

> > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > from

> > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > up...what

> > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell them

> > all

> > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive on

> > soldier

> > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the cards

> > dealt

> > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am sad

> > i

> > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > family

> > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all and

> > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > sugarcoat

> > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed to

> > get

> > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause i

> > dont

> > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the sick

> > ones

> > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay in

> > the

> > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking up

> > the

> > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who wouldnt

> > be

> > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world its

> > me

> > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > selfish

> > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to tell

> > me?

> > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am tired

> > for

> > > > crying out loud!!

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > ------------------------------------

> > > >

> > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > web address:

> > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > >

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If he was receiving disability for cirrhosis in 2005, he must be toward the

end of progression of the disease. I was turned down for disability after

that date when I was in stage four and also had a number of other serious

medical conditions. As to the marijuanna, some prescriptions meds are very

bad for the liver even before the liver is damaged, so I am sure the

marijuanna wouldn't helphis liver, might help with pain, but sounds like he

just has an addictive behavior and just substituted one for another. You

haven't said which way you want to go but since he tried to kill you and did

kill your father I am taking it that you want him locked up for as long as

possilbe. I am not aware what the sentencing guidelines are for insanity,

Could you tell us more about his physical condition then and now. Before I

was diagnosed, I stood in my kithchrn in AZ sure I was in my former home in

MN, aLSO WENT looking for some oreos I believed we had just purchased a

couple of days before and accused Ed of eating them all up and wouldn't

believe we hadn't just bought them until he showed me the receipt for 2

weeks before. Since my diagnosis and orders to cut down on protein, I

haven't had any real trouble. That was more than 10 years ago Other people

have been very careful and gone down hill much faster. So we can't say how

long he will live. If his problem is cirrhosis and they commit him for

bipolar, I am sure those meds won't make his cirrhosis improve.It is

possible he has both. Remember, I am not a doctor just been living with

this disease for quite a while now. For others it is different. Jan

On Sun, Aug 29, 2010 at 8:14 PM, Laurinda Cumming <

laurinda.cumming@...> wrote:

> Bobby,

>

> He has no previous criminal history to my knowledge, however does have

> previous

> violence including

> acts of anger/temper, domestic, etc., previous arrests. I'm being told

> these

> arrests are too old, prior to 2003, murder

> occurred in 2009. He definitely has a history. I met him in 2005, no

> indication

> of having any psychosis. No prior mental health

> issues or treatment. Was receiving disability income for the cirrhosis.

> What about illegal drugs like marijuana smoking added to having

> Cirrhosis? No

> prescribed meds taken.

>

> Thanks again,

> Blessings,

> Laurinda

>

>

>

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Sun, August 29, 2010 4:52:30 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

>

> Yes. The answer is yes. Temporary insanity can be caused by cirrhosis. Gfr

> stands for Glomerular filtration rate, and

>

> is the best overall index of kidney function.

> The question is does the person have any other criminal history or prior

> history

>

> of violence, etc.

> Because there is no telling what he thought he was doing, or what he was

> thinking when he did this.

>

> I once found my own loved one talking to me on the television remote

> control

> when I walked in to her room at the nursing home. Her cell phone was right

> there

>

> on a necklace, within reach, but she was completely un aware, and thought

> the

> remote was the phone.

> Love, Bobby

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Sun, August 29, 2010 8:12:07 AM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Bobby,

>

> Thank you. My concern is the temporary insanity, can that really be caused

> by Cirrhosis? What is GFR? Are there any other forms of testing? His

> symptoms

> in 2003 was severe ascites and edema, no jaundice or itching. He had

> chronic

> alcoholism from age 8 to 43. He does self induced daily vomiting, even

> today.

> Two days prior to the murder he was normal then the day before he starting

> talking strange,etc.

>

> The attorneys want to claim guilty except insane because of " Bipolar " not

> the

> Cirrhosis.

> Are these two often compared? This means he will be sent to the mental

> hospital

> and

> have the potential of being released for cold blooded murder. At this point

> this

>

>

> is my

>

> major concern as he also attempted to murder me at that same time. Just so

> you

> know

> a little more the person he murdered was my 83 yr helpless father.

>

> Thank you again so much for all your information, I can't tell you how

> helpful

> it is and

> how grateful I am.

> Oh I forgot can daily smoking marijuana be harmful to someone with

> Cirrhosis?

> Can that cause

>

> further symptoms. I would assume it does. He replaced the alcohol with this

> drug, he needed

>

> the daily high.

>

> God Bless,

> Laurinda

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 7:05:42 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> A hepatologist, and sometimes a gastrointerologist. Certainly temporary

> insanity

>

>

> which has been used frivolously should be considered if the person has no

> other

> criminal record, and if they do have biopsy confirmed cirrhosis. Love,

> Bobby

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 8:09:22 AM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Thank you again for all of the information, I have received more in last 12

> hours then

> I have in 12 months. I have researched myself but not always sure what I'm

> looking at

> since this disease is new too me.

> This link you just sent said " Agitation and mania can develop but are

> uncommon "

>

> this is

> why I get confused.

> Can you please tell me what type of medical specialist deals with this

> illness?

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 3:21:22 AM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Wet brain is also known as Wernike Korsikoff syndrome, and is NOT the same

> as

> portal systemic encephalopathy. The chart in the following article does

> include

> Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

>

> Please read this article for the best information. Love, Bobby

>

> http://www.merck.com/mmpe/sec03/ch022/ch022g.html

>

> 0 (subclinical)

>

> Asymptomatic loss of cognitive abilities

>

> None

>

> 1

>

> Sleep disturbances

>

> Impaired concentration

>

> Depression, anxiety, or irritability

>

> Monotone voice

>

> Tremor

>

> Poor handwriting

>

> Constructional apraxia

>

> 2

>

> Drowsiness

>

> Disorientation

>

> Poor short-term memory

>

> Disinhibited behavior

>

> Ataxia

>

> Dysarthria

>

> Asterixis

>

> Automatisms (eg, yawning, blinking, sucking)

>

> 3

>

> Somnolence

>

> Confusion

>

> Amnesia

>

> Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

>

> Nystagmus

>

> Muscular rigidity

>

> Hyperreflexia or hyporeflexia

>

> 4

>

> Coma

>

> Dilated pupils

>

> Oculocephalic or oculovestibular reflexes

>

> Decerebrate posturing

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 10:53:46 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Bonnie,

>

> Thank you, I have looked up " wet brain " , from my understanding it says

> that a person becomes confused and slips into a coma, they don't violently

> murder someone. Has anyone heard of someone killing another? I need all

> the information I can find on the symptoms,etc of cirrhosis and hepatic

> encephalopathy. What type of medical specialist deals with this illness?

>

> Thank you, this communication is wonderful, god bless

> Laurinda

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 8:44:00 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Jackie thanks for the encouragement. To the lady who spoke about

> Hepatatic Encephalopathy, My dad was an alcoholic, and one day he just

> started

> taking apart the house, pulling out nails, tearing off the walls in his own

> little world. that was 1983. She had him committed, he wasnt drinking, but

> his

> ammonia levels were very high. He didnt even know she was there. But from

> what

> i have learned from the people on this forum and from watching my own

> husbands

> ammonia levels increase that he gets very tired and it can lead to longer

> and

> longer sleeping, lethargy etc. Why dont you google " wet brain " . I bet that

> would give you some info. Just a thought. Bonnie

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who

> operated on

> my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best

> place

> to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

> after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003

> and

> was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the

> day

> before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

> applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who

> would

> hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

> thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

> disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds

> like

> your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be

> retro-active

> like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

> themselves out.

> My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement.

> He

> got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real

> good

> and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband

> in

> my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

>

>

>

>

> Subject: Re: need to vent

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

>

> Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

> Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

> hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has

> cirhossis

> and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said

> that

> even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

> platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

> using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the

> hospital

> and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

> tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

> rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

> applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all

> of

> the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were

> very

> stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant.

> Can

> someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize

> is

> different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54

> years

> old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side

> effects,

> like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks

> Bonnie

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

>

> > > >

> > > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i

> am

> > > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow

> want

> > > scan

> > > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he

> forgets i

> > > fed

> > > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass

> of

> > > in

> > > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he

> doesnt

> > > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it

> is i

> > > am

> > > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be

> expected

> > > for a

> > > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me

> out

> > > ...hes

> > > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in

> time

> > > out

> > > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont

> know.

> > > the

> > > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to

> cont.

> > > on i

> > > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > > ocean

> > > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > > elsie and

> > > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > > from

> > > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > > up...what

> > > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell

> them

> > > all

> > > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive

> on

> > > soldier

> > > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the

> cards

> > > dealt

> > > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am

> sad

> > > i

> > > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > > family

> > > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all

> and

> > > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > > sugarcoat

> > > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed

> to

> > > get

> > > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause

> i

> > > dont

> > > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the

> sick

> > > ones

> > > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay

> in

> > > the

> > > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking

> up

> > > the

> > > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who

> wouldnt

> > > be

> > > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world

> its

> > > me

> > > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > > selfish

> > > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to

> tell

> > > me?

> > > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am

> tired

> > > for

> > > > > crying out loud!!

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > > ------------------------------------

> > > > >

> > > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > > web address:

> > > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > > >

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I'd have to agree with Jan. I think marajuana isnt going to help the situation

at all. This is very very scary for someone with this disease to contemplate.

And in my opinion, Jan, you were supposed to get full SSDI long ago. Some times

people fall through the cracks. I sure wish it hadnt been you. Love, Bobby

________________________________

To: livercirrhosissupport

Sent: Sun, August 29, 2010 11:34:37 PM

Subject: Re: need to vent

If he was receiving disability for cirrhosis in 2005, he must be toward the

end of progression of the disease. I was turned down for disability after

that date when I was in stage four and also had a number of other serious

medical conditions. As to the marijuanna, some prescriptions meds are very

bad for the liver even before the liver is damaged, so I am sure the

marijuanna wouldn't helphis liver, might help with pain, but sounds like he

just has an addictive behavior and just substituted one for another. You

haven't said which way you want to go but since he tried to kill you and did

kill your father I am taking it that you want him locked up for as long as

possilbe. I am not aware what the sentencing guidelines are for insanity,

Could you tell us more about his physical condition then and now. Before I

was diagnosed, I stood in my kithchrn in AZ sure I was in my former home in

MN, aLSO WENT looking for some oreos I believed we had just purchased a

couple of days before and accused Ed of eating them all up and wouldn't

believe we hadn't just bought them until he showed me the receipt for 2

weeks before. Since my diagnosis and orders to cut down on protein, I

haven't had any real trouble. That was more than 10 years ago Other people

have been very careful and gone down hill much faster. So we can't say how

long he will live. If his problem is cirrhosis and they commit him for

bipolar, I am sure those meds won't make his cirrhosis improve.It is

possible he has both. Remember, I am not a doctor just been living with

this disease for quite a while now. For others it is different. Jan

On Sun, Aug 29, 2010 at 8:14 PM, Laurinda Cumming <

laurinda.cumming@...> wrote:

> Bobby,

>

> He has no previous criminal history to my knowledge, however does have

> previous

> violence including

> acts of anger/temper, domestic, etc., previous arrests. I'm being told

> these

> arrests are too old, prior to 2003, murder

> occurred in 2009. He definitely has a history. I met him in 2005, no

> indication

> of having any psychosis. No prior mental health

> issues or treatment. Was receiving disability income for the cirrhosis.

> What about illegal drugs like marijuana smoking added to having

> Cirrhosis? No

> prescribed meds taken.

>

> Thanks again,

> Blessings,

> Laurinda

>

>

>

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Sun, August 29, 2010 4:52:30 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

>

> Yes. The answer is yes. Temporary insanity can be caused by cirrhosis. Gfr

> stands for Glomerular filtration rate, and

>

> is the best overall index of kidney function.

> The question is does the person have any other criminal history or prior

> history

>

> of violence, etc.

> Because there is no telling what he thought he was doing, or what he was

> thinking when he did this.

>

> I once found my own loved one talking to me on the television remote

> control

> when I walked in to her room at the nursing home. Her cell phone was right

> there

>

> on a necklace, within reach, but she was completely un aware, and thought

> the

> remote was the phone.

> Love, Bobby

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Sun, August 29, 2010 8:12:07 AM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Bobby,

>

> Thank you. My concern is the temporary insanity, can that really be caused

> by Cirrhosis? What is GFR? Are there any other forms of testing? His

> symptoms

> in 2003 was severe ascites and edema, no jaundice or itching. He had

> chronic

> alcoholism from age 8 to 43. He does self induced daily vomiting, even

> today.

> Two days prior to the murder he was normal then the day before he starting

> talking strange,etc.

>

> The attorneys want to claim guilty except insane because of " Bipolar " not

> the

> Cirrhosis.

> Are these two often compared? This means he will be sent to the mental

> hospital

> and

> have the potential of being released for cold blooded murder. At this point

> this

>

>

> is my

>

> major concern as he also attempted to murder me at that same time. Just so

> you

> know

> a little more the person he murdered was my 83 yr helpless father.

>

> Thank you again so much for all your information, I can't tell you how

> helpful

> it is and

> how grateful I am.

> Oh I forgot can daily smoking marijuana be harmful to someone with

> Cirrhosis?

> Can that cause

>

> further symptoms. I would assume it does. He replaced the alcohol with this

> drug, he needed

>

> the daily high.

>

> God Bless,

> Laurinda

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 7:05:42 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> A hepatologist, and sometimes a gastrointerologist. Certainly temporary

> insanity

>

>

> which has been used frivolously should be considered if the person has no

> other

> criminal record, and if they do have biopsy confirmed cirrhosis. Love,

> Bobby

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 8:09:22 AM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Thank you again for all of the information, I have received more in last 12

> hours then

> I have in 12 months. I have researched myself but not always sure what I'm

> looking at

> since this disease is new too me.

> This link you just sent said " Agitation and mania can develop but are

> uncommon "

>

> this is

> why I get confused.

> Can you please tell me what type of medical specialist deals with this

> illness?

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Sat, August 28, 2010 3:21:22 AM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Wet brain is also known as Wernike Korsikoff syndrome, and is NOT the same

> as

> portal systemic encephalopathy. The chart in the following article does

> include

> Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

>

> Please read this article for the best information. Love, Bobby

>

> http://www.merck.com/mmpe/sec03/ch022/ch022g.html

>

> 0 (subclinical)

>

> Asymptomatic loss of cognitive abilities

>

> None

>

> 1

>

> Sleep disturbances

>

> Impaired concentration

>

> Depression, anxiety, or irritability

>

> Monotone voice

>

> Tremor

>

> Poor handwriting

>

> Constructional apraxia

>

> 2

>

> Drowsiness

>

> Disorientation

>

> Poor short-term memory

>

> Disinhibited behavior

>

> Ataxia

>

> Dysarthria

>

> Asterixis

>

> Automatisms (eg, yawning, blinking, sucking)

>

> 3

>

> Somnolence

>

> Confusion

>

> Amnesia

>

> Anger, paranoia, or other bizarre behavior

>

> Nystagmus

>

> Muscular rigidity

>

> Hyperreflexia or hyporeflexia

>

> 4

>

> Coma

>

> Dilated pupils

>

> Oculocephalic or oculovestibular reflexes

>

> Decerebrate posturing

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 10:53:46 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Bonnie,

>

> Thank you, I have looked up " wet brain " , from my understanding it says

> that a person becomes confused and slips into a coma, they don't violently

> murder someone. Has anyone heard of someone killing another? I need all

> the information I can find on the symptoms,etc of cirrhosis and hepatic

> encephalopathy. What type of medical specialist deals with this illness?

>

> Thank you, this communication is wonderful, god bless

> Laurinda

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 8:44:00 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Jackie thanks for the encouragement. To the lady who spoke about

> Hepatatic Encephalopathy, My dad was an alcoholic, and one day he just

> started

> taking apart the house, pulling out nails, tearing off the walls in his own

> little world. that was 1983. She had him committed, he wasnt drinking, but

> his

> ammonia levels were very high. He didnt even know she was there. But from

> what

> i have learned from the people on this forum and from watching my own

> husbands

> ammonia levels increase that he gets very tired and it can lead to longer

> and

> longer sleeping, lethargy etc. Why dont you google " wet brain " . I bet that

> would give you some info. Just a thought. Bonnie

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Fri, August 27, 2010 9:20:50 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> Hi Bonnie: We were just at the drs today and we saw the surgeon who

> operated on

> my husband. I was telling him about this forum and he said it's the best

> place

> to learn, from real live people. My husband got social security disability

> after his open heart surgery in 2004. He had lost his job in Sept. of 2003

> and

> was getting unemployment. Ironically, his last unemployment check came the

> day

> before his open heart surgery. At that time he was 59 and I figured if he

> applied for disability he would stand a good chance of getting it. Who

> would

> hire a 59 year old man with a host of health problems? It took awhile, and

> thankfully, we had some savings we were living off of. Once he got his

> disability it was retro-active from the date he became disabled. It sounds

> like

> your husband may get disability. I sure hope so. Maybe it will be

> retro-active

> like my husband's was. You will be ok. These things have a way of working

> themselves out.

> My husband is 65 now and it looks like we will be able to enjoy retirement.

> He

> got a good report from the surgeons today. His liver is functioning real

> good

> and they even decreased some of the meds. I'm keeping you and your husband

> in

> my prayers. Let me hear from you soon. Jackie

>

>

>

>

> Subject: Re: need to vent

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010, 9:00 PM

>

> Hi everyone, I am glad to find this group and unsure how to navigate it.

> Hopefully u all can give me some insight. My husband was admitted to the

> hospital for 4 days in July. He was told prior to this that he has

> cirhossis

> and Hepatitis C. His enzymes are up and down. His liver specialist said

> that

> even though he isnt drinking, they will fluctuate. His white cells and

> platelets are very low. Too low for the interferon and ribo shots. He is

> using lactulose for the ammonia levels. they were at 77 while in the

> hospital

> and 3 weeks ago his ammonia was 156. Last week they were at 66. He is so

> tired all the time, he sleeps so much. His liver specialist said that a med

> rate of 16 he would need a liver transplant. His med rate is 14. He has

> applied for disability. What should I expect.? Hes had an ultrasound, all

> of

> the labs, and x rays. we are waiting on the results. In any case we were

> very

> stunned by the news that he is almost at the point of a liver transplant.

> Can

> someone tell me some of the symptoms, outcomes, prognosis (which i realize

> is

> different in each case) will he be tired like this all the time. He is 54

> years

> old. It doesnt seem like anything can be done, except control the side

> effects,

> like leg swelling and infection. any input would be appreciate. Thanks

> Bonnie

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: livercirrhosissupport

> Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 9:53:54 PM

> Subject: Re: need to vent

>

> yes roller coater ride puts it mildly girl!!!!!

>

> > > >

> > > > > this will sound crazy so if you want to skip reading i wont mind. i

> am

> > > > > pissed, bobby glenns not been feeling well calling dr. tommorrow

> want

> > > scan

> > > > > and labs done NOW not wait till nov. hes losing days by 2. he

> forgets i

> > > fed

> > > > > him and skyler the grandson living with us, i found his empty glass

> of

> > > in

> > > > > the frige instesd of the sink today. he thought it was friday our

> > > > > grandaughters birthday but its sunday, we went to her party he

> doesnt

> > > > > remeber it. like i said i am pissed or call it scared what ever it

> is i

> > > am

> > > > > it. my newest grandbaby conts. to do good then bad....to be

> expected

> > > for a

> > > > > 25 week old baby i guess. i am tired a 4 year olsd is wearing me

> out

> > > ...hes

> > > > > a boy and for some reason its different than the girls...hes in

> time

> > > out

> > > > > right now....am i to hard on him...or is he to stubborn i dont

> know.

> > > the

> > > > > tears rolling down my face says it all. i am tired but i have to

> cont.

> > > on i

> > > > > have no choice in any of this. if i had my choice i would be at the

> > > ocean

> > > > > watching the waves lap the shore...eating at cock of the walk with

> > > elsie and

> > > > > roger...but i have no choice. i am here i am mad i am confused i am

> > > > > ....??????? really makes me want a glass of wine, but i live to far

> > > from

> > > > > town and its sunday and i cant get any lol. whys life so messed

> > > up...what

> > > > > did i do to deserve all this crap???? should i walk away and tell

> them

> > > all

> > > > > do it yourself??? should i just suck it up ,drink water and drive

> on

> > > soldier

> > > > > ???? i know this is my life, for whatever reason these are the

> cards

> > > dealt

> > > > > to me, and i will find away to stand. but right now i am pissy i am

> sad

> > > i

> > > > > miss my life the way it was. i am sorry but if i told anyone in my

> > > family

> > > > > the way i feel they would blame me for enabling everyone. you all

> and

> > > > > elsie...aka mae mae are they only ones i have to vent to that dont

> > > sugarcoat

> > > > > the facts or blow smoke up my butt. i love you all and just needed

> to

> > > get

> > > > > this off my chest cause i have been one angry chick all week cause

> i

> > > dont

> > > > > know where these feelings are supposed to go. i am angry with the

> sick

> > > ones

> > > > > the stupid ones and the ones who just dont give a crap. i wanna lay

> in

> > > the

> > > > > sun with a glass of something...even water lol. in my hand soaking

> up

> > > the

> > > > > rays, without a care in the world....but life wont let me. who

> wouldnt

> > > be

> > > > > pissed. sorry if i have offended anyone...welcome to barbys world

> its

> > > me

> > > > > against all of them.... when will it be my turn? i know that sounds

> > > selfish

> > > > > but i feel selfish right now. whats god...the universe trying to

> tell

> > > me?

> > > > > well just spit it out already i will do what i need to but i am

> tired

> > > for

> > > > > crying out loud!!

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > > ------------------------------------

> > > > >

> > > > > Group Email: livercirrhosissupport

> > > > > web address:

> > > > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/livercirrhosissupport/

> > > > >

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