job....

[Guest guest]

i went for my training today and that was a giant kick in the balls. it really

reminded me of all the symtoms that these drugs caused. you kind of forget a

bit more when your healing and you can start doing things like going out without

massive amounts of agitation.

but, i couldnt remember what she just said. and everything she said is gone

now. that really bothers me as i had a good memory before drugs. and now they

could tell me i did something wrong and i wont remember the next minute. im

going to look like an idiot tomorrow when i start because i have to learn

everything through repitition. memory is not an option. and i hate being

looked at like an idiot.

plus, ofcourse im still sensitive so i was very uncomfortable during the

training process. she could tell as well. i was just in a lot of pain.

but, the good news is if i do a good job and learn how to do everything right

hopefully. i will be doing most of my work by myself.

i think the right job for me would be to talk about what happened to me. its

just so hard in job situations where you are expected to be competant. if i

were a public speaker i would not be expected to be more competant then i

already am. i do you get into that field?

jason