BPD making false medical diagnosis

April 15, 2007

As I have been reading a lot of the posts several of them have been

on their nada's making inaccurate medical diagnosis. My mom did

this often when I was growing up as well as making mental

diagnosis. For example she decided that I had ring worm on my head

when I was in the 6th grade and then brought me too a dermatologist

who was convinced that I didn't have it but she convinced him to do

a biopsy anyways. For anyone who does not know what a biopsy

is...it is very painful. They use sharp instruments to cut out an

example of the potentially infected area then they sample it in the

lab to see if it is truly infectious. After the procedure

the " sample " area was so big that I needed stiches. And it turned

out that like the dermatologist said I didn't have ring worm.

Another example is really personal and even more painful. At 13

when my breasts were just starting to develop, I brought it to my

moms attention that my breasts were sore (this is very common during

puberty and almost always normal. My mom decided that the reason my

breast was tender to the touch was because I had a breast cyst. She

immediatly brought me to some doctor(I don't remeber what kind of

doctor) and told him that she was worried about my breasts. Him and

my mom decided the best thing to do to find out if I had a breast

cyst was to stick a needle into my breast multiple times(if puss

came out I had a cyst if nothing happened I didn't have a cyst).

Well, all that came out was blood, a lot of blood and the procedure

was so painful. Nothing was solved my breasts hurt even more!!!

The sad thing is my mom was not even comforting during this

procedure. I remember her standing at a distance just watching the

doctor stick his needle in me. Then we never talked about this

incident. I grew up thinking my breasts were deformed. I

internalized everything.

Recently, I shared this story with my therapist. She asked me if I

was angry about this happening. I told her no. I told her I

thought everything was my fault. She told me that it would be good

for me to let out my anger towards my mom and that i should be

angry. The thing is im just not. I am too scared to be

angry!!

Tori

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