Guest guest Posted September 28, 2003 Report Share Posted September 28, 2003 I agree, Lissa, a retreat together would be nice - but not on the depression bus, LOL. As much as you are reluctant to start the MTX, maybe you'll be pleasantly surprised to see that it will help you. Are you going to take the injectable form? Remember to ask your rheumatologist about folic acid, too. We have a lot of MTX experts here who can help you if you have questions. Good luck! [ ] depression bus > Every time I think I'm going to get on the depression bus, I read the > posts. Sure, I feel pretty sore. But, I'm not battling a swollen > knee the Dr's are baffled by. I don't have a rash on my face, I'm > not draining from an incision on my tummy or back in the hospital > after knee surgery. > I feel crummy. After 2 weeks of work, I feel like I'm going to have > to quit becasue I can't stand the pain. But, that just means I get > to read more! : ) > I find myslef getting on the depression bus because I can't sleep or > because the plaquenil made my head hurt so bad I could barely stand > my kids to whisper. Then, I think of what it must be like to have > Dercums. That sounds painful. Or how about losing pets? That's > VERY sad. Or for scary, to have a mom in the hospital on her death > bed. . . > I just start to find a comfortable seat on the depression bus, and > someone on this board reminds me that we all have problems. Some are > more painful, some are more sad, but we all hurt and feel miserable > and we all struggle with the daily life. > If I get depressed and shut myself away, doesn't that show my kids > that giving up is OK? So, I won't. I may quit the job (which isn't > that great anyway), but I have to limit my stretches on the couch to > absolutely necessary. > And I have to start the MTX. I REALLY don't want to, but I have to > be functional for these babies of mine. Especially the oldest one > who is growing up WAY too fast. > I took too much pain medicine to still hurt! But the slightly punch- > drunk message seems to be coming along fine! > I'm sure I'll be sober tomorrow again! : ) > (((HUGS))) to all of you who are hurting or sad or scared. We need a > retreat together! > Lissa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 28, 2003 Report Share Posted September 28, 2003 Lissa, I know exactly what you mean about reading about others problems. My rt knee has been bothering me, making standing up and walking more and more difficult, and I start to feel like sorry for myself. Then you read others problems and say, hey, I can get through this. Not that I want any of you here to be going through tough times, but it makes it easier knowing that not only are none of us going through this alone, but that maybe we aren't so bad off after all. Noreen [ ] depression bus Every time I think I'm going to get on the depression bus, I read the posts. Sure, I feel pretty sore. But, I'm not battling a swollen knee the Dr's are baffled by. I don't have a rash on my face, I'm ssa not draining from an incision on my tummy or back in the hospital after knee surgery. I feel crummy. After 2 weeks of work, I feel like I'm going to have to quit becasue I can't stand the pain. But, that just means I get to read more! : ) I find myslef getting on the depression bus because I can't sleep or because the plaquenil made my head hurt so bad I could barely stand my kids to whisper. Then, I think of what it must be like to have Dercums. That sounds painful. Or how about losing pets? That's VERY sad. Or for scary, to have a mom in the hospital on her death bed. . . I just start to find a comfortable seat on the depression bus, and someone on this board reminds me that we all have problems. Some are more painful, some are more sad, but we all hurt and feel miserable and we all struggle with the daily life. If I get depressed and shut myself away, doesn't that show my kids that giving up is OK? So, I won't. I may quit the job (which isn't that great anyway), but I have to limit my stretches on the couch to absolutely necessary. And I have to start the MTX. I REALLY don't want to, but I have to be functional for these babies of mine. Especially the oldest one who is growing up WAY too fast. I took too much pain medicine to still hurt! But the slightly punch- drunk message seems to be coming along fine! I'm sure I'll be sober tomorrow again! : ) (((HUGS))) to all of you who are hurting or sad or scared. We need a retreat together! Lissa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 29, 2003 Report Share Posted September 29, 2003 Nicely put...you are right...if I stop to think about what others are going through...it helps me get back into the gratitude mode rather than the pity mode...marge [ ] depression bus > Every time I think I'm going to get on the depression bus, I read the > posts. Sure, I feel pretty sore. But, I'm not battling a swollen > knee the Dr's are baffled by. I don't have a rash on my face, I'm > not draining from an incision on my tummy or back in the hospital > after knee surgery. > I feel crummy. After 2 weeks of work, I feel like I'm going to have > to quit becasue I can't stand the pain. But, that just means I get > to read more! : ) > I find myslef getting on the depression bus because I can't sleep or > because the plaquenil made my head hurt so bad I could barely stand > my kids to whisper. Then, I think of what it must be like to have > Dercums. That sounds painful. Or how about losing pets? That's > VERY sad. Or for scary, to have a mom in the hospital on her death > bed. . . > I just start to find a comfortable seat on the depression bus, and > someone on this board reminds me that we all have problems. Some are > more painful, some are more sad, but we all hurt and feel miserable > and we all struggle with the daily life. > If I get depressed and shut myself away, doesn't that show my kids > that giving up is OK? So, I won't. I may quit the job (which isn't > that great anyway), but I have to limit my stretches on the couch to > absolutely necessary. > And I have to start the MTX. I REALLY don't want to, but I have to > be functional for these babies of mine. Especially the oldest one > who is growing up WAY too fast. > I took too much pain medicine to still hurt! But the slightly punch- > drunk message seems to be coming along fine! > I'm sure I'll be sober tomorrow again! : ) > (((HUGS))) to all of you who are hurting or sad or scared. We need a > retreat together! > Lissa > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 29, 2003 Report Share Posted September 29, 2003 I have to confess to being pretty solidly loopy on pain meds! : ) What can I say? I get weepy when I'm high! Lissa > Nicely put...you are right...if I stop to think about what others are going > through...it helps me get back into the gratitude mode rather than the pity > mode...marge > [ ] depression bus > > > > Every time I think I'm going to get on the depression bus, I read the > > posts. Sure, I feel pretty sore. But, I'm not battling a swollen > > knee the Dr's are baffled by. I don't have a rash on my face, I'm > > not draining from an incision on my tummy or back in the hospital > > after knee surgery. > > I feel crummy. After 2 weeks of work, I feel like I'm going to have > > to quit becasue I can't stand the pain. But, that just means I get > > to read more! : ) > > I find myslef getting on the depression bus because I can't sleep or > > because the plaquenil made my head hurt so bad I could barely stand > > my kids to whisper. Then, I think of what it must be like to have > > Dercums. That sounds painful. Or how about losing pets? That's > > VERY sad. Or for scary, to have a mom in the hospital on her death > > bed. . . > > I just start to find a comfortable seat on the depression bus, and > > someone on this board reminds me that we all have problems. Some are > > more painful, some are more sad, but we all hurt and feel miserable > > and we all struggle with the daily life. > > If I get depressed and shut myself away, doesn't that show my kids > > that giving up is OK? So, I won't. I may quit the job (which isn't > > that great anyway), but I have to limit my stretches on the couch to > > absolutely necessary. > > And I have to start the MTX. I REALLY don't want to, but I have to > > be functional for these babies of mine. Especially the oldest one > > who is growing up WAY too fast. > > I took too much pain medicine to still hurt! But the slightly punch- > > drunk message seems to be coming along fine! > > I'm sure I'll be sober tomorrow again! : ) > > (((HUGS))) to all of you who are hurting or sad or scared. We need a > > retreat together! > > Lissa > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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