Sexual Component

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I hope this response goes out. I'm not very savvy when it comes to how this group works (as a yahoo group) and how to respond.

I think one of the first reactions I had to my first trigger (dad) was a groin sensation. I was about 8 or 9 (almost 50 years ago) so I had no clue what was going on but it seemed to make the problem worse because it added self disgust. I too have been told I was probably sexually abused as a child - which I no longer believe. I worked with more than one therapist to try to figure out what awful thing happened to me that I was repressing and now I don't think I was really repressing anything. My father was weird and probably had some odd sexual ideas but I don't think they were ever imposed on me.

I have tried to explain the groin sensation to several therapist and a couple of shrinks. One of them actually raised his eyebrows and looked astounded. Boy - that didn't help much because I felt so crazy and "dirty" about the sensation anyway.

Just my two cents worth. I have often wondered if I was "stuck" in my first chakra. DId I read that Nick had a link to books that have been helpful to you. I wasn't able to find it and it might be right in front of my face. Could I get some more info about the link?

I really appreciate this group and the sharing that goes on. Like many members, until I found this group I thought I was the only person in the world that had this problem.

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Of Course I have to start out by saying that this is weird and I am embarrassed

to speak of it. When I get anxiety, I feel like I have a bladder infection. This

started when I was in the first grade, i did not know what an anxiety attack (or

just too much stimulus and my brain frying) was at that age or have the words to

describe what was happening other than to say in a kids way 'my pee pee hurts'.

I just knew that I felt like I had to sit on the toilet and hide in the stall

(to cut down stimuli I know now) and drip out urine that was painful like a

Urinary Tract Infection. This went on from first grade till about age 22. Now

today at 35 when I get bladder pain with my anger, anxiety, etc. I call it 'old

school'. I don't know why I have a physical manifestation of my stress like

this. Of course every therapist says I was molested and that just because I

don't remember it does not mean it did not happen. I do have alot of physical

and emotional abuse in my childhood, why did I not block those horrible memories

out? I don't agree that I was moloested. I think I just have a weird physical

manifestation to my stress!