OT: what happened (WAS) resource for explaining Lyme, a Q&A

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Thanks. They wrote back with a short email saying thanks for taking the time to put the information together for them, Regards, __(parents' first names)__.I think they are waiting to hear whether they should be kind or mean to me, since last they talked to their son he said he wanted me to move out.

It's been a really hard time for me emotionally:1) Bart and Lyme rifing is going great, I start getting Myco (or something 690Hz) symptoms incl depression and anxiety.2) Because I am still crabby after apparently treating the Bart, my boyfriend decides he can't take being around me and wants me to move out to a much worse situation than I'm in now.

3) I figure out the 690 Rifing and start to get rid of the infection, feeling much better, smiling more, not depressed or anxious anymore.4) Boyfriend has dinner with premed student who laughs at me for thinking I have chronic Lyme. It's awkward for my boyfriend.

5) The next day, he says that he is 90% sure I have only mental illness and no physical disease (he thinks I have borderline?), and he starts naming all these friends of ours whom he claims think I'm just mentally ill or depressed and not actually sick.

6) I call his mom, since I think she understands about anxiety CAUSED by Lyme and not the cause of Lyme, but instead of saying she says I am just " stalled " in life and moving out will be " good for me " since it will force me to get on with my life. " We just can't wait to see what you do next in life. " I say she's entitled to her opinion but I disagree.

7) I feel sick and depressed for the next few days because she thinks I'm just using Lyme as an excuse not to move on in life, even though I know it's not true. I wonder if it is bad for my immune system to get this kind of message without standing up for myself.

8) I decide to explain my side, since I realize my boyfriend's parents have never even gotten a primer on Lyme or how it works; they've just heard the odd sentence here and there about how I'm doing (usually my boyfriend telling them I'm getting better quickly and will be ready to achieve impressive things in no time -- these people are very image- and achievement-oriented).

9) I feel much better after explaining my side, and I vow not to get in touch with them again until I am over this herxing. They write a brief email back, probably because the last they heard from their son was two weeks ago about how he wanted me to move out.

It's been rough. This has been a lot to handle. I have felt so overwhelmed by the stress and by the negative dialogue about me. I feel like the Big Bad Wolf.On the good side, the coiling is going great, I can breathe again, my eyes are no longer cloudy, I smile more, my underlying mood is great, and I am feeling better and better in-between the herxing!

I realize that the 690Hz herxing is not as bad if I coil twice a day, since I think it grows semi-quickly and there's more to kill if I have waited 24 hours. So I am going back to coiling twice a day for it. Going to get started on that now.

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Hi ,I must agree with everyone in that your letter is excellent.  Prepare for their response in way you wish for and a way you wish not for.  Just be prepared for either.