Re: As a KO what are you still afraid of?

[Guest guest]

I always HATED buying Mother's Day cards, it felt so fake to buy a

card saying wonderful mother and all that crap. It never felt real

so I would buy the least sentimental card I could find. Same thing

for birthday cards.

>

> >So, they set up these things where we have to call them.

>

> the rules of her house...we are required to call her for

valentines day (

> and send a card, gift would be best), call her for mothers day (

and

> card/flowers) call her for her birthday( card/flowers required),

call her

> for Easter ( card/flowers needed), call her on her wedding

anniversary (

> card required), call her for thanksgiving and call her for

Christmas (

> card/gift required) she only calls me on my birthday...sometimes,

if she

> remembers...needless to say..I don't follow the " rules " I will

send a card

> for her birthday, wedding anniversary, Christmas and sometimes

Easter.( no

> gifts at all)...I will call on her birthday, I have every

Christmas but

> probably wont any more..and she gets no card/call for mothers

day !! I

> called her last thanksgiving and last Christmas...and thats the

last I've

> heard from her ( although it's been nice and quiet LOL)

>

> Jackie

>

[Guest guest]

What am I still afraid of?

Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this out,

I'm still afraid of a lot.

I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear, obligation

and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I have

a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to invite

any of my family members.

I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with their

families.

I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will be

empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

I'm afraid that I've become her.

I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

Melany

[Guest guest]

What am I still afraid of?

Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this out,

I'm still afraid of a lot.

I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear, obligation

and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I have

a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to invite

any of my family members.

I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with their

families.

I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will be

empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

I'm afraid that I've become her.

I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

Melany

[Guest guest]

,

I have or do share those fears with you.

a

>

> What am I still afraid of?

>

> Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this out,

> I'm still afraid of a lot.

>

> I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear, obligation

> and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I have

> a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to invite

> any of my family members.

> I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with their

> families.

> I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will be

> empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> I'm afraid that I've become her.

> I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

>

> There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> Melany

>

[Guest guest]

,

I have or do share those fears with you.

a

>

> What am I still afraid of?

>

> Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this out,

> I'm still afraid of a lot.

>

> I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear, obligation

> and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I have

> a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to invite

> any of my family members.

> I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with their

> families.

> I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will be

> empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> I'm afraid that I've become her.

> I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

>

> There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> Melany

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you are alive, so start today discovering who you are. It is

a precious moment at a time.

Malinda

In WTOAdultChildren1 , " Rutkowski "

wrote:

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still afraid

of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you're heaping your plate full of fears that aren't even on

the horizon yet. Nor do they have to be on your plate at all.

You're no different from the rest of us -- we have to live each day

One day at a time. One step at a time.

As each day's " challenge " presents itself, THEN figure out what

you're going to do. If you don't know what to do, ask someone who's

done it before. Or ask someone who's an expert. Look it up in a

book or the internet. All problems and difficulties have a solution.

Think about what you want out of life. Then take the daily steps it

takes to reach those plateaus. You're already in school -- Do they

just give you the degree on the first day? NO! They parse it out a

day at a time, an hour at a time.

Cultivate good friends. Prune out the people who aren't adding to

your life in some positive way.

If you pile all of life's worries into your daily life -- you'll

bury yourself. Stay positive -- think about how you can make

someone ELSE's day. Be nice to the checkout girl at the grocery --

That worry is nothing more that the fear monster we all have lurking

inside of us -- telling us we're somehow flawed and not worthy to

walk this earth with the other human beings.

Tell that monster to shut the hell up. Quit feeding him.

Your life isn't perfect and neither is anyone else's. If you expect

everything you do to be perfect, the fear monster wakes up. Just do

the best you can -- approach everything with enthusiasm, a can-do

spirit and your full attention. That includes YOU. Keep working on

yourself. The fact that you came to this board shows you're on the

right track.

-Kyla

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still

afraid of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

-- you're heaping your plate full of fears that aren't even on

the horizon yet. Nor do they have to be on your plate at all.

You're no different from the rest of us -- we have to live each day

One day at a time. One step at a time.

As each day's " challenge " presents itself, THEN figure out what

you're going to do. If you don't know what to do, ask someone who's

done it before. Or ask someone who's an expert. Look it up in a

book or the internet. All problems and difficulties have a solution.

Think about what you want out of life. Then take the daily steps it

takes to reach those plateaus. You're already in school -- Do they

just give you the degree on the first day? NO! They parse it out a

day at a time, an hour at a time.

Cultivate good friends. Prune out the people who aren't adding to

your life in some positive way.

If you pile all of life's worries into your daily life -- you'll

bury yourself. Stay positive -- think about how you can make

someone ELSE's day. Be nice to the checkout girl at the grocery --

That worry is nothing more that the fear monster we all have lurking

inside of us -- telling us we're somehow flawed and not worthy to

walk this earth with the other human beings.

Tell that monster to shut the hell up. Quit feeding him.

Your life isn't perfect and neither is anyone else's. If you expect

everything you do to be perfect, the fear monster wakes up. Just do

the best you can -- approach everything with enthusiasm, a can-do

spirit and your full attention. That includes YOU. Keep working on

yourself. The fact that you came to this board shows you're on the

right track.

-Kyla

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still

afraid of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>

[Guest guest]

,

Get back in touch with your inner child. She know who you are and

will share that information with you.

Sylvia

>

> I'm afraid that I will die and not know who I really am.

>

> J.

>

>

> >

> >Reply-To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >To: WTOAdultChildren1

> >Subject: Re: As a KO what are you still

afraid of?

> >Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:58:12 -0000

> >

> >What am I still afraid of?

> >

> >Well, seeing as it's only been two weeks since I've figured this

out,

> >I'm still afraid of a lot.

> >

> >I'm afraid of what my nada is capable of, she might do her best to

> >ruin my life now that she senses an little self respect in me.

> >I'm afraid that she'll suck me back into her web of fear,

obligation

> >and guilt, and I'll never get back out again.

> >I'm afraid she'll find me on this message board.

> >I'm afraid of her rage, it still makes me want to cower.

> >I'm afraid of what's going to happen in two years from now when I

have

> >a graduation. Graduations are always horrible. I do not want to

invite

> >any of my family members.

> >I'm afraid graduation will be sad when I see other people with

their

> >families.

> >I'm afraid that when/if I get married, my side of the church will

be

> >empty. I'm afraid I'll be walking myself down the isle.

> >I'm afraid that I will go crazy.

> >I'm afraid I will never be able to rebuild myself.

> >I'm afraid that I've become her.

> >I'm afraid I'll abuse my children when/if I have them.

> >

> >There's more, but I figure I should stop here.

> >Melany

> >

>