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I totally understand. I have had similar body reactions to unpleasant sounds, but lately my reactions have been, strangely enough, EXTREME SADNESS and an URGE TO CRY when I hear them. I've posted about my gum cracking MIL issues, but last night in JC Penney's a woman was walking past me in the kids clothing section cracking and popping away and I just got so disgusted and frustrated... but in a SAD way. I think the sadness might be a result of the years and years of psychological pain this has caused me. Subject: Re:

What does it feel like?To: Soundsensitivity Date: Thursday, April 29, 2010, 10:25 PM

There are so many extreme feelings that I experience when faced with "gum chewers, snot-suckers, leg tappers, whistle-breathers, wrapper-crinklers, coughers, wheezers, and knuckle crackers".

Usually I just want to get out of wherever I am IMMEDIATELY - it's like I am having a panic attack. When I was in a university class I wouldn't be able to up and leave the room so I would feel intense rage at the person/people bothering me. I would then wish for them to stop over and over in my head as I gave them a look that said "Don't you know how annoying you are being?" Although I use humour and a facade of unending happiness to deal with the noises/people making them. I came from a place of extreme anger for years but now I turn that hatred inward because when I am overcome by noises, I feel like such a horrible and obnoxious person.

Next, I would feel shame. I would tell myself over and over that the sound(s) were normal and the actions were normal. I would try to get lost in doodling or taking notes. I always would subtley (or so I think I was being subtle) place my chin in my hands so as to cover my ears a bit - like I was intensely listening. I would even lay my head down on my desk at times in high school to aleviate the noises. Some teachers questioned my parents about my lack of engagement but couldn't complain because my marks were exceptional.

Usually, I would just want to cry and have a meltdown. I talked to the Disabilities/ Special Needs Department at school and they made some adjustments for me. Although this was 6 years ago and I never knew I had 4S but rather was diagnosed with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder from several incidents. They let me write my exams in another room, use a recorder to tape the lectures, and I could have had someone take my notes, too, although I declined.

I am going back for my Masters and am beyond petrified because I cannot handle the typing of keyboards. It seems that everyone has a laptop now adays and I don't want to drop out because of this issue.

I know this is an extremely long post, but I have chronic pain. I was wondering if anybody else experienceing general pain all over their body (mostly back and neck though), or if my diagnosis of Fibromyalgia is correct. It just seems that this is the syndrome doctors label patients with when they can't figure out the root of the "problem".

Also, what are some coping strategies you use to make it through your classes?

P.S. I've never asked anyone outside of my family to stop making a noise out of fear of what they would say to me and how I would be viewed. I've even ended friendships over gum-chewing (they didn't know that was the reason of course). How sad is that?

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> I used to feel an electric jolt in my groin when I was triggered; it made me think I was a masochist for a while. Now it's a milder jolt in my ears, sometimes my head, but mostly I just cringe. I can also panic if the sound won't stop or is particularly harsh, and I HAVE TO GET AWAY. I did this at work yesterday and got in trouble 'cause I panicked. I worked it out with the co-worker I offended doing that, but she didn't take it well at first. (sigh) This is why I usually suffer in silence or avoid sibilant people; Mom was right that people get pissed over things they can't control, as much as I would love to lash out or confront people about it.

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> > To: Soundsensitivity@ yahoogroups. com

> > From: cherrydoom@. ..

> > Date: Sat, 27 Mar 2010 23:41:46 +0000

> > Subject: What does it feel like?

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> > This is a long ramble, but I'm feeling share-y.

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> > I'm struggling through the last half of this semester spent boxed up with gum chewers, snot-suckers, leg tappers, whistle-breathers, wrapper-crinklers, coughers, wheezers, and knuckle crackers and I'm about at the end of my rope. I thought it might be therapeutic to talk to some people who understand, so I have a question to pose to you:

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> > How does it feel when you are triggered?

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> > I don't know how different it is from person to person, but I'm very interested to find out. Is there physical pain? Emotional distress? What sensations actually occur in your body when you hear one of the noises that hurt you?

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> > For me, it's mostly emotional to begin with. If I hear the sound, I'm very quick to irritation and anger, as well as complete distraction from the task at hand. I may feel lightheaded, exhausted, or like I'm about to cry. There is no pain but an extreme discomfort in my ears... they feel raw and exposed and like I need to protect them.

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> > If after a while I can't escape it, the sensation turns physical and I feel as though I've been punched in the chest or kicked in the stomach. There is no real, intense pain--just extreme discomfort, like I was just hit and am feeling the repercussions of it.

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I completely " get " what you are saying in regards to the extreme sadness and

years of pyshchological pain. I try so hard - SO HARD - and I just want to be a

so-called normal person (AKA - someone whose life is dictated by soft noises),

but it just doesn't stop.

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> > I used to feel an electric jolt in my groin when I was triggered; it made me

think I was a masochist for a while. Now it's a milder jolt in my ears,

sometimes my head, but mostly I just cringe. I can also panic if the sound won't

stop or is particularly harsh, and I HAVE TO GET AWAY. I did this at work

yesterday and got in trouble 'cause I panicked. I worked it out with the

co-worker I offended doing that, but she didn't take it well at first. (sigh)

This is why I usually suffer in silence or avoid sibilant people; Mom was right

that people get pissed over things they can't control, as much as I would love

to lash out or confront people about it.

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> > > To: Soundsensitivity@ yahoogroups. com

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> > > From: cherrydoom@ ..

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> > > Date: Sat, 27 Mar 2010 23:41:46 +0000

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> > > Subject: What does it feel like?

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> > >

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> > > This is a long ramble, but I'm feeling share-y.

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> > > I'm struggling through the last half of this semester spent boxed up with

gum chewers, snot-suckers, leg tappers, whistle-breathers, wrapper-crinklers,

coughers, wheezers, and knuckle crackers and I'm about at the end of my rope. I

thought it might be therapeutic to talk to some people who understand, so I have

a question to pose to you:

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> > > How does it feel when you are triggered?

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> > >

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> > > I don't know how different it is from person to person, but I'm very

interested to find out. Is there physical pain? Emotional distress? What

sensations actually occur in your body when you hear one of the noises that hurt

you?

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> > > For me, it's mostly emotional to begin with. If I hear the sound, I'm very

quick to irritation and anger, as well as complete distraction from the task at

hand. I may feel lightheaded, exhausted, or like I'm about to cry. There is no

pain but an extreme discomfort in my ears... they feel raw and exposed and like

I need to protect them.

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> > > If after a while I can't escape it, the sensation turns physical and I

feel as though I've been punched in the chest or kicked in the stomach. There is

no real, intense pain--just extreme discomfort, like I was just hit and am

feeling the repercussions of it.

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I experience the majority of sounds as a physical electrical jolt down the length of my spine and into my lower region. Like M-F, I too thought I was some weird sexual pervert b/c of this but to be clear it is never a pleasurable sensation. It hurts quite acutely and I hate it rather passionately. Some sounds will just annoy me or trigger panic/agression responses but if I have to endure a sound for a prolonged period of time, my entire body begins to feel like a tuning fork. I am literally on edge, I feel like every nerve in my body is tingling, and I feel very 'jerk-y' in that I feel kind of spastic and I have to get really loud and physical to sort of discharge the energy and ground myself again, if that makes sense. Usually I do this by swearing quite

loudly, chomping on hard candy, stomping my feet as I walk as if I'm trying to go straight through the pavement, etc. then I'm okay again...until next time. Also, it makes me feel queasy to my stomach. I have tactile issues as well and if I eat something to disturb my mouth, I know that sounds weird but if its a tactile sensation I don't like (i.e. too soft/mushy, or hitting grisle in chicken, etc.) I get instantly nauseas and I have to stop eating that food. Usually, whatever food offended me, I cannot stomach the thought of eating it again for up to several months afterwards.

Tammy

To: Soundsensitivity Sent: Thu, April 29, 2010 10:02:09 PMSubject: Re: What does it feel like?

It's so hard to explain how it feels... Sometimes it feels as if I'm vibrating, and I just have to get away from the noise.usually, it feels as if there is so much pressure building up inside of me, that I'm going to explode.If its a really bad trigger, I feel like... a jolt of electricity runs through me every time I hear it.I'm not sure if it's because I unknowingly hold my breath, but sometimes I feel suffocated.It all depends on which trigger it is, and how well I'm able to cope with it that day.>> > I used to feel an electric jolt in my groin when I was triggered; it made me think I was a masochist for a while. Now it's a milder jolt in my ears, sometimes my

head, but mostly I just cringe. I can also panic if the sound won't stop or is particularly harsh, and I HAVE TO GET AWAY. I did this at work yesterday and got in trouble 'cause I panicked. I worked it out with the co-worker I offended doing that, but she didn't take it well at first. (sigh) This is why I usually suffer in silence or avoid sibilant people; Mom was right that people get pissed over things they can't control, as much as I would love to lash out or confront people about it.> > > > = M-F.> > > > To: Soundsensitivity@ yahoogroups. com> > From: cherrydoom@. ..> > Date: Sat, 27 Mar 2010 23:41:46 +0000> > Subject: What does it feel like?> > > > This is a long ramble, but I'm feeling

share-y.> > > > I'm struggling through the last half of this semester spent boxed up with gum chewers, snot-suckers, leg tappers, whistle-breathers, wrapper-crinklers, coughers, wheezers, and knuckle crackers and I'm about at the end of my rope. I thought it might be therapeutic to talk to some people who understand, so I have a question to pose to you:> > > > How does it feel when you are triggered?> > > > I don't know how different it is from person to person, but I'm very interested to find out. Is there physical pain? Emotional distress? What sensations actually occur in your body when you hear one of the noises that hurt you?> > > > For me, it's mostly emotional to begin with. If I hear the sound, I'm very quick to irritation and anger, as well as complete distraction from the task at hand. I may feel lightheaded, exhausted, or like I'm about to cry. There is no pain

but an extreme discomfort in my ears... they feel raw and exposed and like I need to protect them.> > > > If after a while I can't escape it, the sensation turns physical and I feel as though I've been punched in the chest or kicked in the stomach. There is no real, intense pain--just extreme discomfort, like I was just hit and am feeling the repercussions of it.> > ____________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _> Hotmail has tools for the New Busy. Search, chat and e-mail from your inbox.> http://www.windowsl ive.com/campaign /thenewbusy? ocid=PID28326: :T:WLMTAGL: ON:WL:en- US:WM_HMP: 042010_1>

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I experience the majority of sounds as a physical electrical jolt down the length of my spine and into my lower region. Like M-F, I too thought I was some weird sexual pervert b/c of this but to be clear it is never a pleasurable sensation. It hurts quite acutely and I hate it rather passionately. Some sounds will just annoy me or trigger panic/agression responses but if I have to endure a sound for a prolonged period of time, my entire body begins to feel like a tuning fork. I am literally on edge, I feel like every nerve in my body is tingling, and I feel very 'jerk-y' in that I feel kind of spastic and I have to get really loud and physical to sort of discharge the energy and ground myself again, if that makes sense. Usually I do this by swearing quite

loudly, chomping on hard candy, stomping my feet as I walk as if I'm trying to go straight through the pavement, etc. then I'm okay again...until next time. Also, it makes me feel queasy to my stomach. I have tactile issues as well and if I eat something to disturb my mouth, I know that sounds weird but if its a tactile sensation I don't like (i.e. too soft/mushy, or hitting grisle in chicken, etc.) I get instantly nauseas and I have to stop eating that food. Usually, whatever food offended me, I cannot stomach the thought of eating it again for up to several months afterwards.

Tammy

To: Soundsensitivity Sent: Thu, April 29, 2010 10:02:09 PMSubject: Re: What does it feel like?

It's so hard to explain how it feels... Sometimes it feels as if I'm vibrating, and I just have to get away from the noise.usually, it feels as if there is so much pressure building up inside of me, that I'm going to explode.If its a really bad trigger, I feel like... a jolt of electricity runs through me every time I hear it.I'm not sure if it's because I unknowingly hold my breath, but sometimes I feel suffocated.It all depends on which trigger it is, and how well I'm able to cope with it that day.>> > I used to feel an electric jolt in my groin when I was triggered; it made me think I was a masochist for a while. Now it's a milder jolt in my ears, sometimes my

head, but mostly I just cringe. I can also panic if the sound won't stop or is particularly harsh, and I HAVE TO GET AWAY. I did this at work yesterday and got in trouble 'cause I panicked. I worked it out with the co-worker I offended doing that, but she didn't take it well at first. (sigh) This is why I usually suffer in silence or avoid sibilant people; Mom was right that people get pissed over things they can't control, as much as I would love to lash out or confront people about it.> > > > = M-F.> > > > To: Soundsensitivity@ yahoogroups. com> > From: cherrydoom@. ..> > Date: Sat, 27 Mar 2010 23:41:46 +0000> > Subject: What does it feel like?> > > > This is a long ramble, but I'm feeling

share-y.> > > > I'm struggling through the last half of this semester spent boxed up with gum chewers, snot-suckers, leg tappers, whistle-breathers, wrapper-crinklers, coughers, wheezers, and knuckle crackers and I'm about at the end of my rope. I thought it might be therapeutic to talk to some people who understand, so I have a question to pose to you:> > > > How does it feel when you are triggered?> > > > I don't know how different it is from person to person, but I'm very interested to find out. Is there physical pain? Emotional distress? What sensations actually occur in your body when you hear one of the noises that hurt you?> > > > For me, it's mostly emotional to begin with. If I hear the sound, I'm very quick to irritation and anger, as well as complete distraction from the task at hand. I may feel lightheaded, exhausted, or like I'm about to cry. There is no pain

but an extreme discomfort in my ears... they feel raw and exposed and like I need to protect them.> > > > If after a while I can't escape it, the sensation turns physical and I feel as though I've been punched in the chest or kicked in the stomach. There is no real, intense pain--just extreme discomfort, like I was just hit and am feeling the repercussions of it.> > ____________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _> Hotmail has tools for the New Busy. Search, chat and e-mail from your inbox.> http://www.windowsl ive.com/campaign /thenewbusy? ocid=PID28326: :T:WLMTAGL: ON:WL:en- US:WM_HMP: 042010_1>

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Thank you Thank you Thank you for being brave enough to mention the groin jolt,

the electricity, the lower regions and feeling pervy. This came up some time ago

and I'm glad it's coming up again now that there are twice the members here.

If there is anything I do to " solve " 4S it is for this reason. In fact -

everything I do is for this reason.

Tell me: what happens when you mix arousal and rage? You guessed it -I'm a

survivor of years and years of torture at the hands of my father. That's why

the psychiatric community thinks 4S is PTSD flashbacks or something psych and

it's not. Somewhere on this site is someone advocating for a young boy who

rages and engorges when triggered - he is my father in the making and I cannot

sit idly by and just let it happen because it's not my problem anymore. The

pettiness MUST stop and people MUST understand that this is a real public health

issue. We need research. OMG we need research. People are dying . . .

-- In Soundsensitivity , Tammy Case wrote:

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> I experience the majority of sounds as a physical electrical jolt down the

length of my spine and into my lower region. Like M-F, I too thought I was some

weird sexual pervert b/c of this but to be clear it is never a pleasurable

sensation. It hurts quite acutely and I hate it rather passionately. Some

sounds will just annoy me or trigger panic/agression responses but if I have to

endure a sound for a prolonged period of time, my entire body begins to feel

like a tuning fork. I am literally on edge, I feel like every nerve in my body

is tingling, and I feel very 'jerk-y' in that I feel kind of spastic and I

have to get really loud and physical to sort of discharge the energy and ground

myself again, if that makes sense. Usually I do this by swearing quite

loudly, chomping on hard candy, stomping my feet as I walk as if I'm trying to

go straight through the pavement, etc. then I'm okay again...until next time.

Also, it makes me feel queasy to my

> stomach. I have tactile issues as well and if I eat something to disturb my

mouth, I know that sounds weird but if its a tactile sensation I don't like

(i.e. too soft/mushy, or hitting grisle in chicken, etc.) I get instantly

nauseas and I have to stop eating that food. Usually, whatever food offended me,

I cannot stomach the thought of eating it again for up to several months

afterwards.

>

> Tammy 

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> To: Soundsensitivity

> Sent: Thu, April 29, 2010 10:02:09 PM

> Subject: Re: What does it feel like?

>

>  

> It's so hard to explain how it feels...

>

> Sometimes it feels as if I'm vibrating, and I just have to get away from the

noise.

>

> usually, it feels as if there is so much pressure building up inside of me,

that I'm going to explode.

>

> If its a really bad trigger, I feel like... a jolt of electricity runs through

me every time I hear it.

>

> I'm not sure if it's because I unknowingly hold my breath, but sometimes I

feel suffocated.

>

> It all depends on which trigger it is, and how well I'm able to cope with it

that day.

>

>

> >

> >

> > I used to feel an electric jolt in my groin when I was triggered; it made me

think I was a masochist for a while. Now it's a milder jolt in my ears,

sometimes my head, but mostly I just cringe. I can also panic if the sound won't

stop or is particularly harsh, and I HAVE TO GET AWAY. I did this at work

yesterday and got in trouble 'cause I panicked. I worked it out with the

co-worker I offended doing that, but she didn't take it well at first. (sigh)

This is why I usually suffer in silence or avoid sibilant people; Mom was right

that people get pissed over things they can't control, as much as I would love

to lash out or confront people about it.

> >

> >

> >

> > = M-F.

> >

> >

> > > To: Soundsensitivity@ yahoogroups. com

> > > From: cherrydoom@ ..

> > > Date: Sat, 27 Mar 2010 23:41:46 +0000

> > > Subject: What does it feel like?

> > >

> > > This is a long ramble, but I'm feeling share-y.

> > >

> > > I'm struggling through the last half of this semester spent boxed up with

gum chewers, snot-suckers, leg tappers, whistle-breathers, wrapper-crinklers,

coughers, wheezers, and knuckle crackers and I'm about at the end of my rope. I

thought it might be therapeutic to talk to some people who understand, so I have

a question to pose to you:

> > >

> > > How does it feel when you are triggered?

> > >

> > > I don't know how different it is from person to person, but I'm very

interested to find out. Is there physical pain? Emotional distress? What

sensations actually occur in your body when you hear one of the noises that hurt

you?

> > >

> > > For me, it's mostly emotional to begin with. If I hear the sound, I'm very

quick to irritation and anger, as well as complete distraction from the task at

hand. I may feel lightheaded, exhausted, or like I'm about to cry. There is no

pain but an extreme discomfort in my ears... they feel raw and exposed and like

I need to protect them.

> > >

> > > If after a while I can't escape it, the sensation turns physical and I

feel as though I've been punched in the chest or kicked in the stomach. There is

no real, intense pain--just extreme discomfort, like I was just hit and am

feeling the repercussions of it.

> >

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