Mixed Nut Nightmare

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Hey Guys,I had a bit of an excruciating time on Saturday... My mom invited me and my bf over to her house for lunch with my sister and one of her old friends.   Although my mom knows now that its a real condition and its serious, she still never plays background music or anything while we eat. As a matter of fact its the opposite, she closes all the windows and doors (oh sweet rustling white wind where art thou?) and turns off the tv, and we eat in like awkward silence, and the whole time my skin is crawling and I am staring at my plate or trying to make desperate conversation so that voices can muffle the chewing, lip smacking and gurgle swallow horror. 

After lunch I got up from the table quickly to go sit in the living room and get some peace, and to my despair there was a gigantic bowl of mixed nuts, I knew what was coming... everyone came down, and although everyone else had a little bit of this and that, my mom (of middle easter descent) has a habit of taking a large pile of pumpkin seeds, pistachios and walnuts and CRACKING, CRUNCHING and CHEWING seeds for what must have been an eternity. My bf knows of my 4S, so I told him I couldn't take it and left to seek solace in the bathroom.. minutes later I reappeared and too afraid to ruin the lunch and embarrass my mom in front of her dear friend by telling her to stop - we abruptly cut our visit short and left. It took about 15 minutes for me to come down from the nut induced rage..

I wish it wasn't this way, and I wish it wasn't necessary to leave so quickly.  I feel terrible that my mom put so much effort into preparing a great lunch and she was so happy we were all together. I'm sure she just thinks I don't love her, or miss her or care to see my family due my " flight " response of eat-and-get out quickly.

Maybe I should remind her again? Is there even a point anymore? Thanks for listening, I just needed to share my guilty feelings.Aida