Re: Posting less...aha moments...taking time to process

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I feel the same way as Kat! Very well said!To: Soundsensitivity Sent: Thursday, September 29, 2011 9:42 PMSubject: Posting less...aha moments...taking time to process

When I first learned about Sensory Processing Disorder, and Misophonia in particular (within the last couple months), I had a similar reaction as many others...."WOW! I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE!!!"

I starting spending A LOT of time scouring the internet for information. Eventually, I found this group, and became a little obsessed, posting a lot. My consciousness was reorganizing to this new discovery of a condition that I had apparently suffered from my whole life and never knew it... until now.

Not long after joining this forum, I started to experience major "aha" moments regarding my past. Old memories started flooding in and began to overwhelm me. My adrenals were working overtime just processing it all. My mind started to review occasion after occasion where I might have over-reacted, or lost my temper, or had strained relations and/or communications, etc. I had wondered for so long why certain things were so hard for me when they appeared so easy for everyone else.

Now, I can look back and see that when I was short, or frustrated, or angry for no apparent reason, there actually was a reason, or at least a cause. But because I didn't know about this condition, and the affect it had on my adrenals, I looked for other things/people/situations to blame, including myself -- which led to low self-esteem and self-destructive habits.

I NEVER stopped looking for ways to "improve" myself -- under the assumption that something was "wrong" with me and needed to be fixed. But no matter what I tried, nothing got rid of the underlying shortness, frustration, lingering stress and sometimes extreme anger. Then I slowly began to isolate myself without even realizing I was doing it.

Recently, in the last week or so, I've felt the need to take a step back and let all of this sink in. I read a few posts, but no longer feel the need to immerse myself in the why's or what now's.

Now, I look at all my communications with people very differently. I'm getting over the guilt of my past actions and learning to accept my sensitivities as a part of my nature. And, by the way, being oversensitive isn't always a bad thing either. There are also benefits.

The good thing is, now that I know I'm severely affected by certain sounds, stimuli and environments, I have a new self-granted power to choose how I interact with them. And if/when I am triggered, I don't have to blame myself for feeling upset. Instead, I can easily understand that my experience is a temporary bodily reaction caused by my neurology, and I don't need to look for something/someone to blame -- especially myself.

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.. . . and empowering! From: Soundsensitivity [mailto:Soundsensitivity ] On Behalf Of Marnie Chapman-LangSent: Thursday, September 29, 2011 6:48 PMTo: Soundsensitivity Subject: Re: Posting less...aha moments...taking time to process I feel the same way as Kat! Very well said! To: Soundsensitivity Sent: Thursday, September 29, 2011 9:42 PMSubject: Posting less...aha moments...taking time to process When I first learned about Sensory Processing Disorder, and Misophonia in particular (within the last couple months), I had a similar reaction as many others.... " WOW! I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE!!! " I starting spending A LOT of time scouring the internet for information. Eventually, I found this group, and became a little obsessed, posting a lot. My consciousness was reorganizing to this new discovery of a condition that I had apparently suffered from my whole life and never knew it... until now.Not long after joining this forum, I started to experience major " aha " moments regarding my past. Old memories started flooding in and began to overwhelm me. My adrenals were working overtime just processing it all. My mind started to review occasion after occasion where I might have over-reacted, or lost my temper, or had strained relations and/or communications, etc. I had wondered for so long why certain things were so hard for me when they appeared so easy for everyone else. Now, I can look back and see that when I was short, or frustrated, or angry for no apparent reason, there actually was a reason, or at least a cause. But because I didn't know about this condition, and the affect it had on my adrenals, I looked for other things/people/situations to blame, including myself -- which led to low self-esteem and self-destructive habits.I NEVER stopped looking for ways to " improve " myself -- under the assumption that something was " wrong " with me and needed to be fixed. But no matter what I tried, nothing got rid of the underlying shortness, frustration, lingering stress and sometimes extreme anger. Then I slowly began to isolate myself without even realizing I was doing it.Recently, in the last week or so, I've felt the need to take a step back and let all of this sink in. I read a few posts, but no longer feel the need to immerse myself in the why's or what now's. Now, I look at all my communications with people very differently. I'm getting over the guilt of my past actions and learning to accept my sensitivities as a part of my nature. And, by the way, being oversensitive isn't always a bad thing either. There are also benefits.The good thing is, now that I know I'm severely affected by certain sounds, stimuli and environments, I have a new self-granted power to choose how I interact with them. And if/when I am triggered, I don't have to blame myself for feeling upset. Instead, I can easily understand that my experience is a temporary bodily reaction caused by my neurology, and I don't need to look for something/someone to blame -- especially myself.

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I agree Kat, well done.Sent from my iPad

I feel the same way as Kat! Very well said!To: Soundsensitivity Sent: Thursday, September 29, 2011 9:42 PMSubject: Posting less...aha moments...taking time to process

When I first learned about Sensory Processing Disorder, and Misophonia in particular (within the last couple months), I had a similar reaction as many others...."WOW! I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE!!!"

I starting spending A LOT of time scouring the internet for information. Eventually, I found this group, and became a little obsessed, posting a lot. My consciousness was reorganizing to this new discovery of a condition that I had apparently suffered from my whole life and never knew it... until now.

Not long after joining this forum, I started to experience major "aha" moments regarding my past. Old memories started flooding in and began to overwhelm me. My adrenals were working overtime just processing it all. My mind started to review occasion after occasion where I might have over-reacted, or lost my temper, or had strained relations and/or communications, etc. I had wondered for so long why certain things were so hard for me when they appeared so easy for everyone else.

Now, I can look back and see that when I was short, or frustrated, or angry for no apparent reason, there actually was a reason, or at least a cause. But because I didn't know about this condition, and the affect it had on my adrenals, I looked for other things/people/situations to blame, including myself -- which led to low self-esteem and self-destructive habits.

I NEVER stopped looking for ways to "improve" myself -- under the assumption that something was "wrong" with me and needed to be fixed. But no matter what I tried, nothing got rid of the underlying shortness, frustration, lingering stress and sometimes extreme anger. Then I slowly began to isolate myself without even realizing I was doing it.

Recently, in the last week or so, I've felt the need to take a step back and let all of this sink in. I read a few posts, but no longer feel the need to immerse myself in the why's or what now's.

Now, I look at all my communications with people very differently. I'm getting over the guilt of my past actions and learning to accept my sensitivities as a part of my nature. And, by the way, being oversensitive isn't always a bad thing either. There are also benefits.

The good thing is, now that I know I'm severely affected by certain sounds, stimuli and environments, I have a new self-granted power to choose how I interact with them. And if/when I am triggered, I don't have to blame myself for feeling upset. Instead, I can easily understand that my experience is a temporary bodily reaction caused by my neurology, and I don't need to look for something/someone to blame -- especially myself.

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"...being oversensitive isn't always a bad thing." I do agree. I hear sounds no one else notices. I know when: the refrigerator comes on, someone closes a car door outside, a cat is mewing far away, and when a faucet's dripping. I like noticing things that other people don't. Most of what I hear is pleasant, so the sounds that bother me matter less, if you can understand that.

I feel the same way as Kat! Very well said!To: Soundsensitivity Sent: Thursday, September 29, 2011 9:42 PMSubject: Posting less...aha moments...taking time to process

When I first learned about Sensory Processing Disorder, and Misophonia in particular (within the last couple months), I had a similar reaction as many others...."WOW! I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE!!!"

I starting spending A LOT of time scouring the internet for information. Eventually, I found this group, and became a little obsessed, posting a lot. My consciousness was reorganizing to this new discovery of a condition that I had apparently suffered from my whole life and never knew it... until now.

Not long after joining this forum, I started to experience major "aha" moments regarding my past. Old memories started flooding in and began to overwhelm me. My adrenals were working overtime just processing it all. My mind started to review occasion after occasion where I might have over-reacted, or lost my temper, or had strained relations and/or communications, etc. I had wondered for so long why certain things were so hard for me when they appeared so easy for everyone else.

Now, I can look back and see that when I was short, or frustrated, or angry for no apparent reason, there actually was a reason, or at least a cause. But because I didn't know about this condition, and the affect it had on my adrenals, I looked for other things/people/situations to blame, including myself -- which led to low self-esteem and self-destructive habits.

I NEVER stopped looking for ways to "improve" myself -- under the assumption that something was "wrong" with me and needed to be fixed. But no matter what I tried, nothing got rid of the underlying shortness, frustration, lingering stress and sometimes extreme anger. Then I slowly began to isolate myself without even realizing I was doing it.

Recently, in the last week or so, I've felt the need to take a step back and let all of this sink in. I read a few posts, but no longer feel the need to immerse myself in the why's or what now's.

Now, I look at all my communications with people very differently. I'm getting over the guilt of my past actions and learning to accept my sensitivities as a part of my nature. And, by the way, being oversensitive isn't always a bad thing either. There are also benefits.

The good thing is, now that I know I'm severely affected by certain sounds, stimuli and environments, I have a new self-granted power to choose how I interact with them. And if/when I am triggered, I don't have to blame myself for feeling upset. Instead, I can easily understand that my experience is a temporary bodily reaction caused by my neurology, and I don't need to look for something/someone to blame -- especially myself.