A Life Full of Misunderstanding

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(I know this post is on the long side but I am a little excited to finally have

a " name " to my " problem " and I am not the only one suffering with this abnormal

curse. Bare with me. And thank you. )

Hello. I am new to this group and here to tell my story to others like me whom I

never knew existed till just recently.

I am 25 and back to almost as far I can remember, maybe 7 if not, younger, I

have always had little annoyances. I would be sitting in front of the tv

absorbed in a good movie or show and my mom would sit behind me on the couch and

the second she'd have a pop cycle, salad, or chips I would lose my temper. I

couldn't bare to hear the sounds of her eating. At the dinner table I could

hardly eat if my father was eating with us. I would throw temper tantrums just

because of the sounds that my father would make while eating his food. I was

called a brat, spoiled rotten and other things and it hurts because I couldn't

help it.I was so young and I didn't understand what was wrong with me.

later years while trying to do homework I could not even listened to a faucet

dripping or a clock ticking. to this very day I still have a hard time with all

these symptoms including many many more . nail clippers, faucets dripping, nail

biting gum chewing, gum snapping, lip smacking, computer typing, nose

sniffeling, the sound of a throat being cleared, heavy breathing, food crunching

(even when these are sound effects on tv or movies!) ALL of these things and so

many more strike a nerve everyday of my life.

I have been to my doctor on many different occasions. I have been on prozac, and

then some other prescription for general anxiety disorder. Then I was told a for

of OCD was the cause to my problems. Now I am on zoloft, once again for anxiety.

The zoloft does help some with the anxiety, but I still have the awful reactions

to any of the above listed noises when they happen. It gets in the way in the

break room at work, most of the time I wear ear buds or eat in my car. My fiance

doesn't under stand why I can't stand being around the sound of nail clippers.

And till this day my poor mother feels like she can't eat in the same room as me

and it breaks my heart.

I am some what relieved that I am finding information on these certain symptoms

and that they have a name and are caused by something unconscious and

uncontrollable... No, I am not happy to live with it, but relived I am not

alone.