Guest guest Posted December 14, 2004 Report Share Posted December 14, 2004 hey, I can't say I understand, but i kinda do with the mom situation. My mom tends to get mad when I start having my "episodes" (i'm coming off the paxil too) she gets mad and starts screaming at me "what is wrong with you!!"...Needless to say it really pisses me off. oh well..grabar5 wrote: its probably been a good six or so months, but my mom had another blow up about me not working. she said, "she isnt going to go through this for another year". after she left i just kind of laughed because im not as sensitive as i once was so it wasnt horribly painful and thats all i can pretty much do is laugh unless the magic paxil and prozac genie comes and takes my symptoms away. this has destroyed my relationship with her, but i wonder how she would treat me if i had cancer or aids. i dont hold as much against her because my situation is not well known. although, i honestly dont think we would have a relationship if i didnt need them because of the way my parents have treated me outside of money concerns. im just such an easy target because i have very little control that it hurts a lot more and i cant just leave or stand up for yourself in the unhealthy relationship.its very hypothetical, but i dont think i would keep any of the relationships i have now if things changed. when i have been at my most vulnerable i have been treated worse then i even was before. im really bitter about that, and i have started to not take any shit. im sure i will have some good stories for you guys in the up coming months because i have always been so passive and agreeing of others to make them feel good and make people like me. anyways, back to my mom--i saw this coming because three of my friends had birthdays this last week so i went out four out of five days. it wasnt pleasant or fun, but i went through it because i felt guilty not showing up (wont do that again). anyways, i knew i would pay for it emotionally and with my mom who sees me going out and not working as im just milking this so i dont have to work. when its really like work to do this. plus, i thought she wanted me to get out of the house.thank you for listeningTo subscribe to the off-topic list go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/socialWandR/ __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 14, 2004 Report Share Posted December 14, 2004 well, i blew up at my mom tonight. i was really yelling. that hasnt happened in like a year over paxil symptoms. a friend of her's was over and he was asking some specific questions about our relationship (me and my moms) and i dont know how it started. but, my mom started saying all the stuff she said right after i discontinuted paxil two years ago--- " who else in fargo do you know that this has happened to, nobody so why should i believe you? " " i have done research with differnet people like counselors and they say it isnt true? " then she would sigh at me when i would say my symptoms from the anti-depressants. she also said i need to see a counselor to make my mind better because im controlling the severity of the symptoms. just complete ignorance like i had never talked to her about this. i thought we had made headway a little bit over the last two years, but until its a national story on the news she isnt going to believe it. i even said that what if i had aids would you treat me like this and she said aids is well known so thats different. im glad it finally happened though. at least i know where she stands after all this time and i can just give up on her being sensitive about this. i just dont care anymore about what she thinks or cares about, that burden finally just lifted. we were pretty close growing up so i always tried to please her. but, she invalidated my feelings when i had anxiety or didnt like here smoking in the womb or constantly around me, etc.... it finally just bit our relationship in the butt because of the severity of what happened. i really wish i was okay and could just get away from her, family, and friends that treated me like a piece of nothing after this happened. my dad calls me a loser, friends argue with me about it or make fun of me. i guess you really never know what kind of people you have around you until something bad happens. i didnt expect the world or anything i just thought i would garner some more support and validation. i guess i was wrong. did most of you just become so hardened towards others that you just stopped caring? because i think i finally reached that point. i just dont care anymore. > its probably been a good six or so months, but my mom had another blow up about me not working. she said, " she isnt going to go through this for another year " . after she left i just kind of laughed because im not as sensitive as i once was so it wasnt horribly painful and thats all i can pretty much do is laugh unless the magic paxil and prozac genie comes and takes my symptoms away. this has destroyed my relationship with her, but i wonder how she would treat me if i had cancer or aids. i dont hold as much against her because my situation is not well known. although, i honestly dont think we would have a relationship if i didnt need them because of the way my parents have treated me outside of money concerns. im just such an easy target because i have very little control that it hurts a lot more and i cant just leave or stand up for yourself in the unhealthy relationship. > > its very hypothetical, but i dont think i would keep any of the relationships i have now if things changed. when i have been at my most vulnerable i have been treated worse then i even was before. im really bitter about that, and i have started to not take any shit. im sure i will have some good stories for you guys in the up coming months because i have always been so passive and agreeing of others to make them feel good and make people like me. > > anyways, back to my mom--i saw this coming because three of my friends had birthdays this last week so i went out four out of five days. it wasnt pleasant or fun, but i went through it because i felt guilty not showing up (wont do that again). anyways, i knew i would pay for it emotionally and with my mom who sees me going out and not working as im just milking this so i dont have to work. when its really like work to do this. plus, i thought she wanted me to get out of the house. > > thank you for listening > > > > > > To subscribe to the off-topic list go to: > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/socialWandR/ > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 15, 2004 Report Share Posted December 15, 2004 no my mom isnt on or ever been on prozac to my knowledge. she just took a stand and she's not moving from the stand she took. she can very stubborn, i guess thats where i get it from. > In a message dated 12/14/04 10:42:56 PM Mountain Standard Time, > grabar5@y... writes: > > > > did most of you just become so hardened towards others that you just > > stopped caring? because i think i finally reached that point. i just dont care > > anymore. > > My mom, before she died, said similar things -- but I just ignored here, but > then it was easy because I didn't live with her, and I stopped seeing a lot of > our friends who thought I was making this all up 7 years ago, and I realized > it was a blessing in disguise to find out who and what people really are. > Isn't your mom on prozac?? That could be one reason she's so lacking in empathy. > > > " Blind Reason " > a novel of pharmaceutical intrigue > Think your antidepressant is safe? Think again. It's > Unsafe At Any Dose Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 15, 2004 Report Share Posted December 15, 2004 yeah i heard about it being on primetime. but, its going to have to be more widespread then that for my mom to believe it. other people she knows will have to have this happen as well and they will have to be willing to share it with her. so basically, it never will happen. she is hung up on it doesnt happen to the majority of people. even if she did believe me at this point i wouldnt really care anymore. i wont let myself get close to her again because i dont trust her. so her opinion doesnt mean much to me. i know when somebody just goes to far to the point where you have to let them go. its happened a couple times with my friends and i felt the same way about them that i do about my mom now. its just a casual relationship, like i had and have with those friends. i think that it is emotionally healthy for me and glad it finally happened. like you said you just stop caring about their opinion or dont let it affect you because you dont care or trust them. - In Withdrawal_and_Recovery , " C Creel " <ccreel@r...> wrote: > <<but until its a national story on the news she isnt going to believe it>> > > > It WAS on the news the other night--Prime Time live. I posted URLs the > other day. > > C Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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